The complicated love

Chapter 16

However, the better the relationship, the worse the feeling of being abandoned. Shen Luca's eyes were covered with deep light. He spoke with difficulty. " You once had sincerity ... "Now, she has wrapped herself up and forbid anyone to come near. In a trance, Shen Luca raised a hand and gently held one side of her face. Thumb gently rubbed her delicate skin, from cheek to ear ... His movements made Gu Luo's heart tremble. Even weirder, he even bowed his head and kissed her on the forehead. She stood still in a daze, and her eyelashes trembled like butterfly wings. "Then, Shen Luca's hoarse voice struck her eardrum, which made her even more uneasy. Stop drinking for you, take care of you when you are drunk, try to get used to your moodiness and pampering, and accept your disgust for me regardless of the reason, including the accident two years ago ... "What I have done in recent years is not only coerced by you, but also not to repay the financial support from my family." It is my wishful thinking that I am stuck in the past and have expectations for you. "Gu Luo, you can't change back to the kind and innocent girl you used to be, can you?" His eyes are real and sad. There is the pain of struggle, but also the entanglement mixed with hope and disappointment. After hearing these words from Shen Luca, Gu Luo suddenly took the initiative to embrace him.Gu Luo held Shen Luca close to his chest. She said slowly in a deeply moved tone. "Brother Shen Luca, thank you for doing so much for me." But ... "At this point, her tone suddenly changed." Don't you think it's a ridiculous question to ask me if I can change back to the way I was when I was nine years old? "She charming smile, eyebrow eye hook up. "Immediately, he made fun of it in a playful tone. You are so capable, why don't you give it a try and build a time shuttle? "Say that finish, she let him go. Shen Luca also lowered her arm and didn't hold her in her arms again. The light shone on his gentle and handsome face, adding a little abstinence and coldness. The eggs in the pot are burnt through. The burnt epidermis changed from golden to black ... Shen Luca had to make another one. At dinner. Gu Luo's mood is not affected at all. As usual, she expressed her dissatisfaction with the food at will. I said I didn't like it, but I still ate a lot. Just like her relationship with Shen Luca. She expressed her dislike for him more than once, but she still insisted on marrying him. In contrast, Shen Luca is more reticent. Reason told him that it had nothing to do with him how bad Gu Luo became. But on this scale, there is also an emotional weight. Emotionally, he always favors her involuntarily. He knows what she suffered as a child, such as the a***e of her biological father and the bullying of her peers. She doesn't like taking pictures. Especially put on some exaggerated clothes to take pictures. Because she was forced to dress up by her biological father, she put on all kinds of strange postures in front of the camera at an inexperienced age. Her biological father used those photos to make money, which has reached the point of madness. These are all true, and few people know, including the old man. So she didn't want to take wedding photos, and he totally understood. What he said to her today, including what he said in the company restaurant before, was to change their strange relationship at present. But she obviously can't make any changes. She refused to communicate with him seriously. Once the past is mentioned, she will have great boredom and resistance ... Her thoughts are too complicated. Shen Luca put them all aside for the time being. He looked across the table at Gu Luo and saw that her soup bowl was empty, so he subconsciously wanted to fill it for her. Before the brain gave instructions, the hand had already reached out. Gu Luo also accustomed to his care, no surprise. Shen Luca even suspected that if he didn't help fill it, she wouldn't drink the second bowl. At the same time, I can't help thinking about how she spent these two years. Time passed quietly. Gu Luo's graduation thesis defense went well. Business at school is almost over. On the day she filmed graduation photo, Shen Luca acted like her fiance and gave her a bunch of flowers. He also booked a table in the restaurant to celebrate her. Play and do the whole set. Gu Luo took photos one by one and posted them on personal dynamics. Many people sent her graduation wishes. Guan Yue has been clamoring for her to return home quickly. She is in no mood to eat and has been sending messages to others. Therefore, she has no intention of paying attention, and there are no other guests in the restaurant except them. She doesn't care either, because the piano player plays the music that she likes. She didn't respond until Shen Luca pushed the graduation gift to her. " This is for you. "He didn't say anything else. Gu Luo had some accidents. She put down her mobile phone and began to open presents. Under the outer paper package, there is a velvet box. In the box, it is a necklace. It is not a common style in the market and has a strong sense of personal design. The chain alone has adopted many styles. "When Gu Luo got the present, he didn't say whether he liked it or not. He took a photo first. Damn, I edited it all. You should have taken it out earlier. "She is like an ordinary little girl, complaining innocently. The light in the restaurant is soft and romantic. "Shen