Hot Pursuit

Chapter 18

[Kieran's POV]

I can't believe I just lost total control of myself back there. That almost ended up in bigger trouble. I still can't believe it happened. Why did I even do it? Why the hell did I kiss her?

Well, yeah, I already kissed once a few hours ago but that was only because I was trying to make us less awkward with each other. The only way to break the invisible wall between us and make it looked like we've already become physical was to get her used to me being affectionate and close to her. They kiss before the recent one was intended to let her become less frigid beside me. It was a tactic that I learned for being an actor myself. I had to get used to touching and kissing my on-screen partner so I could make it very clear that we got chemistry in front of the camera. It was effective all this time and I only did it with Georgina because it felt necessary to make her soften up a bit.

But what I never expected was to actually get blinded with my own emotions and ended up kissing her again... For the second time—which was no longer intentional and clearly not something I even thought of doing again. Yet, for some reason, when she had started blabbering nonstop right in front of me, it brought something out from my past. Or rather... someone. And the emotions got the better of me that before I even knew it, I was already kissing her with such intensity I was about to lose it all at once. Fortunately for the two of us, I still got enough hold of myself to stop midway through it. Thank goodness for the lungs that won't work if I didn't need to breathe too. I was actually going to go all the way and that would totally ruin everything for me.

But that kiss... where would I even begin with? Hell. I can't even believe myself. I was actually lusting for her lips now. Just thinking back to the way Georgina melted in my arms and moaned against my lips, completely had me feeling so hot inside. And really, my hard-on was proof enough to explain how turned on I was. This never happened before. Although I did have my fair share of casual s*x with other women before. It was not like I had been going for so long without s*x anymore. The last time I did have s*x was just more than a week ago. And it was even with Georgina's friend... Penelope.

This was completely messed up. I should really start trying to distance myself from her. I just have to return her stuff after this and forced her not to follow me around anymore. I still could not afford her to know anything more about my personal life. She was still pretty clever if she wanted to and that was something that had been putting me in a state of unease for the past few days. I did not want to involve her further in my own matters as I had already been too stressed over so many other things I have to look at as well. If she still tried to pursue getting more information about me after everything, I can never do anything more to keep her away from any sort of trouble. It might actually even harm her soon. But it was not like I could just tell her exactly what could possibly happen if she tried to delve deeper into it. I can't just share what sort of trouble was going to come after her if she still insisted too.

The only way I could think that could really save her from any danger I might bring her was for her to completely give up. She had to keep her mouth shut and eyes away from me for her own sake too. But how will I make her agree on that? The thing was, I still don't think she would even change her mind about following me around again. She will just definitely continue doing it until she gets something out of it even if I try to threaten her with a lawsuit.

I have to think of something else. There should be something else that could stop her from doing unnecessary stalking. I can't just let her drive her own self to danger. She was still a nice woman and I knew that she was just doing her job because she still had something she wanted to do for herself. It was just absolutely unfortunate that we had to cross paths and deal with this mess we had found ourselves in. So what should I do now?

As I mulled over this, I was slowly sinking back to the memory of that kiss again. Damn. So much for trying to think about a solution to my own problems here. Really, Kieran? Why can't you just forget about it already?

It was hard.

And my lower head was getting hard again. Hell. I still found myself remembering the way she kissed me back. Why didn't she even resist? She was totally in it too. And the way her sighs brushed up against my lips and softly warmed me up inside, I can't stop thinking about it anymore. This was all totally going in the wrong direction again. My brain could no longer just function properly. That kiss was absolutely a terrible decision, to begin with. I couldn't even explain why I did it, the only thought I had in mind at the time was I wanted to feel those lips again and it blinded me. But even after realizing how big a mistake it was, I still could not bring myself to forget it.

I kept going back to how she felt in my arms and the sweet scent that covered her. If she kisses a man that way... what would it even feel like if I actually go all the way with her? No. Stop.

Hell. I had to get a grip somehow. Why was I starting to wonder about that? Kieran, this was not the right time to think about s*x or even kissing Georgina again. I have to come back to being rational about this entire bizarre situation. I had to set things right. I have priorities after all and I don't really have that much time to think about my personal pleasure.

Georgina must definitely get away from me. Not just for her safety but for my own good too. Because somehow, I just got a bad feeling about associating myself with her again... It might actually bring much more stress to me and to the little buddy that was totally poking his head up from my lower body.