STAINED

Messiah's Choice

I was asleep again in her bed, but this time, there was no s*x. I had actually fallen asleep without overusing a drug. It felt strange, good, refreshing. This time, I woke up with her inside me. I had wrapped her like she was cold or something. Her face was bright with peace. What the f**k? I was losing my mind slowly. Running away was suddenly not an option. My body had tasted peace of mind and didn't want to lose it. I was sure of something going wrong along the line. How would I protect her if I became a bounty, a target or a mark. I was a mercenary, one of the best in the game. Other assassins, mercenaries and bounty hunters will want my head if they figure out who I am. I was a ghost, no ID, just a history of merciless killing. I was a hero, killing only the baddest of the bad just to ease my bloodthirsty vendetta with the system. I believed, in this world, for me to fight evil, I had to become a greater evil. I just had to. I had to make the difficult decisions. And it was making me Heartless, staining my innocence, staining my cause. But it has to be done. Now, I'm getting distracted by love. Can love truly be stronger than anger and hate.

As I had vanished in thoughts, gentle kisses to my chest woke me up. She was awake. I quickly left her and went downstairs. She followed me looking puzzled. "what's wrong" she ask. I took one look at her and turned away. I looked at her again, this time, into her eyes. It reeked of innocent love, then I turned away again. I turned to her for the last time with a tear in my right eye. "Aurora, I love you" escaped my mouth. She was smiling until I continued "...but I can't be with you". "what do you mean?" she asked. I could feel how hurt she was, I felt it very deeply. "I'm a bad person, I don't deserve you, even though I want you a lot. And to think I only began to love you on Tuesday, I can't remember how I was alive without you. Aurora, a lot of people want me dead, (I was now in tears) and....and... I don't know how I would be able to live with myself if something happened to you". I collapsed on the ground. She had shattered the walls blocking me from having any human feelings. I was literally crying and smiling at the same time. It was sadistic. I didn't cry this much when brother died but only thinking of Aurora's death scared me to hell. I was blessing and cursing the first time we met. She came to me and held me into her chest while I bled my tears out. "I don't care what happens to me, I've always loved you but, after yesterday, I don't think I can go through this life without you in it, if you leave me, I will die". Geeezzz!!! There was really no way out. She will commit suicide if I leave her, and if I don't, I put her life in peril. I was scared as fvck but I had to hide it. I have displayed too much weakness for just a morning. I stood up, cleaned my eyes and smile devilishly, well, if you're gonna date the grimm ripper, at least give him access to your forbidden fruit". She giggled and we kissed to the bed.

Later, she was laying on me and it was almost noon. "babe, I promise, I won't let anything happen to you" I sweared as she stared in disbelief. She didn't think I could love her ever. And honestly, I didn't think I could love anyone, talkless of loving this hard.

I had to speed up my plans to eradicate other agents. I went to her basement to strategize. I had decided to go rogue. I will wipe them all out without leaving any trace that it was me. Only 6 agents knew how I looked like, and Charlee was one of them. Five of them remains, and I'm going to target them first. They were my friends but, I was sure they would turn on me for a very good price. And I can relate to that, I would have killed them in the end anyways. The plan was simple, I would tell Jerry to host a get together. Jerry was the oldest but, boy!!! Did he like to party. The rest, Beckham, Sanjay, Mick and Mitch. It was gonna be more of a suicide bombing. To make it look real, I'll have to get hurt. I think I like bombs too much, but who doesn't love things that blow up. The question now is, should I tell Aurora? She would freak out. But if she finds out later, she would still freak out and be mad at me. What the f**k should I do. I have to protect her, and to do this, I must eliminate all possible threats to me. Come to think of it, I've never done anything to save a particular person before. I only kill crooks. Bad people, without actually saving good people around. I could collapse a building to kill one bad guy. I'm a monster I said to myself smiling devilishly. I had concluded the plan, and also decided to tell Aurora immediately I went upstairs. I was browsing with my eyes, and spinning anticlockwises in the basement and it was decorated like a girls room. I laughed. So girly. I promised myself to spray some blood red spray paint all over those walls, test her nerves.

As I went upstairs, it was awfully quiet. "Aurora, Aurora??". What the f**k was going on? I started hearing aggressive "hmmmmmmm's". I ran towards the sounds and saw Aurora tied up on the floor. I went to untie her, well aware I was being lured. As I untied her mouth, she screamed "No, run, its a trap". Then I was hit in the head with the base of a USP. I wasn't out, it just scrambled my vision and thoughts. I was groaning in pain on the ground. I looked at the bastard who did it but couldn't make out his face. My vision was still very blurry. Then he spoke, "the terminator's gone soft ay". Rollins, one of the A+ agents, but he didn't know who I was, how did he know where to find me? Unless, he followed me, but no one can trail me without my knowing, not with my kind of training. "I bet you're wondering how I found you, how I know who you are? You might have cleared the evidence from the police but Charlee had camera in his inn in places no one but me knew about. You killed Charlee, now I've come for revenge,..." he kicked me hard in the ribs as he screamed "....blood for blood!!!". She was in pain watching me suffer in front of her. "who would have thought you were in love with that embodiment of trash, come on, kill me you piece of s**t" I said as I coughed out blood. Aurora was shaking her head in disapproval. "no, I'll kill her first, then I kill you, that way, the revenge you seek for her death would be unfulfilled". It was a nice plan, injuring my mind then killing me. I couldn't have done it better myself. But he only knows me, he knows nothing about me. I began laughing like I was insane. "you think I come for my whores, go ahead and kill her, a replacement could be ensued. You know, how darn stupid are you to think I can love a soul, I take them". I didn't stop laughing even when I knew Aurora was hurting at the words I uttered. Rollins was shocked. He bought my whole act. He thought I didn't care and that made him mad. He picked me up by the collar and screamed at me,"you where always number 1, and yet I got you so easy, pfft!! Pathetic". I spat a huge amount of saliva in his eye and and stood up while he was still distracted. I held the hand with the gun to his back, sedating him for while. He hooks my leg with his, falling me instantly on the ground for a leg lock. I manoeuvered it into a half Nelson during transition point and begin planting heavy elbows on his jaw. Aurora turn away as I wasted Rollins right there, getting his blood everywhere. "oh my God!!!!" she screamed. "Aurora, are you ok?" I asked in concern. "I'm not, you killed a guy in my f*****g house".

Time past as we cleaned up and I told Aurora everything. My plans, my brother, how its been for me. "we could get out of the country, start a life in Europe". She said with fear in her eyes. "Aurora, no where is safe, I have to do this, because....I want to be with you" I replied looking down to the ground. She held my hand and gently tilted my head to her and kissed me. I was sure what I wanted. I wanted to stop the noise. The noise that tells me I'm a lost cause. And that was what I was going to do. "Please don't do this" Aurora said softly as we briefly suspended the kiss. I grabbed her lips again with mine without replying because I knew killing them was necessary. It was my revenge plan all along.