I shouldn't have married the Crown Prince

Chapter 2

We slowly grew up and from time to time Cadmael showed up behind me which was always very terrifying. (freaking ghost) The Duke, knowing the identity of Cadmael, taught him a few classes but even though they were the same classes as me, we were separated. I didn't see him a lot during those 11 years and was finally the same age as in my last life.

I stayed as far away as possible from Eschyle's family and they did the same with me. Therefore I spent my days learning and discovering small hobbies. For example I learned how to cook, took care of animals, learned to knit (soon to be a proper husband) and use a sword. I didn't have any friends in the dukedom, all of them being bullies and I didn't care. Cadmael didn't have any friends either and the only person he talked to was me from time to time. I always fled as soon as possible however. I had multiple excuses to stay away from him: sometimes I told him I had classes, other times I gave him a cookie I baked and told him I had other ones in the oven before disappearing.

Slowly high school arrived which was the main stage of the book. I was quite stressed out at this idea and didn't want to meet Diana at all. We had been engaged for years but our parents never introduced us and had I never read the book, I wouldn't have known what she looked like. Anyway, I didn't have a choice and went to the school's entrance ceremonie.

A lot of people came to talk to me, being the son of a Duke and I didn't like that at all. I didn't like humans (mood) and didn't want to talk to them. Especially when all they wanted was to be in the good graces of my father. I wanted to tell them that he didn't care about me and that they could just go away but was too shy to say so. Therefore I just bit my tongue and waited.

Looking at the crowd I suddenly noticed blond hair. The young woman had a huge smile on her face which made us want to hug her until she stopped breathing and her eyes were the color of a calm sea. The female lead was truly gorgeous and I wanted to see Cadmael's in love face therefore I started looking for him in the crowd. I couldn't imagine his blank face in love and couldn't wait to see it. However I was very surprised to see that Cadmael wasn't looking at Diana.

Maybe he didn't see her yet but he was staring straight at me which made me a little shy. Why was he looking at me the way he did? Did I have something on my face? (probably beauty) I could still feel his glance on me and was growing uncomfortable. Look at the female lead! Not at me. Please, I beg you. I can't handle your gaze. There were enough people looking at me already, not you too.

Keeping my eyes on the floor I didn't get to see Cadmael's face when he fell in love with Diana. It wasn't that bad, I still would have numerous occasions to see them in love. For example the scene in the library when Diana would in turn fall in love with Cadmael. She didn't see him in the crowd but he would follow her to the library and save her from a fall. This was so cliché that my head hurt. Wasn't this in every romance ever? Even my sister crinched.

The entrance ceremony finished and we went to class afterwards. I sat in the center of the class whereas Cadmael sat in the back and immediately started sleeping. I raised my eyes to the ceiling. Is that the next emperor of this country? I was really scared for this place. As if he felt my glance, Cadmael suddenly raised his head and I froze, almost choking on my saliva. This made the kids around me panic and they asked me if I was alright. Cadmael on the other hand started laughing. I shot him a deadly glance really hurt by his reaction but that just made him laugh even more. What was so funny about my face?

I didn't have time to think about it with classes starting and a few days passed that way. Me concentrating on class and Cadmael sleeping soundly or looking at me. (b***h the future of the country is between your hands) I liked having a daily routine and slowly found it. Cadmael continued to follow me without a word just like he did as a kid but I couldn't say anything because we had the same classes. What could I tell him? It was normal for him to follow me. Just as did other students.

I quickly started disappearing to the library when I had time just as I did at home and surrounded by books I finally felt at ease. Some people understood that I didn't like company but the majority of them loved to levitate around me to stay in my good graces. Cadmael wasn't stuck to me at least but he was always close and I didn't know how to feel about this half and half behavior.

Contrary to what I thought, I kind of liked school. The subjects in my last life were very different from the ones taught here and I listened very intently during each class. On the other hand, Cadmael couldn't snore more loudly. He never listened but still came to class which frustrated our teachers incredibly. He was constantly punished but still managed to have passing marks therefore no one could say anything. As for myself, I always had the best marks in the class and everyone complimented me which made me feel better than I would have thought.

I looked at my 99% and smiled. Some children saw my grade behind me and complimented me:

"You are really amazing, young master.

-You always have the best grades."

I smiled sincerely happy but didn't have time to speak because everyone went suddenly silent. With his huge body, Cadmael came to my desk and stared blankly at me before asking for a rubber. I looked for one and handed it to him. He then nodded and left.

When there were too many people around me, Cadmael sometimes came to my desk just like now to ask me for my notes or a pen or something else. We never really talked except for these moments. I always disappeared in the library or to eat alone so these were the only interactions we had. Well except for when we came to school or went home together. Cadmael always followed me without saying anything. It was quite terrifying at the beginning but I started to get used to it slowly. I didn't know if this was a good thing or not but I started to forget his presence and to let my guard down. He never did anything anyway so why be so tense?