Luca looked at her, her Adam's apple rolling gently." Do you want me to put it on for you? "Hearing this, Gu Luo's smile disappeared instantly." Don't. "After the photo is taken, this necklace has no other value. She returned it to Shen Luca. Shen Luca pursed her lips and looked at her, but she didn't say anything else after all. Tonight, Gu Luo drank some wine, but he didn't get drunk. Back to the apartment, it's already more than nine o'clock in the evening. As soon as she entered the door, she pushed Shen Luca behind the door and put her arms around his neck. The room was dark before the light was turned on. "Gu Luo complained discontentedly, because he was a little tipsy. You didn't talk to me all the way. Are you being cold and violent to me? "I confiscated your gift. Are you unhappy?" Well, I'll coax you ... "After hearing that last sentence, Shen Luca had a strange mood. The words sound just fell and Gu Luo stood on tiptoe and kissed him on the neck. Shen Luca was stiff. In the darkness, the pupil of his eye became darker and deeper. When Gu Luo was about to back off, Shen Luca put her arm around her waist. At the same time, his other hand clasped the back of her head and pressed her to his lips. He held her lip, nibbling and grinding. Then he skillfully pried open her shell teeth and kissed her seriously. Between the lips and teeth, his gentleness is fully displayed. "Strangely enough, although she is not overbearing, she has the feeling that she is firmly wrapped up by him." Well ... "Gu Luo couldn't help but hum, hooked his neck arm hard, take the initiative to tie him up. He is very good at such things, hooking her up in the sea of desire and forgetting all her troubles. In fact, she realized it long ago. She hates Shen Luca, but she doesn't resist doing intimate things with him. For a long time, she couldn't forgive herself. Therefore, every time she is intimate with Shen Luca, she will punish herself and t*****e herself.Luca. She wants to ease her guilt. They are closely intertwined. After a kiss, Shen Luca breathed heavily, held her face and said the belated blessing. "Happy graduation." Gu Luo don't want to listen to these, find his lips again, take the initiative to kiss.Compared with Shen Luca's proficiency, Gu Luo's kiss was disorganized. It's dark, and they don't have any restrictions. Somehow, I kissed the sofa. In the dark, Gu Luo sat on Shen Luca's lap and "humbly asked for advice". Shen Luca's breathing became heavier and heavier. He tried to push her away several times, but she stuck up. He gave her a peck in the face. "Go to bed early." The voice is already hoarse. Gu Luo is adamant4. "I graduated." Said, and gather together in the past. Shen Luca held her waist and pressed her on the back of the sofa. He propped himself up slightly to avoid her kiss. "Gu Luo, you said, you hate me, why are you still willing to ..." His reason forcibly suppressed that desire. Gu Luo just wants to enjoy the moment. She held his neck tightly, interrupted him solemnly and said with a smile. "Because you did a good job." She can't choose words carefully and use whatever comes to her mind. Shen Luca breathes slightly, and seems to be speechless. Gu Luo kissed him on the neck again, as if he had any switch here. Shen Luca was distracted by her teasing. He clenched her waist, answered blows with blows, bowed his head and printed a kiss on her neck. She is wearing a skirt with suspenders and there is hardly any cloth on her shoulders. Shen Luca followed her neckline and swam to her shoulder. Her thin lip licked her collarbone, leaving a deep and shallow red mark. The feeling of crisp numbness, like an electric shock, quickly spread to the whole body. Gu Luo chuckled and huddled in Shen Luca's arms. There are many folds on the cloth because of friction. Suddenly, she lost weight. Shen Luca put an arm through the bend of her leg and picked her up. He is rational after all. After carrying her back to her room, put her gently on the bed. Gu Luo also wanted to climb him for a kiss, but he pressed him down. She frowned, especially displeased. "Shen Luca, what are you doing ..." "Go to sleep." Shen Luca sat up and turned on the warm bedside lamp. With that light, he unbuttoned the high-heeled shoes on her feet and helped her take off her shoes. Gu Luo also sat up. Her hair is messy, and a sling slips, which makes her more charming if she doesn't show it. Looking at beauty under the lamp, the more you look, the more you can't open your eyes. Shen Luca's eyes, which were finally clear, suddenly surged with unclean light. "For the last time tonight." He seemed to indulge and obey her and said this. Then, she grabbed her calf and suddenly pulled her to her side. Gu Luo crashed into his arms off guard. Soon it was his deep kiss. After the long kiss, Gu Luo fell weakly on his chest. Her eyes were dyed with deep red, and her nose was covered with thin sweat. Shen Luca didn't push her away immediately, but waited patiently for her to calm down. In a short time, she was exhausted and ordered him overbearing. "Take me to the bathroom." Her legs are so soft that she can't walk. Instead of letting Shen Luca see her jokes, she might as well torment him. Shen Luca did not refuse. However, he first went to the bathroom to put hot water and ordered aromatherapy. I also helped her prepare clean panties, nightdresses and bath towels in advance. After doing this, he came to the bed, relaxed a princess hug and carried her into the