The Brilliant Twin

New Start

A beautiful girl with gorgeous eyes. A hidden world of hurt and lies.

I live in infinity, 

An ocean of love,   

where my mother is love itself,   

and my father is the heart.  

I want to flow with the high tides,    

But how can I?  

When I know the low tides will come,     

and all there will be left is vacuum.   

- Theodora Twitty

Scarlett

THAT IS WHAT I WAS AFRAID OF, BEING LEFT IN VACUUM AND IT SOON BECAME REALITY.

Waking up in the morning seems to be getting harder and harder, especially when you get only an hour or two of sleep. It seems lately that all I do is have nightmares after nightmares.

I woke up to the annoying sound of my alarm clock, I slammed my hand on it turning it off.

It was my first day of school and lets just say I was not elated. Regardless, I got out of bed and took a shower quickly, then got out, wrapped a towel around me, and went into Rose's room. She was still asleep, which was not odd as I usually am the first one to get up. We both look the same except for some of our features. Almost everybody can tell us apart by our hair and our eyes. Her hair is straight and mine are naturally wavy. Her eyes are soothing brown and well, mine are piercing blue. Also, she is more of jeans, a simple red top, and canvas shoes where else I am more of all black and boots.

I step in front of my full-length mirror and sigh. I see myself clearly, blue eyes, golden-brown hair, and pink lips. Yes, I am beautiful...but these days it just doesn't feel that way. These days my Piercing blue eyes only remind me of the water that took my parents away. I sigh again. Today will be happy. Not sad. If people ask I will say I'm okay. Today will be a great first day of school. No matter how much I hate it. Our parents died about four months ago from a car accident with me in it. I somehow survived but they didn't and now it's just my aunt May, my brother Noah, my twin Rose and then obviously me.

I walk downstairs hearing aunt May shouting "Noah please start eating anything healthier than those pills." The anger is most likely aimed at my brother Noah. Ever since the accident, she's been our guardian (despite her never having been a parent) but she is more really like a sister.

"It's all about the coffee, Aunt May" Rose says. "No, it's all about hot chocolate". We grin as we both grab a cup.

"Oh god. I'm late for a meeting with a client. How are you all going to school?" May worries

"Blair is taking us. Don't worry. Now go," Rose reassures, laughing in amusement afterwards. I like Blair. She's one of my best friends.

"I've got to go. See you later." Noah runs out of the house and makes his way to school before we could even say good morning.

Noah's way of grieving is different from us. He decided to get into drugs and he drinks a lot of alcohol. He's kind of a stoner now and I worry about him. 

Blair's car pulls into view. She waves at us and calls us. Rose then asks me "Are you going to be ok going in the car?" "Yes Rose, you don't have to worry, you are only 5 minutes older than me" She nods and we both walk towards Blair's car.

"Hey, guys! How's the morning? “Blair asks.

I roll my eyes, thinking back to this morning. "Rose took too long to get out of bed as always"

"May wasn't sure what to feed us and our brother's still into drugs," Rose adds.

"So positive," I sarcastically remark from the back. "We need more of your optimism, sis."

"Look who is speaking, the one who puts herself to bed every night by crying". I turned away offended, I preferred not to speak. Blair being my best friend spoke up" Rose that was rude"

"Umm…I am sorry Scarlett, it just hurts to see you broken". I still didn't speak so, she and Blair started another discussion that I didn't want to be a part of. Something about Blair being a witch. The car suddenly stops and my head hits the seat in front of me.

"What the hell!" I exclaim in shock and quickly recompose myself. 

"Oh my gosh, I'm so sorry! It must've been a crow or something. Are you ok Scar?" Blair rambles, looking behind for the dead bird.

"I am fine" I reassure, giving her a small smile.

"I can't be afraid of cars forever," I say. Rose gives me a sad smile knowing exactly what I meant.

"Let's just get to school," Rose says, changing the subject.

This will not ruin my day.

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School

Once we get to school, everyone had this pitiful look on their faces, which made me cringe. Over the summer, I didn't go anywhere. I spent most of my time in my house reading. Only people who saw me during the summer were May, Noah, and Rose. During the funeral though, half of the town showed up, I never heard so many sorry or they were such great people before in my life.

We get out of the car after Blair parks in the parking. As we walk through the halls Clary, who is my other best friend but not more than Blair, greets us with a tight hug. The bubbly blonde lets go of us only after we plead for her too.

“OH my Gosh, are you two ok?" Before we can answer she turns to Blair and asks, "Are they ok? Are they still upset?"

I roll my eyes and say, "They are right here. And yes, we are fine." I lie about the last part. Truth is, we'll never be "fine". She gives us another hug and walks off.

Blair points to something behind us. Rose and I turn around only to see Aaron Warner. My ex-boyfriend. I broke up with him because it was too much to cope up with when our parents died.

I give a small wave but he ignores me 

"He hates me." I sigh.

Blair tries to comfort me by saying "That is not hate. That's "you dumped me and I'm too cool to show it, but secretly I'm listening to Air Supply's greatest hits.”t all I do is have nightmares after nightmares.