Daring to love yourself

eye contact

My heart beats your name saysha

" this is more than butterflies, I had eagles flying in my belly"

awwwnnn do you really mean that?

I fell in love with you right from when I walk past that classroom door, your pretty eyes reflect sparkles like diamonds, who wouldn't love such a jewel definitely doesn't recognise unique things.

"this is really intoxicating..... I am drunk in love with this handsome gentleman"

tears was rolling down my cheeks, I couldn't hold the emotions, he called me a jewel!!!!! I might be physically calm but inside me, I was dancing to rock and roll more like a lunatic

this had to be true, it had to be real,

promise me!, promise me that you wouldn't break my heart

have you ever seen the earth run away from the sun?!, my love I am like the earth and you are the sun, if I walk away I would wither and die a painful and heart breaking death

"he grabbed my hands and looked me in the eye, I was so sure this is true love"

I solemnly swear to love, adore, cherish and care for you

I promise to add butter to your noodles

you really mean it!!

'Julie did you hear that, who adds butter to noodles!?

'shut up Larry and enjoy the show, hater!

to bring you chocolates every evening

awwwnnn you are gonna make me cry again

to fetch you a bucket of sand after every rainfall, so you can enjoy the sweet scent of my kind of love for you

I promise to wear a masquerade costume and flog the hell out of your mom

'Julie and Larry would like this one'

baby, you are sooooo romantic

" he moved closer to kiss me .....I moved closer and I stretched forth my lips to receive my first and amazing first kiss

!!!!stand up young lady and do some chores, lazy girl

and what the hell were you thinking in your sleep

"OK let me get this right, it was a dream, it was all a dream, I might have been teleported"

mom Is it morning?

no its midnight 100 years BC!!

" so it was all a dream, I started crying, I couldn't help it, even if it was just a dream she could have just let me kiss him, how could she do this to me, why would she wake me up at that moment"

"she stood looking very confused, she definitely couldn't comprehend the situation at hand"

are you crying because I gave you chores??

Ha ha"mouth wide open'...nooo oooo, whhhyyy mee!!!

tears rolling down my cheek, crying like a baby

did you eat in your dream?

this must be a spiritual problem!!

"she ran out to call my dad"

...............................................................

Jameson!!, darling!

I am right here you know

call the psychiatric hospital and our pastor right away, there is fire on the mountain

' confused he stood still, trying to solve the equation but doesn't seem to understand why"

last I checked all my tenants were psychologically fit

just make the call its an emergency

pastor Paul I understand, even if you were to cast that unseen demon what concerns the hospital???

YOUR DAUGHTER IS MAD!!!

"he almost choked on the tea in his mouth"

both of them ran straight to my room, with moria in her so called panic mood,I could bet my .......oooopsss I dont know his name yet so I will just call him prince charming, .......my prince charming she was glad I would leave the house so she can have it all to herself and her favourite daughter!!

yesterday when she came back from school I perceived w**d on her .....very strong, just a day at school and you have associated with cultist you irresponsible child

moria watch your words!!

"my dad could tolerate anything but he never let her call me names

"I was still crying.....these two people had no idea how heart broken I am"

my darling

"my dad said cuddling me"

what is wrong with you, is this about your aunt, did you dream of her again, talk to me?

why are you wasting your time, call the hospital before she bites us!!!

Pikia walked in confused, she could be a devil but she was also an amazing sister, I could see the sadness on her face, she felt bad anytime anyone cried especially her family".

could you save everyone this unnecessary drama over a guy whose name we don't even know and prepare breakfast!

oh Julie could you be nice, its not her fault you haven't been able to secure a life partner

Larry darling, I could get a boyfriend if I wanted to, a rich handsome one at least not like you, if not for me, your life would be more miserable than it is currently!

talk to me and stop cry darling, you can see we are all worried

big sis stop crying please!

she is obviously possessed....call the pastor said amoria

'OK mom could you be reasonable and straight forward, first I was a lunatic with venom now I am possessed, by what exactly?!.

I am okay dad, I just need sometime to myself, could you all please excuse me for a moment....

are you sure you are okay darling

"pikia was looking at me, she couldn't understand what the drama was about"

yes I am!