bathroom. He put her on the ground. Seeing that she was a little unsteady, he gave her a hand. "I'll be right outside. Call me if you need anything." Gu Luo casually, did not respond to him, and began to take off his clothes directly. Shen Luca politely avoided at once and closed the door behind him. He went to the bed and took his high heels to the shoe rack outside. Then he took a pair of slippers and put them outside bathroom door. The folds in the bed were also smoothed out by him. Everything is in order again. After that, fearing that Gu Luo had an emergency in the bathroom, he brought the computer to work. There is a single person sofa in the room. He sat on the sofa and sank into softness, dispelling the fatigue of the day. He is in London, but he has to take care of his work at home. All the experimental procedures needed in China have been completed. What he needs to pay attention to is the experimental data they send every day. In case of mistakes during the test. So far, the experiment is going well. In addition, there are several other project plans, and he has to go through them one by one to complete the electronic signature. When Gu Luo came out of the bath, Shen Luca was reading the file. He said "go to bed early" without looking up. Gu Luo stood in situ, looking a little anxious. "I suddenly ... Anyway, I want that. Go and buy it for me." Hearing this, Shen Luca stopped his movements and looked up. I saw her legs together, one hand on her lower abdomen. He guessed what she wanted without her saying much. "cloakroom, the third box on the right ..." Halfway through, his words came to an abrupt end. I saw that he got up directly and simply helped her with it. After receiving the box of things, Gu Luo could not help wondering. For one thing, she has never seen it in the cloakroom before. Secondly, I wonder when he prepared it. Look at her motionless, Shen Luca said quietly. "For night use, I think I got it right." It's still her usual brand. Gu Luo eyed him up and down, his eyes searching. Shen Luca knew that she didn't think of any good words in her heart, and her face was helpless. "Gu Luo, I'm not a pervert." Then he changed the subject and asked, "Do you want me to carry you in?" "No need." Gu Luo a face of ao jiao, turn round and then walk. Shen Luca looked at her back with a smile in her eyes. Time is ticking by. By the time Shen Luca finished those papers, Gu Luo would have fallen asleep. He didn't leave at once. After closing the computer, I cleaned the bathroom again. Such as changed clothes and lost hair. how manyAfter the clock, the bathroom was spotless again. He also filled a hot water bottle and put it in Gu Luo's quilt to warm her stomach. Taking care of all aspects of her life has become a habit unconsciously. Want to quit, but always can't do it. When he was about to go out, Gu Lucy suddenly called. "Shen Luca, I saw the photos sent by Lolo." I am also happy for her that she can graduate smoothly. "Just curious ... did you design that necklace yourself?" And here, Shen Luca looked at the man who had fallen asleep, and his eyes were covered with unspeakable emotions.

Shen Luca walked out of Gu Luo's bedroom before answering Gu Lucy. "I designed the pattern." Gu Lucy answered with a smile. "The necklace is very beautiful. If we have talents like you in our design department, I can worry a lot. " But then, her tone was not so relaxed. She clenched her mobile phone and asked nervously. "Shen Luca, do you really want to marry her?" "Well, to knot. You have asked me the same question many times, and my answer will not change, so there is no need to ask it again. Besides, it's late here ... "He obviously didn't want to talk to her too much. Gu Lucy was afraid that Shen Luca would suddenly hang up the phone, so she immediately stole his words and was concerned. "Shen Luca, I don't want you to regret it for life." If you like, I can help you get rid of Gu Luo. And afterwards, I don't need you to be with me. "We are friends, and we had such a close relationship." Try to trust me, okay? "Shen Luca sat on the sofa, in the dark. "He gathered his eyebrows and said in a straight voice. Before I decided to accept this marriage, I had done a lot of deliberation, and I couldn't go back on my word as the wedding day approached. "Even if I have any opinions, I should solve them myself and should not involve others." Besides, since you mentioned our previous relationship, it must be clear that we should not contact each other privately. "Let's call it a day. I don't want to cause trouble to each other's lives." Gu Lucy heard the last sentence, and her heart ached. She shows people with a gentle and reserved image. But the real her dare to love and hate, confident and patient. After seeing those photos of Gu Luofa, she was afraid. Now Shen Luca didn't give her the answer she wanted, and she had to draw a line with her, forcing her not to hide her feelings any more. "Shen Luca ..." Gu Lucy suppressed her emotions. "Are we really impossible?" Shen Luca didn't think twice. "It's all in the past." Lucy's eyes are a little moist. She slowed down. "I want a blind date. The other side's conditions are very good, and Dad is very satisfied with him. " Not surprisingly, I will associate with him, get married and have children. "In my previous plan, you were the man who accompanied me to my old age." Shen Luca, at this point, it is wrong to say more. "I realized the reality." But I still want to ask you, did