During sparring classes I was always against Cadmael. I didn't know how it happened but I got used to it too. We didn't really talk during exercise because I was very focused on beating him. He was the male lead nevertheless he never managed to win against me. I didn't have time to find this weird because I felt too proud of myself. I couldn't hide my smile and everytime Cadmael congratulated me after my win, I felt my cheeks getting hotter. I shouldn't be so happy. Stop it, my foolish pride. (cute)

One class where I was bad was magic. Eschyle was very bad with magic. He had very few of it and couldn't manage to use it. I thought it would bug me but I didn't really care. I was good in the other classes. I was a bit sad that in this new world full of magic, I didn't have my full but that was all. Being a true male lead, Cadmael really stood out during magic class. He had huge talent and people started to admire him for it. At the beginning no one dared to approach him because of his height but now more and more dared to talk to him during breaks. I was truly happy for him and didn't realize that I was looking at him while smiling. It was when our eyes met that I jumped surprised.

After one exam I disappeared again in the library. Our professor wanted to talk to Cadmael about something but I didn't care and just left. I was peacefully reading a book when I heard a familiar voice. A young woman was complaining not far from me:

"Why are these books so damn high? I should grow a few inches. I hope I didn't finish my growing spurr."

She was desperately trying to balance herself on a chair to get a book on the top chelf. I wanted to help but stopped at the last second. Wasn't this Diana? This was the next scene! She was going to fall and the male lead was going to save her, making her fall in love with him without realizing it.

Therefore I didn't have to help her and could just go. Even knowing that, I couldn't move. I couldn't just let her fall and really wanted to help. It was stronger than me. She was really high and I knew she was going to fall. Suddenly I realized something. Didn't the professor want to speak to Cadmael about something? What if he didn't make it in time? Would Diana die?

No, the female lead wouldn't die. But she could really hurt herself. What should I do? Should I just tell her to be carefull? However I took too long to think and saw the chair tilting and Diana falling with it. I didn't think and just jumped under her to save the situation. We fell painfully on the ground and Diana got up as soon as possible, her face bright red.

"I'm so sorry! Are you okay?"

She didn't know who I was so I just smiled:

"Yes, everything is fine."

Diana reached out to help me get up but as I accepted her arm, I felt a sting in my ankle. I winced and got back down.

"Are you sure you're okay? Oh my God are you hurt?

-No, no, don't worry.

-I'm so sorry again. I didn't think the chair would slip.

-It's not your fault."

I smiled again and decided to leave. My ankle really hurt and I didn't want Diana to get scared. Moreover, I didn't have anything to do here. Cadmael should have been the one rescuying her, not me. Where was he anyway? Did something happen? Did he get bullied? I had to make sure everything was fine.

Just as I limped out of the library, I ran into Cadmael who immediately smiled as if he had been looking for me. I wanted to say something but suddenly his face became dark. Really dark. His eyes were fixated on my ankle and I retreated by reflex. I never saw such a scary look on his face and could imagine him making the same face while killing me in the future. Thinking about it gave me goosebumps.

"Who did this?"

My voice got stuck in my throat and I started trembling. I didn't want to die. I really didn't want to. I wanted to go home. Seeing me in this state, Cadmael's face quickly came back to its neutral state but I didn't have time to get used to it because tears started streaming down his face. I froze immediately. In the book, Cadmael never cried. He stopped crying when no one came to save him from the bullies in the dukedom as a kid. He discovered that tears didn't get us anywhere and he didn't even cry when Diana died.

I lost my composure and didn't know what to do:

"Cadmael? Are you okay?"

Hearing this made him strangely smile, his face still painted by tears.

"I'm sorry, Eschyle. I'm just scared that you are hurt."

I laughed without realizing it. He looked just like a child. This huge beast who grew two heads higher than me in these 11 years was now crying like a baby. When you looked at him he looked as if he could break a tree with a finger but deep down he was still the same child. (sheep in wolf's clothing) Was this because I saved him from the bullies? Did I change the future that much? The cold blooded prince became a soft hearted child.

"Everything is fine. You are so cute just like a child. You don't have to cry for something like this."

I smiled and started wiping the tears off his face. He was very cute but I didn't want his bullies to see his crying face. They would definitely make fun of this poor kid just for expressing his feelings.

Suddenly this soft child jumped into my arms which made me jump in turn. He was so big that he could hug me twice with his arms and he had to crouch really low to be at my level. I couldn't help laughing and hugged him back. Of course my arms didn't even touch behind his back.

"Everything is fine."

Who was I to make fun of him? I was really scared of some things too. It was natural to be scared. I had to comfort him and would continue avoiding him later on.

"What happened?"

I signed.

"I'm ashamed of the truth. I thought I was way stronger than this. I was in the library and saw a girl falling so I wanted to catch her but fell with her instead. She was really nice but I was so ashamed that I fled."

You should have saved her, not me. You could have caught her without problem and no one would have gotten hurt. (yes be useful)

I continued to comfort Cadmael but had no idea how cold his eyes were while hearing the story.