Charlie I throw up as soon as Lance leaves. After I’ve retched, I start bawling. I had no idea breaking up could feel so awful. But I can’t do this. I call Sadie to come over and help me pack. Tabitha’s staying with Adele—and after what Adele’s been through, I don't want to bug her. Her business partner’s dead, and she was questioned about his murder. She’s going through enough. But when my doorbell rings, all three of my friends are standing outside. And I fall apart all over again. We spend all morning and half the afternoon getting everything important for the short term shoved into my Subaru. The rest I can come back and get when I sell the house. Or when my heart isn’t breaking into a million shattered pieces and I am able to think straight. “Are you sure this is the right thing?

