AphroGai

Chapter 5

CHAPTER 5

I woke up early than the usual. I surprise by myself getting up first before my phone's alarm. I don't know what kind of miracle happen because as far as I remember, I slept past midnight last night... so I assume that I will wake up late today since I am sleepless yesterday, but it didn't. And it's actually doesn't matter so I already forget about it.

When Yasha open the door, she's been shocked as she see me fixing my things that I would bring for school. She is the one who usually doing this for me, but since I have nothing to do in this early, I decided that I should learn to do this thing also.

Even Mom and Dad showed their shocked faces as they saw me helping Yasha preparing for our breakfast. Well, this is really not normal... as in this never happen unless I have something to request to my parents. So everytime I'm doing this kind of stuff, they're the one asking me advance what I need. But now, it is not that I need something... I also don't get myself why this is happening to me but I think it is not that important since they didn't tease me. We peacefully leave the house and went to our destination wearing a sweet smile.

The usual happen and nothing change to the reaction of my schoolmates whenever I get down from our car as I walk towards the pathway. Then of course, I am a graduate of masteral of ignoring nonsense people.

Zy and I met at our classroom. I think she also went to school early today than the usual since she is already reading a book when I arrive.

"Is there any spell that cast on us?" I asked out of nowhere.

Zy turned her gazed at me with curious look. "I don't know, I just went here early to test what changes will happen to you after your confession yesteday," she said then go back on reading.

I look at her furiously. "So the spell is only cast on me by you?"

She grinned. "Nope, people really change after they discovers that they are in love." Then she again turned to read.

I was about to say a thing but I couldn't. She is a bookworm, I am sure that she just read it for some of her books and just test if that is true. She maybe is applausing on her mind proving that her source is reliable. I want to explain myself to her but before any word came out to my mouth, I realize that she really has a point because waking early before my alarm is considered as not normal to me. Basically, I really change...

But as far as I can remember, having a crush and being in love is different matter. I admit that I have a crush on Gai but me being in love with him? I don't think so... I only see him as a man who is not like the other guys out there. That's it.

The moment that I decided to explain Zy what I just realized is the same moment that Gai enters our classroom. Since I saw him at the front door, I can't say a word anymore. As if he have a power to stop me to speak. When he pass by at my gaze, my heart beats faster than the usual and I even look him walking until he reaches his seat.

"Are you that excited to see him so you've decided to go to school this early?"

I glared at my seatmate. "Stop it, Zy. I was just shock that he will come to school this early too—"

Oh my God, is it because he also felt different like the usual?! Is he also being in love? From who? Me?!

"I know what you're thinking. But stop it because that would never happen. He often come to school, you've just never notice it sooner since you didn't care about him before," Zy said directly to my face. Why I have a best friend who is breaking my only hope?

I turned around my gaze, I don't want to talk to Zy anymore because she is a nonsense seatmate ever. I hope Gai didn't notice that I watch him since he enter the room. It is just coincidence that Zy seats at my right side same where the door is. Our seats are in the right wing of the classroom when you turn back to the blackboard. So everytime I turned my gaze to her, I will also have the opportunity to see who will come inside the classroom since we are located at the second row of this wing.

When the class started, I felt sleepy. This is what I've got from being sleepless yesterday, staying late last night, and waking up early this morning. I hope there is something I could do to fight this feeling, I don't want to be caught by our professor sleeping in class.

I mildly shoved Zy while whispering, "Could you pinch me? I gotta—"

She didn't even get me a chance to finish what am I saying. She already get what I want then she immediately did it as she really pinch my arm. I was about to shout but luckily, I instantly cover my mouth to prevent commotion. Then I glared at her.

But my drowsiness didn't fade that easily. I've got irratated by that thought but I would never asked Zy to pinch me again because I felt like she tortured me in that pinch earlier. I should think another way of preventing my self to sleep in the middle of the class.

Then, I just found myself staring to Gai... he is peacefully sleeping as if he doesn't care even our Prof see him. But when I try to turn my gaze at the front, he seems doesn't care even one of his student is sleeping. Is it because he didn't notice Gai? Or he just didn't give attention to him? Whatever his reason is, I want to thank him for that... I enjoy the view.

