My blue eyed man

Chapter 14. Closing

A few weeks past and I was debating on whether to keep the child or not. I made a list of pros and cons I only had a few things on my pros list but my cons list was a mile long. But my biggest issue was money I was already working only a few hours a day now due to the restaurant losing money honestly I was shocked we were still open at this point. Bobby has already talked about selling so him and Tracy could have some kind of retirement together. I told Cheyenne about it she told me she can help as much as she could but she was in the process of moving out with her and the twins her and Brandon thought it would be best if they moved in together because he's there every night and if he is not there she is at his place he says he loves raising the children as if they were his own. I'm kind of envious of her she's already found her person and here I was just trying to make it through the day. i'll just have to handle this on my own I know no matter what she'll always be there I would go to my mother but I already knew how this was going to go she's the type that it may be my body but it's not my choice that God gave me this baby for a reason I mean I get it but I can't do this alone I can't even tell him about it he will just think I did it on on purpose or that I "trapped" him. It would not matter anyway I'm pretty sure he has my number blocked anyway cause iv tryed to texts him saying I need to tell him something you know trying to do the right thing but he never texted back. In a way I'm happy he has not texted back if that makes sense.

This morning sickness was killing me and this kid hates the smell and taste of eggs and lavender which sucks because lavender is my favorite smell I spray it on everything well I did anyways. In the middle of my throw up session I received a text message more like a group text message from Bobby telling everybody we had a meeting tonight at 6. Great I thought to my self I usually don't mind having to go in but this kid was really kicking my a** today. I tried to get out of it but he said no it's mandatory don't know why he can't go send it in a texts it's just me and Cheyenne and Ricky the cook that work there now after all the cut backs he had to do. Cheyenne yells from the other room you can just go with me Brandon said he would take care of the twins while where there. And after words me and you can go out to eat I need a break from being mommy for a few days she says . Sounds to good to me how can I pass on a free meal? I said. Who says I was buying I'm the one who just pushed two babies out a few weeks ago you owe me a free dinner for giving you two God kids thank you very much she says. I just rolled my eyes at her and said whatever you didn't even name her after me as I said with a smart a** voice. Her only come back was get over your self.

Thank you everyone for coming tonight I have some good news and some bad news I'm sure you all have been wondering what's going to happen to the restaurant. As you can tell we have not been doing so well and our hours having been changing constantly or closing earlier and earlier opening later. I have decided to sell the restaurant I already have one buyer Who is interested. But as he was talking Jesse walked by the restaurant with his arms around another woman and all the noise faded out as I stared at him walking by with his arm wrapped around her we locked eyes for just a second and then he quickly moved his head forward talking to whoever he was with my heart sunk into my chest I could not believe it. It took every ounce of me to not run out the door. He don't want me but he wants her what's she got that I don't? I must have showed my emotions on my face because Cheyenne looks at me and says are you ok? The only thing I could do was point to the window. I can't believe he walked her over her she don't even live near here she said. Wait you knew he had a girlfriend and you didn't tell me trying to keep my voice to a whisper. We'll talk about it after the meeting but you need to pay attention he just told us that we're closing down in a month and the new owners were just tearing down the building. We're gonna be out of a job she said. Great this day just keeps getting better and better. Bobby informed all of us that he would give us a good word to who ever we go to next I don't see how well I'm going to get a job when no one wants a hire a pregnant woman. And I don't know why but in the moment I realized that I didn't want to get rid of this baby it just hit me. I don'tknow how I'm going to get a job maybe I can just not tell them I'm pregnant I mean I will eventually obviously it's gonna show but I keep it to myself till it does. At this point Bobby had finished his meeting and we all started to pack up our things and get ready to leave.

Ready to go? Cheyenne asked. Yes and you have some talking to do when we get there yeah yeah yeah she says