I always wanted you

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I’m at my best friend’s house again for a sleepover. Vivian has been my best friend since kindergarten and I love her so much. The most interesting part about my sleepovers is her brother. For years I have had a crush on him but I am his little sister's best friend so he never saw me differently. Until he left for college I was trying to be more and more next to him. But when I got older I started fantasizing about him I was quieter. I couldn't find the words so I started just looking at him. So here I am again the first summer after I returned from college and he decided to visit his parents too. Soon Vivian fell asleep before me again and I went downstairs for a glass of water. “You didn't sleep yet?” I hear a familiar voice and I turn around “God you scared me” “Sorry. She fell asleep first again and you are still up?” “Yes. It happens every time” “I remember when you were little and had sleepovers you barely slept. You would just come and sit here on the couch with me.” “Just like now,” I say with a smile “Yeah come on kid, you didn't have to emphasize on ‘just like now’. But you're right. I did smoke back then, ‘Just like now’. And that's why I used to tell you to go away. I was in college and you're like what?...13“ he chuckled “Now look at you. We were celebrating your 19th birthday just a week ago.” “Then can I have a cigar now?” “Nooo! I'm not going to give you the cigar. Or the drink.” he says pulling away the drink “I'm an adult now. I can drink or have a cigar” “Yes. I know you're an adult now but you're still a kid to me.” great, twisted the knife more in my heart “Do you keep forgetting the fact that I'm 8 years older than you? And do you think I'm going to hand you over the weapon to kill yourself?” “God it's just a cigar or a drink, relax” “Since when do you talk back to me?” “I'm not. I'm saying the facts” “Look. It's different. I'm old enough. And just because I'm f*****g up my own life, I wouldn't let you do it. Not you” he whispers the last part but I hear it “What did you say?” “Nothing, You should try to sleep.” “I’m not sleepy” “Fine, then you can stay here but you can't ask for cigars or alcohol. Is that clear?” can I ask for a kiss then? “Fine, ok” “Good girl” “Can I sit?” “Of course. Come on, sit down” I sit next to him on the couch “So, how's everything going? You seem to be quieter these days. Well no only these days but what I mean is the last years” he says and I look forward at the window “You don't talk as much as you used to. Is everything okay?” he touches my hand and I look at him “Are you okay? Just so you know, you can talk to me” f**k, you think it's easy? “Indeed, you don't talk to me as much as you used to but there was a time when you used to come running to me to complain about my sister because you knew I always taking your side” he chuckled “And of course you were always a good listener. You were a kid but you stayed and listened. I never had the fear of being judged because you would never judge me” he sighs and I squeeze his hand. I wish you knew “But my sister judges me hardcore and laughs about everything. You kinda replaced her at that point” Oh that I was, a good listener and the little sister he always wanted. I feel tears in my eyes but I hold them and I look forward “Looks like you wanna say something” “So I was the little sister that always listened to you,” I say and I look at him “No I don't mean you became my sister but what I mean is….that I shared the things with you that someone would want to share with their siblings and if I shared them with Vivian she will make fun of me. You never did that. “ God, can he make it even worse? “Don't be offended kid. I didn't mean you are my little sister” he says “You were a friend. A good friend.” ouch that hurt even more “But now who's interested in talking to an old man right?” “You're not old, just a few years older,” I say and he laughs “Did I ever do something wrong?” no you were perfect. You still are “Like to you? Do you feel uncomfortable or anything? Because if you're distant because of that, I just wanna let you know that I never meant to do any of that. You are younger than me but I used to respect you a lot. I still do but…” “What?” “Nothing, Mel. I think the alcohol is getting to me, I'm sorry...” “You didn't do anything wrong, Noah” “I didn't? Then why…” “I did something” “What do you mean you did something?” “I changed” “You didn't change, Mel” “You don't know” “I know. You couldn't hide it well” I look at him “What do you mean?” “Also telling your best friend that you had a crush on her brother it's not a great idea. Vivian can't keep a secret. Don't you know that?” “I believed that she would keep mine. You never mentioned “ I can't believe he knows “I never talked about it because first of all, it would've been wrong of me. I was an adult and you were a teenager and also I just knew it was a thing kids do. To have crushes on older guys and it will go away” You don't understand “Can I have a sip?” I say trying to take the glass with the whiskey “No. I told you. No alcohol.” “Please, just a little” I stare into his eyes sad “No no no, I'm not going to….