"they all left my bedroom into the living room for the usual morning devotion, my dad must be very concerned I have to think about a reasonable explanation, if it was up to moria I would be in the church by now, with prayer warriors all around me"

I wiped my tears, still pained that I didn't receive that kiss, I brushed my teeth and bang!!! I found the perfect lie, another drama is the last thing I want right now

I proceeded to join the family devotion

hey sweetie

" moria held her bible to her chest the moment I walked in, she must have been in my room 5 minutes before she finally woke me up, I was sure she witnesses some funny scenes while I was with my prince charming in my dream, she was a very spiritual person who believed in all sorts of voodooism, so I didn't need anyone to tell me what is currently running through her head"

hey dad, good morning

"pikia seems so nice this morning, I sincerely hope I am safe, this degree of sweetness is beyond what happened this morning"

morning my love

hey piki

good morning bis sissy " she said smiling ", hope you are feeling better now

I was just about to ask the same thing, my dad said

I am fine dad, I was just having a serious conversation with God, we really had a connection this morning and I felt the holy spirit .....

"the expression on moria's face was priceless, I wanted to laugh so bad, she definitely wasn't buying that, but as long as my dad believed me, I had nothing to worry about"

oh darling, you could have just said so when I asked you earlier, I am really happy you are working on your relationship with God, you know the bible says we should serve the lord in the days of our youth

keep it up its really wonderful we should celebrate this, so I think you should join a unit in the church so you can draw closer to God

"s**t this is such a bad idea, I definitely didn't want any church responsibility, I love Jesus no doubt, but my spiritual life is really unbalanced right now, I can't sing or pray, and besides I didn't have a lot of friends at the church, those little demonic teenagers would make me a laughing stock"

that would be great but not yet, you would be the first to know when I decide to.

can we start devotion now, we really need a lot of prayers in this family said moria.

devotion was really long and scary with more scary prayers by his loyal servant moria, but breakfast was compensating, today was Saturday, I hope this day gets better

I took my laundry out to wash and dry, papa and moria were suppose to attend pikia's PTA meeting which means I am to babysit, she didn't seem like a lot of trouble today, I hope it last till evening when she has her parents around to deal with her issues.

Good morning saysha

"here comes trouble, could a stray bullet please hit this man for me "

Mr John what is it?

can't you greet, you spoilt child

I am not available for your trouble this morning

anyway you know I am a caring and good neighbour, I heard some noise from your apartment this morning so I came by to ensure everything was okay

oh wonderful, so which media do you work with

I don't understand

you must be a blogger or journalist now since you no longer mind your business, so I thought you are just doing your job, you aren't so useless after all, at least you finally got a job

I can see you've got some nerves saysha

"he paused, jobless johnny was the only person I could lash harsh words at, he wasn't shameful at all, Esau sold his birthright for a plate of porridge but johnny could sell his for biscuits, he could take anything from you as long as you gave him food, what a waste of stressful 9 months "

anyway I came to tell you what I would like for lunch

"I knew he didn't talk back at me cause of food, I hope he knows that our deal doesn't include weekend's

I would love some Intercontinental food and a lot of protein....

hey hey hey hey you forgot to states the

dates clearly, weekdays only, no weekends!!

you also didn't state it in your contract also that I would take your lunch only on weekdays

whatever just know you aren't getting any food from me today

lazy man, get a job!

oh really, wait till i talk to your dad tonight after my date

I couldn't hold it, this was just too funny, who in their right senses would date Mr johnny, sure he must have brainwashed her with the best lies in the world".

and what do you intend to feed her during your date if I may ask

the lunch I get from you of course, that is why I am here to make a special request, I will be glad if I could get something Irish

'if only jobless Johnny could hear Julie and Larry laughing, he would pray for the earth to open up so he could hide in it, didn't even ask for an american dish, look at this douche bag asking for Irish food, I can't feel my heart, it must have popped out of my mouth cause I really had a good laugh'

well too bad I dont know any Irish food broke Romeo, what you need is a job, not a girl

I said still laughing

I am old enough to be your uncle, if I needed advise I know where to go,

just help me please, I need you now more than ever

OK if I give you money to buy a nice lunch you our deal is off

Yes I agree

give me a minute...

I didn't have a job but I was way richer than jobless johnny, I took 3,000 naira from my savings and gave to him

this is small but will do and by the way you are welcome, dont mention

I know you are an illiterate but just to educate you, i am the one to say that

I told him

and another thing, please don't go out, someone should be in the compound when the new neighbors arrive

New neighbors?!

your dad didn't tell you he put the house on lease

no,he didn't!

anyway just dont go out

it would be really nice to have new neighbors, the flat has been empty since the Wale's family moved out, my dad claimed their way of life was bad influence on us, I hope they have a kid pikia age so she could have a best friend and another person to disturb so I could have breathing space

I went in to tell pikia, she was learning to bath herself, African kids should learn faster I thought, but she had just scrubbed her tommy and her face, hands and feet.....leaving he rest of her body for God knows who to wash...

what in the world are you doing, give me that sponge

why would you give me such a task, you know am just a kid, you should bath me

tell that to your mom who has all the time in the world for you, I have a lot of important things to do you know

like?

