Torn

Chapter 4. - Possibilities

I woke up somewhere strange, my head hurted way too much and I had no clue what happened yesterday. The sun was getting into my eyes so I sat and looked around. I was in some bedroom, the bed were I was sleeping was big, dark kind of gothic style. The room was big and from it I could see LA. it had those dark glass big windows on the right side. Where the hell am I? I put my foot down ready to get up when I realized I am half naked. I had only my underwear on. No...no.. what did you do Aide? I started to panic . I covered myself with sheets and tried to remember anything form last night but it was all a blank. What is this place? Who does it belong to ? and why am I here? I heard noise coming from the left and laid back down pretending to sleep. I closed my eyes and stated to breathe slowly as if I was sleeping. Somebody came inside and started walking towards me.

"Aide.."-I heard Ed calling me-

What the hell was I doing at Eds place? Did I hooked up with him? Did we sleep together yesterday?

I felt panic starting to kick in …

“Aide” – he sat on the bed next to me-

I slowly opened my eyes and looked at him.

“So you’re awake”

“Did we?” – I looked at him bluntly –

“Did we what?”- he asked obviously having fun-

“Are you trying to provoke me?”- I pulled myself up and sat-

“You didn’t answer my question”- he laughed checking me out –

I realized I was in my underwear and he was looking at my bra so I pulled the sheets up.

“So I’ll take that as no”– I nodded- “What am I doing here?”

“I haven’t said that”- he smirked-

“Fine” – I looked around- “where is my dress?”

“O come on, don’t get like that”

“Whatever Ed”- I rolled eyes- “Just tell me where my dress is so I can go home”

“You are truly buzzkiller” – he got up, went to the cabinet and threw me my dress-

I silently got up and put the dress on, he was just standing there looking at me.

“Why am I here?” – I asked when I got dressed-

“Honestly I don’t know”- he looked around- “You passed out and I just brought you with me”

“Thanks” – I felt kind of embarrassed-

“Do you even remember yesterday?”

“Um… not really”- I got my heels- “Could you maybe take me home?”- I bit my lip-

“Fine, do you want to go right away?”

“Sure”- I put the heels on-

“Then lets go”- he went out-

I started following him silently. I felt so weird as I tried to remember something about last night while we were walking. I recalled his hands on my waist, how angry I was, the things he said and I just felt the same kind of anger I felt yesterday. Once we got out I stopped.

“Actually I’ll just walk” – I’ve said while turning around ready to walk away-

“Where do you think you’re going now?”- he pulled my hand-

“Look”- I’ve moved my hand- “I would rather walk than got in car with you”

“That’s not what you said yesterday”- he laughed-

“What did I say? Please enlighten me”

“You said and I quote”- he got closer- “lets go somewhere”

“Haha “- I moved back- “I didn’t say that”

“Yes you did right before you passed out”- he continued getting closer-

“Well maybe drunk me did say that”- I moved away- “But sane me would never say that, not after you acted the way you did”

“Did you know”- he pulled me to him and wrapped arms around me- “that drunk people tend to ask what they truly want more than sober ones do?”

“And did you know that drunk persons do more stupidly things, the things they regret later more than sober ones do” – I put my hand on his chest only to push him away and when I managed to push him away I just walked away-

“This is not over”- he yelled after me with a dose of humour in his voice-

I just kept on walking further. I will not end up with him, I will not even hook up with him, no way. He is such a player, and I can see he will not give up that easily but I will not be his new toy. I am not one of those girls who he can get that easily. I took a cab home and as I was sitting in it waiting to get home, I decided to ignore him from now on. He can’t have that much power over me can he? When I came home parents were waiting me on the porch. O no, this will not end up good.

“Hey dad” – I kissed his cheek and turned to mom- “Hey mom” – I hugged her-

“Is this the time to come home?”- Mom moved and stared at me- “Do you see now Tamiel?”- She looked at dad- “She reeks of alcohol”

“Lets talk inside” – dad said and went into the house-

Mom gave me a mad look and followed him. Damn, this is not good, not good at all. I followed them inside.

They were both on the hallway, mom crossed her arms and dad had worried face expression.

“Aide, dear”- dad started looking at me- “Where were you?”

“I was.. “- I took a breath thinking about what lie I should tell them- “at Stephanies”

“Really?”- mom looked at me- “Should I call her parents to check?”

“Go ahead” – I raised eyebrows-

“No we believe you”- Dad said looking at mom-

“Tamiel”- mom interrupted him- “ are you really gonna?”

“Stop Celeste “- dad interrupted her- “I will talk with Aideen alone”

Aideen, he called me Aideen not Aide. He is probably so angry.