“ “Please, just a sip” “Fine. If you wanna drink something you can drink beer. I have some in my room. Come with me.” we walk into his room and he gives me a beer from the small fridge that he has in there. I take a few sips when he takes the bottle away “Okay, enough” “I didn't finish it” “I said no Mel” he says seriously “Fine. Can I ask you something?” “Yes, of course” “Why did you break up with Lisa?” “Where did this come from?” he says and leaves the beer on his bedside table “I want to know,” I say as we both are standing looking at each other “Why?” he is walking to me “Tell me” “Ok. It was because of me and that's all you need to know.” “You cheat?” it can't be “No, I didn't cheat? I just... Look...I think you should just go and try to get some sleep.” “No. Tell me. Why you don't tell me?” “Because...I don't wanna talk about it anymore. And I shouldn't be talking to you about it. You're my sister's best friend.” “You say that we are friends” “Yes we're friends but.. there are some things you won't understand.” “I'm old enough to understand” “Fine.” he sighs. I want to know why they broke up. They were together for four years “It's because I was in love with someone else.” oh shit “You are with her now?” “No. It's complicated” “Why?” “I love someone who I can't have. Ok?” he says frustrated “Who?” “Look kid, I can't tell you that” “Stop calling me a kid and tell me” damn it when he will stop seeing me as a kid “What are you getting upset for? Because I love someone?” God, he is playing with my nerves “Yes. Tell me who she is” “And why is that?” I take a step in front but I lose my balance “Whoa. You're getting tipsy. Maybe you should lie down” “I want to know” “You wanna know...? But you're getting are getting dizzy, is better to…” “I want to talk,” I say frustrated “Alright. You can stay here and talk. Sit down and lean on my shoulder. Just keep your voice down” I sit next to him and my head rests on his shoulder, it's nice “I told you not to drink” “Are you mad?” “I'm not mad at you. Just all the alcohol and cigars. I don't want to go through all the things I have been through” he is so sweet. Is he saying this because he cares as a friend or something more? “It she me? The girl that you love?” “Where's this coming from? Why do you think…..?” he sighs. Oh my God “Well, I'm... I'm not denying it... you're...” he sighs again “Yes... it is you... it's always been you” “Really? Why do you never say anything?” oh my God, I can't believe it. Noah is in love with me. I lift my head and I look at him “Because I'm older than you. Not one or two years but eight years” “I don't care about that” “Well, there is a difference between having a crush on your best friend's big brother when you're a kid and him having feelings for you. You were not an adult when I started to have feelings for you” “I'm an adult now” “I can see that trust me. But this is still not okay. I'm still a lot older than you and if...” I can't take it anymore. I lean toward him “What are you doing?” my lips are inches from his “Your heart is racing” “Yes, my heart is racing. You're so close to me” Oh Lord I'm doing this to him. I have that effect on him. I touch his pants and I feel his c**k getting bigger. Oh my God, my dream will come true. Noah will be my first “Oh my god... you shouldn't touch me there” he says grabbing my hand “Why?” “This is wrong” I cup his face “Why is this wrong? We both want this” And finally, my lips find his. Years I dreamed of this and now is happening. “Are you sure?” he asks again just to be sure. I love that on him “You don't have to ask me, Noah. Do whatever you want” “I have to know that you are sure” “Noah I always wanted you. I tried to date guys in college but couldn't take you out of my head” he smiles and lays me on my back. “Touch me” “Where do you want me to touch you, baby?” “Everywhere. Whatever you like” he kisses me as his hand start caress my boobs “God, I need to...” he says and cups my boobs and starts licking and sucking “Is better than I imagine” “You imagine me?” I ask my heart is pounding “Every f*****g day,” he says continuing to suck. I'm a f*****g mess “Every time I see you I want to push you against the door or the wall and kiss your whole f*****g body then suck your t**s, use your throat and then slide my hard c**k inside you” he kisses my lips and says “And stay there forever” “Do you want f**k my p***y now?” I ask “If I want to f**k your p***y? Baby you don't have to ask that...” he stands up and takes off his pants. His c**k in all his glory, I want to taste him so f*****g bad. I move my body and take a position to start a blowjod. I never had before, I hope that videos will help “Oh fuck... please.. don't... tease me like that” “I