I never knew that my wife was in so much pain. I had no idea. There were no indications either. She never openly discussed it. Men are not good at sensing it, nor are we mind readers.
And that I was a coward for making her go through all that by herself. I am a horrible person. A terrible husband and a jack*ss of a partner. My ego and my pride made me so masochistic that I failed to be the person my wife needs and requires me to be.
Her breakdown was two nights ago, but it still haunts me. Whenever I look in the mirror to shave, all I see is an incapable man staring back at me with his gauntly eyes. I could feel the gaping hole that Gracie was telling me about while she was crying. Every fiber of me can sense it now. Too ashamed to admit, even to myself, that I was never there for her. I
