The urgent call had ripped me from my sleep, a frantic message from Alice about a sickness that couldn't wait. My heart had hammered against my ribs as we rushed to the packhouse.
Astor clearly has been hiding how he really feels about the baby because I could tell how worried he was the whole way.
Yes I'm angry but I'm not angry at the innocent baby that's not even born yet because he didn't choose to be born this way.
I don't want to say that a part of me doesn't resent the baby because it will forever be used against me. It's a constant taunt that I will never be able to get rid of.
I don't want anything to happen to the baby and I think I may be one of the reasons why she might be secret now and I feel guilty for stressing her out only to find out that there was no sickness.
Ali
