Tenant’s Secret Love

Chapter 94: I'll make up for everything you've lost

I put the phone aside and took out a can of beer from the convenient bag and drank it, my mood is getting more and more lost, but I can't even find a reason to comfort myself, not to mention that I don't know how deeply I hurt Daphne, and my parents, I can imagine what they are feeling at this moment, for them, the upcoming late night is also sleepless.

The cell phone rang once again, it was still Violetta calling, her persistence made me helpless, I finally picked up the phone, and then said patiently, “I've really already eaten dinner, is it okay if you go eat by yourself?”

Violetta choked and said to me, “Lucas, I know you're in a bad mood, you must have given up a lot for what happened to me, right?”

“You're overthinking it, it's just going back to Suzhou, at best treat it as if you've never been back to Xuzhou.” I said while subconsciously pulling out a cigarette from the cigarette box to light it because of annoyance.

“Then you come out to eat with me, I'm really not in the mood to be alone.”

I was silent for a long time and finally agreed to Violetta's request because I don't want her to see how down I am and subsequently have a psychological burden, it's just that I'm really tired of the forced smile after meeting and that's the main reason why I refused to have dinner with Violetta in the first place.

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I ignored the bitter cold of the late winter and took a hot shower in the small hotel before I walked out with my own wallet, but I didn't want to be seen by Violetta, who was already standing and waiting across the street.

She trotted to my front, staring at me, but a long time without words.

I extinguished the cigarette in my hand, because of the cold will be inserted in the pocket said: “you are not to eat well, go.”

“How did you live in a small hotel?” Violetta asked with reddened eyes.

Subconsciously I thought that women are born to dawdle, I did not expect Violetta to arrive at the agreed place before me, which is why she saw me walk out of the small hotel, looked at her and found that she did not put on makeup, just wearing the simplest sports down jacket, no wonder it will arrive before me.

I said in an evasive manner, “First find a place to eat.”

Violetta nodded meekly with tears in her eyes, and then the two of them drowned in the crowd side by side as they walked down the street toward the front.

I only wanted to eat casually on the street, but Violetta insisted on stopping a cab and letting the driver take us to an upscale western restaurant.

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In the western restaurant, listening to the soothing music and the sound of running water in the fountain pool, my nervousness finally soothed some.

Violetta ate with her head down and didn't talk to me till the end, while I didn't have much appetite and just drank a glass of red wine.

Half an hour later, Violetta finally finished eating, she looked at the food that I did not move at all, her expression was again gloomy, for a long time before she asked me in a low voice: “Lucas, going to Suzhou this time must be very difficult for you, right?”

“Nothing difficult, you don't have to care.”

“What about your girlfriend, didn't she say anything?”

I was talked to by Violetta but had to endure the pain and said, “Nothing, she supported my decision.”

Daphne did support my decision, provided that I also threw away my love that was running towards marriage with her because of it.

Violetta followed up with, “Then why are you living alone in a small hotel?”

I finally got annoyed and said with an unhappy face, “Violetta, do you know why I didn't want to come out to dinner with you? I really don't want you to ask this and that so endlessly ...... No matter what the consequences of this matter are, I've already chosen it, so all of your questions now are meaningless.”

Violetta didn't say another word.

I said to her, “After you go back to Suzhou this time first find Robben and CC to help you take care of the bar, I'll be there as soon as possible, it might not take more than a week.”

“Well, Robben has been in my bar residency now, and has been singing for free for a month, I feel sorry for him ......Lucas, if there is the slightest way, I won't even look for you, I know it will make it difficult for you!”

Violetta's words make my heart taste inexplicable, sometimes life is so cruel, simply does not give people a choice, and live is so people can not help it.

Leaving the restaurant, we stepped on the light of the street lamps walking in the cold street, I still smoke cigarettes, and Violetta looked at the end of the street somewhat blankly.

I don't know how long I walked in a lonely posture, but I finally returned to the hotel where Violetta stayed, and we had to part for a short time.

I said to Violetta, “Go back to the hotel and take an early rest, I'll drop you off in the morning if you have time.”

“No need, I have a ten o'clock train, you'll already be at work by then.”

“Well, take care of yourself on the way, there are too many people on the train.”

Violetta, however, ignored my admonition and said to me with tears in her eyes, “I'm really too ignorant, I should have listened to your advice, I shouldn't have opened a bar, I've harmed myself, and I've also harmed you!”

I gently patted her shoulder to comfort, said: “Do not cry, people will certainly do wrong things in life, the important thing is to do wrong after how to make up, I will accompany you through the difficult times.”

Violetta emotionally out of control like jumped into my arms, sobbing, “Lucas, everything you lost for me today, I will surely double compensate you in the future.”

I held Violetta's shoulders and let her out of my embrace, and said to her with a serious face, “Remember, never say the word compensation between us, just like the slap you received for me, have you ever thought of asking me to make up for it?”

Violetta shook her head and said, “I don't want you to make up for it, it's something I willingly did for you.”

“So going back to Suzhou is also something I willingly did for you.”

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After dropping Violetta off at her hotel, I walked alone through the streets, one more platform in front of me was the small hotel where I had checked in, but now I didn't want to go back, despite the coldness of the world at the moment.

I sat on a stone bench in front of the train station square, lit a cigarette and looked at the people in front of me lost in thought, at the moment these people walking past me, all with me have a brief encounter, but the next moment they will take the train to go in all directions, and from now on will not have any interactions, but their lives will continue, in the continuation of the full of sadness and joy.

So no one will live in peace, and the life that is filled with sadness and joy is considered a secular life.

Did a deep breath, I finally extinguished the cigarette in my hand, and can not help but look up at the sky, the crystal clear city in the end where, I have moved Suzhou, Xuzhou two cities, whether it is the daytime look up, or the darkness of the night of the hope, I have never seen it again, is it really just a city of fantasies out of the city? If so, this makes people more mournful ...... because the tired mind can never find a place to rest.

If at this moment there is a silver boat, bending, rocking, swaying, waving the night, take me to fly into the velvet sky, how good ......