The sun came up, but it didn't feel nice. I just wanted to forget last night even happened. I don't know whether to feel uncomfortable or happy that it finally happened and it was just messing with my mind.
My heart was still beating fast, like a bird stuck in my chest. Last night. That kiss. Our first kiss. It had surprised me, shocked me so much that I ran away. My face felt hot with embarrassment and... something else. I didn't want to think about it. It was easier to be angry. Anger felt like a shield.
I got out of bed. The floor was cool under my bare feet. The quiet house was peaceful. I needed this quiet, this time alone, to sort out the tangled feelings Astor had made me have. I splashed cold water on my face, trying to get my wits back together.
Then I started my morning. Doing
