Yes, daddy

Sneaking out

                                                                                        RAY'S POV

I hear clatter and laughing downstairs. Making me yearn to be down there. 

I had always wondered what it was like to be apart of a family. How it would feel and what purpose it would bring you. 

I guess I'll never know. Given that Mr. Carter doesn't want them to know nor meet me. 

I stare back at the screen and get engrossed in what I'm watching. 

I've always wanted to be touched the way that Christian is touching Anna (A/N: I forget what her name is but I think it's this. I'm in class right now so I can't look it up. I want to get this chapter out ASAP). If you can tell, I've always wanted a lot of things. Thing's that I'll probably never get.

I puff out my cheeks which is something I often do and then bite my lip.

Mr. Carter was embarrassed of me. He might have not outright said it, but if he wasn't he would let me be down there right now with them. Eating dinner and laughing along with them. 

So in that moment, I decided that I wasn't just going to wait around for him to be done and then just decide to come spend time with me. Nope. 

I know what I'm doing is stupid and I would 100% be punished but I was pissed. 

I made my way to my room and found some shoes. Big girl shoes. Not the baby ones I had. 

After putting my shoes on I wander over to the window and slide it open. Mine and Daddies room are on the second floor meaning that it's a far drop. Especially with my height. But thankfully there's a tree right outside my window that I can reach if I leap from the windowsill.

Soon enough I'm on the ground and on my way to Jessica's house. 

                                                                             ***

When I reach Jessica's house I knock on the door. Not too long after I knock, the door swings open.

"Hey Ray," she says and then steps away from the door to allow me in.

"Hey Jess," I greet her back and close the front door behind me on my way in. 

We climb the stairs and go to her room.

Jessica's room is entirely purple with posters of body bands on the walls. She has a tapestry hung on the wall behind her queen size bed and she has Christmas lights alining her room.   I always enjoyed her room. 

She had also turned her walk-in closet into her personal little library. I must say that that's my favorite part of her room.

"What's up," She says as she plops down on her bed while grabbing one of the 50 pillows on her bed.

"Nothing much. I just wanted to get out of the house. Plus, I haven't been here in a while," I don't even bother to apologize about coming over uninvited. It's such a normal thing that she doesn't even feel fazed by it. 

We had been watching TV and painting each other's nails up until she got a text message. 

"Kaitlyn is having a party at her house tonight. She said that you and I are both invited," she tells me "do you want to go? I don't really know if any of my clothes will fit you since I'm taller but we can try."

I hesitantly nod my head. I was never a fan of parties and drinking but I knew for a fact that she wouldn't go alone. She had never been into showing up places without a companion. "Yeah, sure."

I knew that going to this party was even worse than sneaking out. But hey! what did he expect? Me to just wait around until he was done eating dinner with his family? Did he expect me to listen to the laughter and the chit chat from upstairs like an outsider? 

I'm going to this party and I'm going to have the time of my goddamn life.