When I think back to my one night with Blaine, it always leaves me confused.
I know I will always regret it, but I am never sure what exactly it is that I regret.
I would never regret conceiving my sons. Although I never got to meet my other boy, I loved and still love him fiercely.
I mourn that we did not get to meet, and I will never know what it feels like to love him, and be loved by him.
As for my Oliver, I love him more than I do anyone else in this world.
I would die a thousand deaths before I would let anyone hurt him, and even then, my soul would still claw out of the grave to continue fighting.
So I did not regret the pregnancy.
I did not regret the s*x either. It was a beautiful experience.
The best I have had even till this moment. It was more making love than hav
