Kendall
I soak in the bath for the longest time, hoping that it will make me feel better. I managed to eat half my plate for dinner, which is progress since I’ve barely been keeping anything down. I’m not sure if it’s the pregnancy or just because I feel so upset.
I miss Camden, miss being around him and sleeping next to him, and I don’t know what to do about it. It’s not like I can easily forgive him or go back to being in a physical relationship with him.
That won’t work, will it?
I wish that I could maintain a relationship with him, at least a casual one, but that’s not me. I can’t handle him seeing other women, and clearly he’s not ready to give up that part of his life. I wish he saw me as worthy, but he doesn’t so I really have to let go.
I’m just finishing getting dressed for
