Blood Lust in the Woods

Confused

"Why? So you can pleasure yourself thinking of my brother? When I am here and willing?" He says with a small fake grin covering jis face and highlighting his dimples. He stands and sits right in front of me, knees brushing against mine. I tremble trying to grasp my control. "Let me help you, I wont go any further, I promise." He reaches a hand towards me. I jump to my feet. 

"Don't make me repeat myself. Our abilities are clearly different, did you even think about that? Did you know I could kill you with a snap of my fingers with a smile on my face. And even without that I asked to be alone and I dont want to be touched so back the f**k off when I tell you to. I am very dangerous, I have killed and I will pry kill again. Maybe I am feral so you and your brother should scamper away, or maybe kill me like your last group planned to do. " I say before turning on my heel and rushing into the woods. 

I cursed him out under my breath storming away and drawing my knife. Grumbling a bit more as I started to check for animals and berries, not coming up with much for the ladder. I found a small nest of squirrels and I quickly dispossed of them dropping them in my bag. I spend a few hours roaming the territory always expanding my gift to sense if any other people or unnaturals were near. I sensed nothing not that I thought any would approuch me. If I saw someone alone in the woods, especially here I would expect them to be able to take care of themselves. 

I stepped carfully around the damp leave covered ground inspecting the bright covered leaves associated with fall, inspecting the oranges, reds, and yellows. I breathed in the damp air smiling at the forrest's smell and picking bark off of the tree and fiddling with the wooden form in my hands, peeling back layers and tossing them aside. On my walk I think of the twins, Liam's dimpled smile and unsure nature, Adam's compassion and understanding I sighed thinking about them. I was obviously attracted to both, and God's the way they made me feel. I shivered at the thought, - no stop not now. I couldnt think about them or I would end up petting myself on the forrest ground. Years ago I had dreamed of marriage and children, but learning more about my ability had made me a bit of a pessimist on the thought. Sometimes I had lapses in control and if I lost myself and hurt or killed them I would lose myself.

 Sure I had killed, but I hadn't known them, hadn't cared for them. They would be my downfall, I wouldn't be able to live with myself. Should I leave? If I stayed the temptation would be too much, and I would give into my desires and stay. But if I left I wouldn't only be leaving Adam and Liam, that idea alone hurt. But Nora, Sarah, Owen. I tugged at my hair in distress. I am so confused. My heart started to hurt, this loyalty and sense of family was not something I had felt before, this might be my only chance at the feeling and not just the feeling but the chance at actually having a family to be a part of something and be cared for. I couldnt pass that up. 

 I turn on my heel and begin the walk back towards the tree house. I might not be able to leave my new home, but I would have to put some more seperation between the two of them. The best solution for now, I can change the plan as events change but for now seperation. I repeat the word seperation over and over in my head as I climb the ladder to remind myslef of my plan. Before I reach the top the door is flipped open by a panicked looking Adam, upon seeing me his face melts into a look of relief when I move into his range he hooks his hands in my armpits and picks me up like a child alowing me to skip the last few rungs. I sigh as he pulls me up and to him rapping his arms around me. He hugs me tight, as he does my backpack makes a squich noise reminding me of the carcasses in my bag.  He quickly releases me and I look to the kitchen where Owen is working on the leftover meat from yesterday, When I wave he smiles brightly and reaches for the bag, I quickly pass him the knife before mumbling I need to change and scurrying off to my room. I hurry to my room and just switch out shirts as the pants are mostly fine. 

I tug my new shirt on and her a gently tap at the door. I knew it would happen sooner or later. I slowly walked over to the door dreading the conversation about to unfold. When I opened the door, to say I was shocked was an understatment, I was certainly not expecting to see Nora and Sarhstanding at my door. I step back and give them a gesture to come in.They step in and sit on my bed and I close the door behind them. 

"What can I do for you?" I ask politley