Scouts of the broken past.

Chapter One

The world doesn't revolves around you.

Nobody gives a fvck about your entire existence, not unless being with you benefits them.

People only care about you when you have the money, fame, high status, and they only care about you when they're all by themselves feeling lonely.

You know what? People will never come after you not unless they want something from you, not unless you have something that is very beneficial to them, and that's a fact.

Even with your family, friends, your girlfriend or boyfriend, all of them are just staying and being with you 'cause they all benefits from the connection that you had. (What I'm saying also depends on the situation.)

Family? They benefit from what you are doing in life, just like your job, they'll benefit from It 'cause you'll probably give your salary to pay the house bills. If you're a student, they'll benefit from the house chores that you're doing.

Friends? They all benefit from the care, love and attention you give, if they need someone you're just there willing to be there for them, they benefit from your existence especially when they don't have anyone to hold on to.

A boy/girlfirend? Of course they'll also benefit from the connection you both had.

See? All of the people that comes after you, benefits from you. But what happens when you no longer have those aspects? You'll be ended up alone crying and wondering what's going on?

And when that time comes you'll ended up asking these questions below. Especially when you are hurt, in pain and suffering.

Why do people hurt each other?

There's some things in life that people can't accept the fact that they're the only one who's suffering, they want another person to feel what they are currently struggling, they want to disregard their emotions by giving It to the other people.

They will feel good when someone was suffering the way they do and wanna know why? It's because they think It's not fair, that the world is unfair to them. They'll think, out of all people out here why am I the only one who's suffering? No, you're wrong...

The world is unfair for everyone, in any aspect of our lives as you can see, we all struggle. Does the world being unfair for everyone makes it fair?

And why do people feel good when they're passing the pain to the others? It's because they're not healed yet.

There's some quote that I've read on the internet, I don't know who said this but here it is. "The abused people became the abuser when they're not healed." And that s**t hits me so hard, It made me realized a lot of things.

It's just like a coping mechanism that people eventually do to disregard what they are currently feeling.

People hurt somebody to cope up the pain that causes them to get hurt, but isn't it sad?

The reason of your suffering which made you think the world isn't fair... You're passing it to the others. Yes I know, the world Is not fair, It has never been. But by giving the same pain you've felt to the others will make you feel great?

If you have some conscience of course you'll feel some guilt for passing those but if you doesn't, guess what? You'll be happy for doing what you did.

The people that was hurt, will most likely to hurt somebody. The people who was loved, will most likely to give some love to everybody.

Be nice to people, all of us may not know the deeper roots that causes them to get hurt and please if you are hurting... Don't pass it to the others.

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There's a small village in town, this story were just made by my own fantasy, It is not related to anybody.

In that village, there is a family. All of them are living in the same roof of course, there's one time all of them fought.

The mother grew up suffering, working, and doing everything to survive in her daily lives. Ever since she was young... She was working, she experienced being maltreated by her own family. Does she receive some love? Maybe, but most of the times she suffer.

So when the time she already have her own family she's been a very strict mother that causes her children to somehow hate her, but they don't know that she's only doing It for their own good.

She always think that people around her children were a bad person, wanna know why? It's because she grew up being surrounded by the bad guys.

No one would understand her 'cause they doesn't understand what's the real reason why she's acting like that.

She maybe receive some a small glimpse of love in her younger years but It is not enough for her to be able to express and give some love to her own family.

It is hard for people to give something that they've never experienced receiving, of course she loves her family but she doesn't know how to express and show It.

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Another story, another village.

There are two sisters who ran away from their home 'cause their parents are kinda abusive, they always hurt them... Physically, mentally and emotionally.

The older sister despised what their parents made them feel, It gives her trauma, and she wants her younger sister to never experienced It, she wants to protect her sister. That was the promise she made to herself.

The years goes by, their both growing of course and until now she doesn't healed from the trauma her parents has caused. She always thinks about It, 'cause definitely she hates It.

But there's some quote I also read on the internet. "The more you hate something about a person or a thing, the more you'll ended up becoming like It."

And yes, the older sister became just like her mother. She always abused her little sister, she always hurt her, and It was too late when she realized what she had become. She only realized everything when her sister... Is already gone.

If you're not healed, try your best to do anything to heal, 'cause whatever you do? Your trauma will always triggers you to become the person you are not, or you don't want to.

Try your best to heal, even though healing process sucks all of your energy, even though It will drains the s**t out of you.

Healing is the best thing you can do to make the other people that surrounds you not be implicated by your own trauma.

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As you can see, people who was hurting one another are also a victim of the other person that hurts them.

The cycle would never end not until each one of them are finally healed. You cannot judge a person by how s/he acts, there might be some deeper roots that cause them to act like that.

People hurting one another was the cause of the unhealed trauma.

People who has trauma creates coping mechanism, and one of those are sadly... Making the others hurt the same way they do.

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Why do people make fun of one another?

Some were doing those things to gain some attention from the other people, some are doing It to gain some validation that they are a 'funny' person or maybe a validation that they are better than the person they were making fun of.

There's some people who doesn't get any attention not unless they act different from what they truly are, just like making fun of one another.

Sometimes the people who make fun of the other person only wants attention, they always seek for It, and they are not gonna receive It not until they made something wrong which is kinda sad.

People always seek for attention, all of us craves for It, but when we already realize that we don't need It from the others, that we can just give It to ourself we may no longer needed to do some people pleasing.

People pleasing by making fun of something, attention seeker? Yeah, maybe they are, but not all of attention seekers were a bad person, It made them only bad 'cause they never receive It through their early years, It only made them bad 'cause until now they still seek the attention of the others instead of giving their full attention on themselves.

In a circle of friends It is normal to make some jokes, but of course in every circle of friends there is someone who secretly hates you, and guess what? That person will probably make fun of you most of the times and saying that It was just a joke. What a lame reason.

A validation that they are funny even though their jokes are already below the belt, or It's already causing someone to get hurt, are bullshit.

Sometimes It's also a validation that they're better than the person they were making fun of.

It's just like when you are insecure with someone you'll probably notice some small things that you hate about that person and you'll ended up making fun of It.

People making fun of one another is bullshit.