Tomorrow Is A New Day

New Lover

Lion POV

I got really mad at that junior guy. When I finally stopped him from continuing to kiss me, my sun has already left the building. I mean no matter how much that Sailor wanted me, can't he understand the situation right now?

I tried to call Warm but he did not answer my phone, and he even changes his door lock. I have tried to wait for him in front of his house for a day but instead, he did not come out from the house for a day. It is killing me to think about how much he hated me now.

I have to admit, Warm and I have gone through a lot of problems and our relationship have started to shaken nowadays. He didn't have time for me and I feel that he is so unfair as he makes his job becoming the number 1 instead of me. But, I still love him and I know how painful it must be for him to know that I cheated on him.

The moment that he saw Sailor, his eyes drop a very disappointing look to me. I have never seen that look, and never wish to see it. Throughout these 3 years of our relationship, he has always shown me his happy or his smiling looking face. Even when we fight, I have never seen the hurt face but only a sorry face from him.

In every single part of me, there's nothing that I feel except sorry. Other than that, as if I'm dead and only continue to live because God has not taken my life yet. And it hurts freaking much.

Warm POV

It has been 3 days since the cheating incident. I can't lie that I did break down and that I cried a whole night in my home alone. I feel disgusted with myself when I still think about Lion even in this situation. I know that he waited for me in front of my house and I am evil because I didn't even give him a chance to prove himself.

But when I think back about what I saw, I feel so disappointed with Lion. Not because he cheated on me but because he can't wait for me a little longer. I understand that s*x is important. I am a man too. But he's not the one who's suffering. He's not the receiving end. Then, how can he force me to act in a certain way when what he will receive is a pleasure but I will only receive pain?

For him, I set aside my own feelings. For him, even when my parents used to curse me, I decided to stay with the relationship. For him, I can do everything as long as he didn't let me regret it. But he cheated on me. To a junior, that I or he never know. He rather does a one night stand than waiting for me. As soon as he decided to do that, there's no more in my feeling except hate to him.

To think it from a positive way, it is better now. I mean I can work freely, and I can test myself whether I'm really gay or not. I can even have a new lover. It's only freaking 3 years and I believe it won't harm me that much. At least, not till the point I'm dying or killing myself.