Tenant’s Secret Love

Chapter 95: Back to Suzhou

Five days have passed, and I finally finished the handover of work, this is my last night in Xuzhou, I want to go home and say goodbye to my parents, but never found the courage to go home and the reason, at the moment they are angry, go back in addition to give them more trouble, it does not help, so I still shrink in a small hotel alone, drinking beer, tasting the emptiness and loneliness.

As I drank, I drifted into a trance, and in my trance, I saw the guitar standing in the corner, which was obviously given to me by Brittany, but the first thing that popped into my mind was the image of me embracing Renee as she cried out in pain after I had sung the song, “Love's Proverbs,” for her on this guitar not long ago.

Thinking of Renee, remembering the fights we had over that house several times, I finally smiled, wondering what kind of interactions we would have this time back in Suzhou, remembering that she had told me that if I went back, she would be willing to let me live in that old house, wishing that she still remembered her promise and then honored it.

I emptied myself and lay flat on my bed, I don't know how long it lasted before my phone rang, I thought it was an incoming call but it was just a text message and it was sent by none other than Daphne, she said: she was waiting for me at the same coffee shop we first met at, again emphasizing that I could have stayed away.

I was apologizing for Daphne, so I didn't think much of it, put on my jacket, and rushed to the coffee shop where we first met.

......

When I arrived at the coffee shop, everything was just as it was when we first met, I raised my eyes to look for her, and Daphne was still sitting in the same spot, but I couldn't smile anymore, I just walked towards her with the heaviness of my apologies.

I took a seat across from Daphne and looked at her, only to realize how haggard her face was.

I was silent in speechlessness when Daphne finally spoke up and said to me, “I heard from Director Zhou that you've finished handing over all your work today.”

“Uh-huh.”

A painful color appeared on Daphne's face, and she was silent for a long time before asking me, “You should leave Xuzhou tomorrow, right?”

I nodded and said, “The train leaves at 2pm tomorrow.”

Daphne stopped looking at me, lost in thought as she looked out the window at the dead leaves swept up by the cold wind ......

I don't know how long it took, Daphne whispered, “I heard that every time you say goodbye, a star will fall out, but ...... even if it falls out, it will also turn into a shooting star gorgeous moment, right?”

I know that Daphne compared herself to the falling star, but I don't know how gorgeous she wants to be at this parting moment.

Daphne finally looked at me and asked me with a complicated face, “Lucas, you really tell me what kind of woman is worth abandoning our relationship that is running towards marriage, you have to make it clear to me and let me get down to earth for the rest of my life.”

I had a hard time defining my relationship with Violetta and finally just said, “Friend, friend in need.”

“Is that all? There really wasn't something that happened between the two of you?” Daphne questioned.

At Daphne's questioning, I finally came clean and said, “There was, once during the most decadent days of my life, I slept with her, but we didn't have the love between a man and a woman.”

“I can't understand that, but it's over between us and I don't want to pursue anything further, I just wanted an answer and now you've given it to me!” Daphne said lost in thought.

“I'm sorry Daphne ......”

“There's no such thing as sorry in relationships, it's your choice to stay together or break up, the only thing you're sorry for is both of our parents, we failed them.”

Daphne was right, but I couldn't go and make up for anything after all, so I continued to be silent ......

In my silence, Daphne unexpectedly asked me, “Lucas, remember the first time we met you and I borrowed money?”

“I remember.”

“Now that you're leaving, shouldn't two people who are about to be separated do the same thing?”

“Yes.”

“Well, then, now I'll borrow 1000 yuan from you, too.”

I said without thinking, “No problem.” With that, I pulled out a thousand dollars from my wallet and handed it to Daphne.

Daphne took the money from me, smiled and said to me, “But I'm not going to pay you back this money.”

I pondered why Daphne would act this way, didn't she say she didn't owe me anything? Why don't you intend to give it back to me again?

But a woman's heart is sometimes as deep as the sea, and in my agonizing thoughts I was unable to figure out her purpose for doing this.

Daphne didn't intend to explain to me, she just put the money into her wallet and got up to leave.

“Daphne, you just said that even falling meteors are gorgeous for a moment, what kind of gorgeousness do you want? I'm willing to give it to you.” I finally asked to Daphne's already departing back.

“Lucas, I don't want you to make up for something ......You have to know that not every shooting star's splendor when it falls will be seen by anyone either ......As long as I myself know that it was once splendid it's enough! ...... You take care!” Daphne choked and finished, and then did not stay, just left the coffee shop, I saw her through the floor-to-ceiling windows, walking in the street crowd, a moment was drowned by the neon, I can never see her, and a once eager to run to the marriage of the relationship, but also so in the neon lights and shadows to end ......

I'm a little upset, but more painful!

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The next day, I boarded the 2:00 pm train to Suzhou, no one to see me off, I did not say goodbye to anyone, this surface looks simple to leave, so that my days in Xuzhou, as if just a simple trip, and I just stopped for a moment, but inadvertently threw a stone in a river, so there was a “wow”! I think I will remember this beautiful mistake for a long, long time!

Finally I arrived in Suzhou at 8:30 at night, when my feet left the train, stepped on this land I have been familiar with for a long time, I have mixed feelings, perhaps my destiny has really been rooted in this city of hurt, after a dream, I finally came back, and what the future looks like, I have no way of knowing, but hopefully, in the city of a thousand holes, I can also find the traces of the fast life.

I grabbed a cab and headed straight to CC's Empty City restaurant, because there were people I missed, and music I missed, and don't get me wrong, it was just CC I missed.

Opened the door of the restaurant, CC is still in the same posture, hand cupping the cigarette, placed a glass of beer by the side, quietly singing her own favorite song.

I put down my bags and gave her a thumbs up out of habit, and for the first time CC walked towards me without finishing a song before handing the microphone over to the band behind her.

“HI, Lucas, long time no see!”

“Yeah, a little over two months.”

CC opened her arms and I hugged her as she whispered in my ear, “Almost three months ...... By the way, you're a little late, Renee just left after dinner here.”