you really love me during our relationship? "She has an obsession with Shen Luca. Mainly because they didn't have a happy ending. The figure on the sofa, sitting gracefully, is full of gentleman breath. But when it comes to refusing people, Shen Luca is definitely not a gentleman. " If I love you, we won't break up. "Gu Lucy personally crushed that slim hope. After hearing Shen Luca's answer, her face was stiff. Trying to pull up a smile, but I can't. She is the only girlfriend Shen Luca has ever admitted. However, she knows better than anyone that this identity was obtained by improper means. That's when she discovered Shen Luca's secret. She will keep his secret, but she still asks him to associate with herself half jokingly. I didn't expect much originally, but I didn't know he agreed. She will always remember. It was a sunny day, and he was standing in the shade, and the mottled light and shadow danced, making him look like a phantom. He stood in front of her with a gentle tone. " Let's try it. "Just trying, she felt great joy. In the five months of their relationship, their relationship only stayed at the level of trying. In his spare time, in addition to staying in the laboratory, he is going to pick up cooperation outside the school. They date very few times. Every date, he was exhausted and turned a blind eye to her elaborate dress and hints. But even so, they are still the most suitable couple in the eyes of others. Memories come to an abrupt end. Gu Lucy has a hoarse voice. " Shen Luca, do you think I'm ridiculous? "I've always wanted to get back together with you ..." I don't blame you, because you have already made it clear to me. "I didn't give up on myself. After all, after we broke up, you didn't associate with anyone else, which encouraged me invisibly." But at least we are still friends. At least, I am one of the few female friends around you, right? "After that, she added a sentence that was particularly against her will." Say hello to my aunt for me. "Smell speech, Shen Luca's eyes are deep. He knows. Some things, once given, the other party wants more. After the call, Gu Lucy turned pale. She is eager to know what she should do to make Shen Luca fall in love with herself. Gu Luo's methods are too dirty for her. She wants to sink Luca's heart, not just the people who trapped him. The next day. Gu Luo woke up at dawn. She has a stomachache and wants to drink some hot water. When I passed the tea table, I saw the cigarette butts in the ashtray. And there is more than one. Before she could explore anything, the door opened behind her. Shen Luca came out of the study in casual clothes. He got up earlier than Gu Luo just to deal with work. Hearing her getting up, he came out to have a look. "They looked at each other, and Gu Luo asked seriously. You smoked last night? "Shen Luca simply" hmm ". "Then he went up to her and asked her smoothly. What to do so early? ""I have a stomachache. "She answered simply. Words fall, her eyes are still on the ashtray. She didn't know that Shen Luca was so addicted to cigarettes. I cann't believe I smoked so many cigarettes in one night At the same time, I am also curious about what can make him have such a big mood fluctuation and need to borrow cigarettes to eliminate his worries. She wants to know everything that can upset him. While thinking, Shen Luca has poured a cup of hot water. hePass her the water, and after she took it, she casually said a sentence. "I thought you quit." Shen Luca suddenly raised her eyes and stared at her seemingly pure face. She unknown so, slightly tilted his head. "Look what I'm doing." Shen Luca withdrew her eyes and her tone was indifferent and meaningless. "I'm too addicted to give up." He walked to the tea table to clean up the ashtray. Gu Luo also sat down on the sofa, intentionally to sprinkle salt on his wound, said with great interest. "You are so determined, can't you fight against just a cigarette addiction?" I think you don't want to quit. "After all, you can't drown your sorrows in wine." If you can't even smoke, wouldn't all the fun of being a man be gone? "Shen Luca replied lukewarm." Besides cigarettes and alcohol, men have fun with women. "Gu Luo took a sip of hot water, but felt more pain in his lower abdomen. Maybe he was angry with Shen Luca. " You must hate me for such a bad tone. "Shen Luca put the clean ashtray back and looked at her and asked." Why should I hate you? "Gu Luo frowned slightly." Because I forced you to smoke, and I made you addicted to cigarettes. "Shen Luca fingers slightly tight. "He looked at Gu Luo, relaxed and proud, with heavy eyes." So, you remember. " Shen Luca's phoenix eyes are extremely beautiful. Elegance is mixed with a little prestige. When his eyes change, most people can't tell. Gu Luo can feel that he is in a bad mood at the moment. Maybe it's about smoking addiction. But she is not afraid that he is in a bad mood. On the contrary, she is happy to see it. "Of course I remember." Don't be surprised. I have always had a good memory. "Say that finish, she took another gulp of hot water. Out of the corner of his eye, Shen Luca took his long legs and left the living room. Her eyes are half drooping and thoughtful. In high school, Shen Luca was excellent in character and scholarship and flawless. Gu Luo has seen him shine. At that time, he wore a white silver-gray short-sleeved school uniform. As a discipline committee member of the school, he sometimes checked at the school gate.