never tasted a precum” “f**k I can't believe you're teasing my head with your tongue,” he says and I lick it “Oh my f*****g god... please...I need your mouth,” he says and I put him in “Oh f**k yes. just like that” he moans. I start taking deeper and from his moans and his words, I know I'm doing a really good job. I'm glad “Tell me if I'm doing something wrong. I am doing this for the first time and I want it to be perfect for you” “Oh baby you doing a great job” I moan as I take him in again and he shivers “Take it. Please take it” he says cupping my head and pushing me to take him all. f**k that's hot “I'm sorry, Mel. I can't stop thrusting...it just feels so...fucking good” I touch his balls and he looks to enjoy it more and more “I'm getting close...don't stop. Take me as deeper you can” I did it and when he exploded his seed in my mouth, I swallowed every drop like a good girl and he smiled at me “Such a good girl” he lays me back on the bed “Are you sure that was your first blowjob? It was amazing” “Yes. Well, thank you. I watched videos and had practice with…you know toys. I wanted to be ready in case….. You notice me” he caresses my cheek and kisses “You are perfect. And you are all mine” “You don't know how happy I am saying this” “You are?” I nod and he kisses me again his hand travels lower on my body “So wet. Is that for me?” “All for you” he smiles and kisses me. I start to moan as he plays with my c**t. “I'm your first..?” he asks and I nod “And the last,” I say and he chuckles ”And the last yes. I'm so glad that you are waiting for me” “What have to say now that you didn't want to do something with me?” “I was stupid” “Good. Now can you put it inside me?” “Of course baby, but first I have to make you wetter,” he says and positions his head between my thighs “f**k you smell amazing. Let's have a taste now” he opened my lips and slid his tongue on my entrance “Oh f**k” “Keep it lower, baby. We don't want to wake them up and cut our fun” he says and digs again “I will try. But you make it so hard” I say and he groans making me shake. Soon I came into his mouth. I try to breathe and get down off my high when he says “Are you ready?” I open my eyes and I see him “Are you ok? Your eyes are so dazzling” “Yes. I just had an orgasm from you and not from my fingers thinking of you” he chuckled and his lips found mine again. At the same time his c**k slides inside of me. I start to feel a sharp pain, tears fall down my cheeks. I don't control it but I don't want to stop “f**k you're so wet, you're doing such a good job, baby,” he says between kisses “Look at me. The pain will go away soon” I smile “I know. Don't stop” “I'm going to make you feel good” he kisses me and when he is all in, he stops “Oh f**k. You are so tight. Tell me when you want to move” he never stops kissing my lips, my neck, my shoulder. When I tell him I'm ready to move he starts thrusting slowly “Oh god your moans.” I feel his c**k twisting “f**k you are so tight. You will make me come soon” he lifts his upper body to look at me “Look at me, Baby” My eyes are focused on him “You look like an angel… oh f**k you p***y is tighter when I said that. You going to make come so soon. I want one more time for you. Can you do that for me, my angel?” he says and my eyes roll back from the pleasure “No, don't close your eyes baby, just keep looking at me...oh god yes” My God his groans are so turned on “God Noah. I love the noises you make” he leans to give me a kiss “Just like that... Oh f**k. The way you look at me, makes me wanna f**k your harder” “Please. f**k me harder” “Yes? f**k yes...” “I'm getting so close...I'm gonna c*m. Please make me c*m” I say “f**k, come with me, baby. I'm close too. f**k” “But I want to look at me in the eyes” I try to hold my gaze on him “Where do you want me to c*m?” “Inside me” “Fuckkk yes...I jerked off so many nights thinking of cumming inside you...I can't believe... this is happening” I can't hold any longer and I c*m all over his c**k. f**k I feel my juices “Oh my f*****g god... you're so wet...I can't hold back any longer... I'm cumming” he says through his moans. And he falls on me his hands on either side of my head “Are you ok? I wasn't too hard” “No, it was amazing. Better than my imagination” “God. For me too.” he kisses me and lays next to me taking me in his arms. He takes and deep breath and exhales “I love you” “I love you too, baby,” he says back, and I smile “Stay with me tonight. We will explain everything in the morning. I don't have something to hide and I want this to work” I hug him tight and he kisses my forehead “We will find a way with your college and my work. Living in different cities is hard” “We will be ok. Now that I know that you love me too. I'm not letting you go” I say and I look at him. “Me neither. You stuck with me baby” I giggle “That is what I always wanted” he kissed me passionately and I kissed him back.
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