“Fine”- mom went to the kitchen-

We walked over to the living room.

“Darling”- he sat on the cheer- “you know we both love you and we do everything for you”

“Yes I know dad”- I sat on the cheer opposite of him-

“But this …”- he waved his hand – “you know that this cannot happen”

“I am aware of it “- I nodded-

“I will not ask where were you but we both know you weren’t with Stephanie, and I know that because young Stephanie called half hour ago asking for you but I didn’t tell anything to your poor mother she would freak”

“I am sorry, I was at friends place. I .. Honestly dad I passed out, I drank too much and ..” – I looked at him feeling guilty-

He looked at me disappointed- “I am really disappointed Aideen, you should know better”

“I know, I know “- I nodded feeling the tears in my eyes- “ I am sorry I didn’t want to disappoint you”

“I just want the best for you” – he got up, came to me and hugged me- “you are my little girl Aideen”

“I am not little anymore dad”

“You will always be my little girl” – he smiled- “I have to forbid you to go out for at least two weeks or your mother will eat me alive “

“I know”- I lowered my shoulders – “its fine”

“Glad you understand that when you do something wrong...” – he kissed my forehead- “Now off to bed missy”

“Thanks dad” - I got up-

“Don’t thank me yet now I need to deal with your mother” – he smiled and went out-

I went to bed and slept it off. Next few days I was only allowed to go to the studio, mom was really taking this >>I’m not allowed to go out》 thing too seriously. I behaved and played by my parents rules. I didn’t talk with any of my friends because I realized I left my phone at Eds apartment. Mom took my car keys so every time I went out I needed the driver who of course reported to my mother where I was. Week has past so quickly and I still didn’t hear from anyone. That day when I got up I went to studio and worked on the painting. I didn’t expect to see anyone for at least a week longer. I was all caught up in the work so when I heard footsteps approaching I didn’t pay much attention on it.

“So this is where you’re hiding?” – Ed asked-

The brush fell down from my hand when I heard his voice and I turned around.

“What are you doing here?”- I looked at him confused-

“For starters”- he put hand in his jacket- “I brought you this”- he took my phone out-

“Thanks”- I bend down and got the brush- “You can leave it anywhere”

“That’s not all I came for”

I looked at him.

“Are you avoiding me?”- he smirked-

“Why would I do that?”- I put the pallet on the near table-

“You tell me”- he started walking towards me-

“Stay where you are”- I said quickly- “Look I am so over your game or whatever this was”

“You’re over it?”- He laughed- “I don’t think so”

“I really don’t care what you think Ed, just go and leave me alone”- I crossed arms-

“Fine”- he shrugged- “We will be seeing each other”- he winked-

“Bye”- I turned around and looked at my painting-

Suddenly I’ve realized the angel on my painting is starting to look a lot as Ed. O dang it, I push the canvas and it felt down. I am falling, and I said that would not happen. I got my phone and sat on the floor. I need Stephanie, so I picked her number and told her to come as soon as possible. As I was waiting for her to come, I laid on the floor and stared at the ceiling. I think there must be something wrong with me when I can fall for a guy like that. He is a bad news, and his behaviour is the worst. When Stephanie came I was still in the same position.

“Aide”- she stood at the door- “what’s wrong?”

“What’s not?”- I lifted my hand and showed her to join me-

She came and laid down on the floor next to me.

“Where were you? I called and..”

“I am grounded. The other night when we were out I didn’t came home”

“I know, I called and your father answered, sorry”

“It’s not your fault Steph”

“Where were you?”

“O.o I was with Ed”

“Wait what?”- She sat- “you slept at his place?”

“Not like that”- I rolled eyes- “I just slept”

“Just slept at his place? Yeah right that’s not the Aide I know”

“Oh shut up, he is the worst Steph”

“Yea truly”- she laughed-

“No seriously”- I sat up- “He was here before”

“Of course he was”- she smiled- “how do you always get them?”

“I don’t know”- I shrugged- “he is different Steph, so damn annoying and ughh.. I hate him”

“You know what they say dear love and hate.. such a fine line”

“Please stop” – I got up- “I called you here to help me to stop thinking about him and you are just making it worse”

“Afraid I can’t help you at this Aide, I think he would be perfect for you”

“Awesome, just awesome”

“I tell you what, lets go out, all of us as friends”

“Can’t I am still grounded”

“For how much longer?”

“A week”

“Fine, then after the week”

“Whatever Steph”

“We got a deal” – she got up and hugged me- “I have to go, Seth is waiting for me”

“Tell him I said hello”

“Sure, see ya “- she waved and went out-

What will I do when it comes to Ed? Maybe I should just continue to act distant, but for how long can I actually keep it?