Fated Mate

Goodbye, Emi

I see everyone’s still not home but catch her scent and know it’s just her. I follow her scent to her room, I hear crying and whimpers as I open the door Emilia is on the ground. “Jesus f**k Emi, what happened?” I roared carrying her bridal style to her bed. “I don’t know Joshy, all I felt was a pain in my stomach it burnt so bad, and then suddenly it just stopped” I gulped. 

"I don't even think period cramps hurt this bad before" she softly giggles. "Arghh.. I shouldn't laugh right now". “What’s happening to me, Josh! I’m scared” she cries. ‘No no she’s not of age and her wolf hasn’t come? So how can she feel the effects of the bond?’. “Shhhh.. go to sleep baby it’ll be okay the pain will go away soon... I promise” Immediately guilt flushes through me. There’s n going back, I’ve already hurt her. I hear her final sniffle before she’s fast asleep. I kiss her forehead and whisper the most forbidden words of our kind. 

“I- I Joshua Zada future Alpha of The Full Moon Shadows pack, Reject you Emilia Jane Ryan of my mate and future Luna of my pack!” I whisper out… “Why Josh?” I hear the fainted whisper of hers as she closes her eyes and falls into a deep sleep. ‘I’m sorry my beautiful Emi. My chest is in so much pain and it burns, I quickly leave her and shift and take off into the forest. I hear Leo howling and whimpering because he lost his mate, OUR mate. ‘It’s for the best Leo, we have to leave tomorrow for the Alpha training’ Leo stays quiet and pushes and blocks me out.

"Meet me at the cliff spot, I need you!" I mind link, Ezra. 

I make it to the cliff and he's already there, "I needed to think s**t out, this is the only beautiful place that takes my mind off my worries" he explains. I sit down next to him and throw a hand over his shoulder. It was a beautiful view and the cliff drops into a waterfall below us into the main lake that overlooks the peak mountains and gets the best sunsets, sunrises, and stars. "This is where she died. My mother. This was their special place and my dad was meant to meet her here but got distracted and was running late. By the time he got here, it was too late and the rogue had killed her and I later found out he was late that day because he found his mate at a meeting in town. It was Ayla's mum, I still resent him for not being here for my mum but Lily has always been good to us and I love Ayla so much and I feel guilty about it sometimes Ez. It all hurts." I say with a pained voice. 

Ezra hands me a bottle of Johnny Walker and hugs me. "Here for you to the end brother, this is now your special place and your mother would kill to see you happy she'd be proud of how strong you are our future Alpha. Because I certainly am and so is my family and sister. We got you" he whispers to me, and let's go. 

'Happy birthday Josh, she would've loved to see you. Your mother.' Leo pouts and then blocks me out again.

*Present time*

“Yeah, just my dad’s on my case about a Luna and mates and s**t” I mumble out. Tensed filled the air. He knew exactly why ‘Mates’ were a hard topic for me because of what happened to my mother. “Your dad having a receding hairline with pierced n*****s” he blurts out. Making us laugh as a imagine crosses our head and I feel more at ease.

“I’m happy I get to see my family and my sister since we missed her birthday, it’ll be good for us!” he whispers with a pained expression. ‘My beautiful Emi’ I knew exactly what he meant I felt bad because she’s been like a sister to me as we watched her grow up and we used to be close until we hit high school, we missed Emilia’s 18th birthday party because I got into an argument with my father. Truth is I couldn’t bring myself to return to see her, so we cooled off at the clubs and that’s where I met Stella. Ezra’s always been loyal to me, and his sister means the world to him, but he chose to be there for me instead when I needed him and I’m forever grateful for that. As we pull in the driveway to the packhouse. He knew that Stella was my choice of a chosen mate, I told him I waited long enough. Keeping my true mate, a secret and the rejection from him hurt more than the death of my mother. Because I loved my best friend/brother, I loved the Ryan’s, I loved Emilia. I knew karma will eventually come back to bite me in the ass.

Today I will have to face her, Today was my Alpha ceremony and Luna's introduction. I felt sick and hated myself. As we pulled into our pack’s territory, I closed my eyes and leaned against the car window. I missed this place. ‘Me too’ Leo grumbles. He barely talks to me since the rejection made 2 years ago but he understood the promise I made with Ezra those years ago. But he still never left me and tried to help us heal.