I am thankful too that my seat and Gai's seat giving me an unlimited access to stare at him. I don't care if someone notice that I am looking at him, I think it is better if they discovered that I have a crush on him, on that way, I will be less effort for me to tell him.

His position in sleeping gives me more reason to stare at him more. I don't care about the lesson anymore, my drowsiness also faded as I pay more attention to Gai. But the moment he open his eyes as if he knew someone is staring at him secretly, my heart beats faster again and I immediately turned my gaze back again to the front. I hope he didn't see me... I want him to know that I like him but doesn't mean that I also want him to discover what I did.

Until the classs is over and I can finally stretch my arm wide to sucessfully release my stress fighting with my drowsiness.

"Aphy, excuse me, may I ask something?"

"Yes?" I smiled at Myrdeth, one of our classmates.

She also smiled at me but I noticed that there is something wrong because she winced for a bit before she could talk. "I know that Gai is a problematic man, but do you really need to glared at him like that? I'm sorry if I need to say this but... I felt like uncomfortable whenever I notice you looking at him. You know, I seat at the middle of the both of you... so yeah."

In a normal conversation with a normal person, they would never say that. No one will just randomly tell you something that. So in other words, she just said that because she got irritated at my action, she can't just say that she don't want to see my face looking at the direction where her peripheral vision can notice. Because I know, all of girls here hated me. And I never saw her talked to Gai, so it's unbelievable to say that she did that for him. Her actions tells her reasons. I didn't answer her, my saliva would be wasted explaining to her. We didn't care at each other, so why bother explaining?

And because of her, I missed the chance to see Gai leaving the room. I want to bang her head in the wall to let my anger out!

Since I didn't answer, she finally left at my sight and I really owe her for doing that.

"Gai and I are on the same boat, we are hated by our classmates," I said for just thinking out loud.

"You were different, Ey. Gai chooses the path to be hated by everyone as if he doesn't want to befriend anyone. But you, girls are only insecured by the beauty you have. And for your information, almost half of our boy classmates have crush on you... means they didn't hate you. And you have me as your best friend, I neve hate you," Zy said when all of our classmates left and we are the only left inside.

I smiled at her because I don't want to let her felt that I wasn't relieved to her words. I used to have words of wisdom from her that helps me fixing my problem, but not this time... reality always hitting me the truth that no girls except Zyrell would love to be my friend because of this freaking face and body. How I wish there is really a fantasy world where I can live without worrying this kind of things.

We always left the room last so there would be less people wandering around the corridor when we pass by, since Zy and I didn't want an attention... we just want to go home peacefully.

There were a rumor or belief that the person who is ugly or different from others got bullied by the majority of the class. I may not experience the real thing but inside, I felt like I am really got bullied because they isolize from me... as if I am also an ugly or different person.

I am so tired of this thought, talking to myself to convince that everything will be okay soon. But yeah, it would be so I have nothing to worry. I just need to focus on how to get Gai's attention.

Zy and I is about to go down stairs to the first floor when I saw a familiar face waiting at the room 207. She seems like she's waiting for someone there.

When I stop, my best friend asked me, "What's the matter?"

I didn't turned my gazed to her as I remained looking the girl I am familiarize with. "That is Yuna, right? Gai's cousin." I use my index finger to pinpoint her.

"Yes and why?" she asked once again.

"I'm just wondering if she is waiting for Gai but she's waiting at the wrong room. We came from room 307 not in 207," I explained.

"Ey, I'm sure Gai is not the only person she may know. We never be sure if your thought is right since we don't know her personally. So come on, let's go home," Zy even pull my hands but I resist.

This time, I turned my gaze to her. "We will never know if we didn't asked her. She seems like worried as she didn't see the person she is looking for. It is not bad to asked if there is something wrong, right? Besides, you want me to befriend her so I can be close with Gai, right? Then it is the perfect timing for that!" I explained once again.

Since until now I didn't know how can I befriend her, it is not bad to gamble into this... at least I try to talk to her rather than doing nothing.

I heard Zy's deep breath. "Okay, its up to you. But I will just wait you here, you can approach her alone," she said.

I nod to her then walked towards Yuna and asked, "Excuse me, I notice you are not from this building because of your ID lace. Are you looking for someone or what?"

As her gaze turns to me and I saw her eyes near to cry, I know that I didn't make a bad decision.