......not your business, its adult stuff

I know my numbers, you are just 15, 3 more years before you can call yourself an adult lady!!

....whatever, this kid was way too smart for her age the way she talks, well it runs in the family though, but I honestly do wish she was dumb sometimes, so she could obey instructions with less questions, but if I ever got into a fight and needed backup ......well I have a little sister for the part of speech

jeeezzz what am I thinking, we were both skinny, whoever I let pikia talk to rudely could kidnap and murder us, without leaving any trace, maybe doing it my way could be safer.....

have you heard?

that?

we are having new neighbors

yes! old news

'what pikia knew and I the heir to the throne, the right hand woman to the landlord, the land daughter didn't have any idea .....this is preposterous'

since when did you know and why didn't you tell me?

you know am the right hand lady in this house, I have my sources

' the rate at which she thinks so high of herself is so annoying'

you know suicide rate will reduce worldwide if people stop giving their selves unachievable assignments, I wouldn't want to loose you to premature death so I think you should bring yourself down to your level....

I am not bragging you know, its actually the truth, I dont have a problem with you deceiving yourself

'dammit she was right, she was far more closer to my parents than I am, I dont like clinging to them too much, cause I am a teenager and that's what teenagers do right, I receive the cuddles pikia gets in a day within 2 years ........my pride really made me miss a lot of things

I had my days too I was once a kid, she should enjoy it while it last'.

so have you seen the family before

yes, they came to drop some things the day you went to school, they should move in officially today....

..new neighbors!!!!!

.............

they are here pikia let's go and give them a warm welcome, I put on my best dress and stole some makeup from mom, she never uses them anyway, I was helping her by using it......

and where do you think you are going to dressed like that,

hei it isn't Christmas's, we aren't even shopping, it just welcoming our new dumb neighbors

....mind your words young lady, dont disgrace me

I went to her room, jeez I would have bad dreams if I slept here, look at all these ugly unicorn and cartoon characters, dumb things children do

.....I took the best cloth I could find and made her wear it.

.......they were still offloading their things, a whole lot of things by the way, well this is it, NEW neighbors!!!!!

I saw a man in his late thirties, that must be the first som, he had a very fit body, he must work at the gym then I spotted the dad so I walked up to him to say hello

good afternoon sir, you are welcome to our house

......you are talking to the wrong person, I am just here to transport their furniture's, talk to the man on black

what this man is way to young to have any kids, he must be the womanizing type, how did my Dada think this was the best person to impact on us positively....let me just go and talk to him. oh no pikia dont move, dont try it, dont say anything..... s**t too late, she opened her carnal to say something and I couldn't stop her

she stood before him, with her arms folded on her chest....

are you the dad?.... are you here to seduce my mom, well she doesn't like ugly monkey men, she loves my dads potbelly and bald head

...ehmm you know when I said someone could murder and bury the both of us without leaving a trace....pikia just talked to that person, this one could even do it with two fingers, one squash on the throat and we are both dead....I knew this girl will kill me one day...

oh Lord accept my soul into your kingdom.

......I quickly interrupted her, sorry sir

good afternoon, you are welcome to our house, we just came to say hello

'he was smiling after all the things pikia said!!.

impressive little girl, I wish my both sons could both share half your boldness, nice to meet you, you can call me Mr peter

......she loves to talk, I hope you aren't offended

not at all, I like bold kids, so please, come and meet my family

.....this is my lovely wife Mrs peter and children, Kelly the first, diane the second and amazing my last sweetheart.

oh you can call me Stella, its so nice to meet you, you are so cute little girl ....common say hello kids

'hello!!....they chorused'

'oh s**t its the boy from the class, the one that almost got me admitted, he looked more handsome on mufty,so his name is Kelly, Saysha weds Kelly, that would make a nice wedding card, we looked at each other eyeball to eyeball breathtaking moment,

hello he said, specifically to me

remember me?

oh you guys know each other, said Stella

yeah we actually attend the same school.

sorry I didn't get a chance to introduce myself properly, I was in a bad mood, but by the way. nice to meet you

'I repeated what I would say to him a thousand times before it left my lips, I can't f**k this up'

its OK, my name is Saysha

that's a nice name....I have a lot to do,we will catch up later, see ya

'you know that song.....cause am happy come along if you feel like a room without a roof, that is my mood right now, somebody call a pastor, for I have found my love.... let's make this family fast....his dad was handsome, which means my Kelly would look like that too at old age, I hope I dont take after my mom, I would love my family to look like the Peter's family at that age, they look really cute, I love my Dada though but its not a crime to have a fantasy.......

I almost forgot.....Pikia, we have unfinished business