Love me or Leave me

Chapter 10

I'm sitting on my bed with my earphones on listening to my Playlist I haven't been feeling well for the past two weeks finally the song 'love me or leave me from Lil Winx' plays and I automatically think back to that passionate one night I had with Sean, do you ever play a song and it just bring backs memories to a certain event that happened it always happens to me

Dom and I went to the club twice within 3 months after that, but he never showed neither did any of the other guys we all had met I know Dom went more without me she still hung up on that guy

So, we decided to give up after the second time

I want his touch I need his touch; it won’t leave my mind I haven't even bothered looking at another guy

I switch the phone off and put on the TV after going through the newspaper looking for permanent jobs as I eat my toast hoping it would help with my nausea

I checked what movies are on and an ad comes up - the always ultra-pads my eyes widen, and heart rate quickened

oh, shoot my period I haven't gotten it this month yet, thou my period in the previous months only lasted two days, I quickly hop of my bed I start freaking out checking my draws rampaging through everything looking for my dairy to see my schedules to check my last date s**t s**t this can't be happening it can't be what I'm thinking it is not now what the hell

I'd be a dead person my father would hold this over my head I could already picture the lecture

No no no my deepest fears just became my reality hell no, I broke down falling to the fall sobbing my heart out... thou I don't know for sure this

I grab my phone sniffling and wiping the tears as they fall I call Dom she answers on the second ring "D-D-Dom you need to come now please you need to cccome now” the phone slips to the floor as I try to cover my sobs with my hands - she calls out "T what's wrong what's wrong T talk to me your scaring me" then the line went dead halter I hear her running...

I hear her pull up and she runs upstairs bursting through my bedroom door she slides her body over to mine on the floor and embraces me into a warm tight hug she knows when I'm at my worst and happiest she is the closest to me

She rubs my back "what's wrong T"

I sniffle and choke trying to make words "I I I think I'm p.p.p pregnant" I say hiccupping as the tears come all over again...

"Omg T did you take a test" I shake my head no as words are failing to come out

"How late are you" she says I shake my head

"I haven't gotten it yet and the last time it was only two days, but I've been feeling so sick lately".

"OK come stand up we going to go to the doctors to make sure" she whispers quietly so my mom does not overhear us...

This would break their hearts I have always had an open relationship with them, but I couldn't tell them what I did they would be so disappointed in me I just didn't have the heart to tell them

I quietly go to the bathroom to splash cold water over my face to try get the puffiness off my face but I know they will see straight through my falseness looking in the mirror I see the redness around my eyes..

They will know something is wrong

We drive in total silence to the doctors, she takes me to hers because if we went to mine the doctor would for sure tell my parents, I don't want anyone else to tell them but me...

I know they wouldn't want me to keep it because I'm so young my life was just beginning and no way am I giving it up after the birth takes place, just that thought alone makes my hand cover my tummy Dom just sighs rubbing my shoulder "it will be OK T I'll be there right next to your side to tell them if you are, it will be ok babes" she says...

How does she even know what I'm thinking before I even say it....

"thanks" is all I could say with my head hanging down in shame...

I know she is trying to be strong for me, but I just need her to be herself, the carefree spirit she is oh but she can have an attitude if people should say anything to me but what can I say I adore her for who she is...

As we get to the doctors Dom told them straight away, we do not want records just want to find out if her friend is pregnant or not after that we will decide what I want to do....

She signs in with her name not mine to cover our tracks finally when we get to the doctor’s room, she explains the whole story about how my family is and it’s not what they would expect from me he sits there with a smile and just nods his head in agreement

Wow I wish my doctor was like that....

He hands me a cup I tilt my head sideways with a confused look on my face he obviously caught on "sorry miss you go to the bathroom down the hall to your left pee in the cup I will run tests when you get back" he says, I nod my head with understanding

We sit next to each other, and Dom holds my hand awaiting the results...

He looks and me with scrunched up eyes showing his wrinkles between his brows and a small smile, it goes away as he speaks "miss I don't know how to tell you normally I 'd say congratulations but in this case I'm sorry to inform you that you are pregnant"

My heart sank and I began to cry again Dom embraces me with a hug and the doctor puts his hand on my shoulder "we can remove it if you like no record just like it didn't exist"

I froze looking up at him "S-S-Sorry what are you crazy, I would never, I could never do that, it's not in my heart to do that, it didn't ask to be here" is I could say with a shocked expression

I place my hands on my stomach stand up "thank you doc but I can't kill an innocent child because of my shameful deed I did" I say and walk out I heard Dom mumble something to him but shortly she runs up to me holding onto my shoulders in a lobsided hug as we head to the car......