finding herself, her mate and her family

Chapter thirteen

Its been three weeks since mine and Ruby's birthday and them three weeks have been hectic I have only five more weeks left of school and six weeks before Cameron and I get married, I am trying to my best to keep it together with all the stress of school wedding and learning Luna's jobs makes it feel like time is going a thousand mile an hour, I have taken up training to help with all the stress Ruby was training with me. Still, we can't get the better of each other.

I need someone to train with me but everyone I ask end's up leaving as I don't know my own strength that they get hurt the only ones I haven't asked yet is colin, Raoul or dad I sit near the training ground feeling very sorry for myself, I wanted to run away the next minute I had shifted into Serenity and was running I didn't know where I was going. Still, it felt free to run as Serenity I felt both Cameron and Ruby trying to link with me, but I blocked them, I only stopped running at I was starting to get tired I don't know where I am, but it looks beautiful, I laid down then fell asleep as the sun was setting.

The next thing I know was that Luna had found me and had brought some spare clothes, so we both changed back into our human forms, I then sat on the tree that had fallen over a long time ago by the look of it, Luna came back out as she was walking over to me she had a sweet smile, she sat next to me and put her arm around me, she didn't say anything she didn't I started to cry, she let me cry and get it all out. 

When I had pulled myself together I said sorry for running off then I asked her if everyone was mad at me for running off, Luna told me that they were worried about me and she knew I would be here as this is where she would find Cameron when he would runoff. She also told me that if  I ever need to talk that I could find her, I felt it all getting on top of me, it's all happening so fast.

Luna turned to look at me and said Sapphire you have been through so much in so little time, and I am only eighteen. I was going to feel stressed at times, I tell her that I have been feeling so tired lately and I have been falling asleep in class as well, but I have excellent friends that wake me up when I do fall asleep I would miss so much in classes if not for them, I'm scared that I'm not going to get my GED's. Luna then told me I really don't need them for when I become Luna after her. 

We walked slowly back to the packhouse talking as we walk I said I can't face everyone at the moment I didn't know if I could go back when I feel such a failure how could anyone love me I am a complete mess, Luna says that I can go into her office where no one will come into me if I don't want them to. I told Luna that I didn't want to see them. Then she told me she has a door to the outside in her office, so they won't even see me go in there.

We went into Luna's office and laid me down on her sofa and put her blanket over me and I fell to sleep in minutes, I wake a little when I hear knocking on Luna's door. I made out that I had gone back to sleep it was Cameron at the door Luna told him I was still asleep, and all he said back to her was mum I need to see Sapphire is ok Luna said that I am, but he wasn't having any of it he was begging her to let him in he was crying. Luna let him and told him not to wake me.

I felt him running his fingers through my hair; it was so nice then he kissed my head. Cameron asked Luna if I had told her why I ran. she told him not to judge me he told her why would I do that I love her more then my own life I want to know why she didn't want to see me, mum I knew Luna had moved to sit next to Cameron she told him that I just needed time and that I felt like I was failing everyone, and that I have been through so much in the last year I found my family then when he came up to me in front of everyone and claimed me as his mate one the first night coming into the pack. It all got a bit too much with trying to finish school and feel like I and not going to pass my GED's then the wedding and becoming the next Luna. Within months of been back with my family and finding out about pack life.

Luna asked him if he knew where she found me. Cameron told her that dad didn't say where just that you found her. Luna said well my son she was where you run to when you need to be free for some time, so Sapphire must have been thinking of you when she was running to go to his special place. Cameron then told her that he wanted to take me there. Cameron asked Luna if Mrs Norris if Sapphire can have a couple of days off so he can take me there tomorrow and have some time just him and me, Luna told him that she has already spoken to Mrs Norris that and how I was doing in school.

Cameron asked what she said so. Luna told him that I really don't need to do any more school as with all the work I have done that I will pass with A* in all that I was taking. Cameron said that he knew I would as I am a hard worker, Luna said she was going to tell me when I wake up. Still, she will let Cameron do that, he then said it's getting late and wanted to carry me to bed as he didn't want to wake me, Cameron then turned around to his mum and asked if she thought I knew how much he loves me, she said yes as I love him as much as he loves me. She can see it in our eyes when we look at each other, or if we talk about each other, she told him never dought that. 

He picked me you and was carrying me to bed when I heard my mum dad and Ruby stopped him. Luna said to them that I am ok  Cameron turned so they could see I was ok Cameron said that if they let him take me to bed, he would come back down and tell them what Luna had told him. Luna said to Cameron that she would tell them, and he can stay with me.

So Cameron carried me to bed he took my shoes and sock's off and my trousers then covered me up and got in at the side of me, he didn't come close like normal and with been half asleep I moved closer to him and said sorry for making him worry about me. Cameron then told me he wasn't bothered as I was back with him now, and he was never going to let me go again. 

Cameron told me what his mum said and told me to go to sleep I kissed him  I felt his arms around me, I tried to sleep, but he was trying to link with him, so I let him and I told him everything wail we were linked as we can't lie when we are linked, I told him how much I love him even before I accepted him as my mate. I promised him if I ever feel like that again, I won't run away again. 

After we talked, we cuddled up and went to sleep in each other's arms, and in the morning I will go see my mum and dad and Ruby.