so what are we going to do? And if I asked mom she can give us the money. never I mean never, I prefer to go and walk the streets than to go and ask him for help I don't want his money stuippp. while she can do it Carla it's for dad and not for you. I said no. He's already cured, he's fine so it's not a matter of life or death. I'll find some money. hummm. I am very proud especially when it comes to my pride I do not put myself down easily. Going to see my mother is like having hit rock bottom but I do not see myself there. I hope for Lydie that she did not tell her anything because I would not accept her money. Lydie talks to me I do not even listen, in my head I look for acquaintances who can easily lend me money. I take my phone to write to some. Lydie raises her voice

