When it's wrong

15.

-Derrick

Kelsey was standing directly in between my legs, my hands were now gripping her round ass. My mind instantly went to what Niyla was telling me about Kesey's stepfather. I removed my hands quickly. I didn't want her to be uncomfortable. Now that I think of it I feel bad as f**k for even kissing her. Debating on if I even wanted to bring up what Niyla had told me, I scooted the stool next to me out and patted on it motioning for her to sit down next to me. She sat next to me facing me. Listen Kelsey I am sorry for kissing you, I don't want you to feel pressured to do anything with me. I said looking into her eyes. " Derrick I don't feel pressured, If anything I feel amazing when I'm with you. You make me happier than I've ever been in my life," she explained.

We sat at the kitchen island until three in the morning, with her telling me all about the horrible things that have happened to her and the way her mother and stepfather treated her. My heart literally ached for her. I ended up telling her about my drinking problem. I had never actually talked to anyone about it, but with her, I felt as If I could talk about anything. She didn't judge me when I told her about putting my hands on Niyla. I wish I met you so long ago. I said looking into her beautiful dark eyes. Her eyes were so sad yet so peaceful. There was no doubt in my mind that if I would have met her sooner I would be married to her. My guard was completely down with her.

" It's getting late Derrick, don't you have to work in the morning?" she questioned. Yeah, I do but it's my gym so I can miss a day or two. I said smiling. Don't you have class tomorrow? I asked her. " No when I thought I was pregnant I took a leave, I didn't know exactly what was going to happen, and I knew there was no way I was going to be able to focus on school dealing with all of that." she said." When are you due to return to school? I said curiously. " Well I took the leave for two months, but by then it will be around Thanksgiving break and Christmas break, so I'm off for a total of about four or five months," she said. "When I went to request the leave they let me know that my entire bill had been paid off completely." I don't know how to repay Niyla," she said looking sad. Listen I will pay her back for your school, and you don't have to work with her anymore. I really like you Kelsey, and I can't imagine you not in my life. I said lifting her head up softly by her chin." Derrick I can't accept that from you, I don't have another job. How in the world would I be able to pay you back, plus I don't have anywhere to live remember?" she said.

You are more than welcomed to stay here Kels, and as for work don't worry about it. Just focus on school. You really seem like being a nurse means a lot to you. I will take care of anything you need, if you really want to work that bad then you can come work at the gym with me part-time and I will pay you of course. You can save all of that money that you make. " Derrick, I don't know how to thank-you. I'm not sure why I deserve all of this. But I still don't know how to tell A'Niyla I can't work with her anymore. She has been so amazing to me, I honestly feel like a shity ass person doing all of this." She said. Um, I don't know what to say about her, when it comes to her I feel nothing so I don't feel bad but I do see where you are coming from. We will figure something out.

But in the meantime you and I can look for another place to stay together, now that I think about it I don't want to live here, me and you can pick a place that is better for us. If that's something you want? I said to her. I could tell she was thinking about my words carefully. She looked unsure but I could see it in her eyes that she was excited. She was a twenty-year-old that never got to experience the world or even love for that matter. 

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- Kelsey

Derrick telling me we could pick out a different place for us to live was crazy, but I couldn't lie and say I wasn't excited. In two days he has shown me a whole new level of happiness. Although I couldn't help but feel like I was betraying Niyla. I would text her and let her know I couldn't work for her anymore and that I'd pay for everything she helped me with.

Yes, I slightly screamed. Obviously confusing Derrick. I began to laugh a little. I mean yes we can pick a new place together Derrick. " Really?" He said excitedly. Yes, really I said laughing. He picked me up from the stool and swung me around in the air-kissing my face. causing us both to bust out laughing.

He carried me to the guest bedroom and threw me on the bed. He climbed into the bed with me, getting under the covers I laid on his chest listing to his heartbeat. It calmed me and made me feel so safe. I was on cloud nine and never wanted this feeling to end. He began to rub my hair, I was drifting off to sleep in a matter of minutes. Before I was fully asleep I whispered thank-you. Kissing my forehead he said " No thank-you Kelsey"......