If the city has a heartbeat, it’s loud enough to drown out my own.
By the time my shift ends the next evening, the clinic’s fluorescent lights feel like needles in my eyes. I scrub my hands until the smell of antiseptic almost covers the ghost of forest earth and cold stone, then step out into the alley.
The air is crisp, the sky bruised purple. Somewhere beyond the roofs, the moon is dragging herself up. My wolf stretches underneath my skin, restless and sore.
“Go home,” I tell her. “Eat leftovers. Pretend we’re normal.”
She shows me a flash of trees in reply. Ungrateful beast.
“Walking alone now?” a voice drawls. “Brave.”
Jarek peels himself off the shadowed brick wall like he grew there. Hands in his jacket pockets, shoulders loose in a way that fools humans but not wolves. His scent is all leather, gun oil, and cool patience.
I sigh. “Let me guess. Babysitter rotation?”
He shrugs. “Alpha wants eyes on you until things settle.”
“Define ‘settle.’”
“When elders stop using words like containment,” he says dryly. “So, never.”
I wince. “You were there.”
“Front row.” His gaze flicks over my face, then down to my hands, checking for new damage. “You held your ground.”
“I shook,” I admit.
“Shaking and running are different things, Seryn.”
We start walking. The city glows in pockets—bars, laundromats, a corner store with faulty neon. Human noise wraps around us like a blanket too thin for the cold.
“Is there a plan,” I ask, “or are we just hoping Vorian goes back to ignoring me?”
“Hope is for pups,” Jarek says. “We have contingencies.”
Contingencies. Such a nice, clean word for what happens if the elders decide I’m a problem that needs solving.
We turn toward the river, away from the pack house. I frown. “This is not the way home.”
“Corren wants the border checked,” he says. “Quietly. After last time, he doesn’t trust Vaelor to keep his wolves leashed.”
“And I’m… what? Emotional support?”
“Witness,” Jarek corrects. “If something happens, better you see it than hear about it twisted.”
My wolf perks up, sudden and sharp. The hum under my skin tilts toward hungry.
“Bad idea,” I mutter.
“Probably,” he agrees. “You coming?”
I should say no. I should go home, lock my door, eat my mother’s stew and pretend the world doesn’t tilt under my feet.
Instead, I nod.
The river cuts the city from the industrial fringe, a black ribbon reflecting scattered lights. Beyond the warehouses, the land rises into low, dark hills and then trees—shadow stacked on shadow, waiting.
We walk the cracked path along the bank until the air changes. It’s subtle if you’re human. Not if you’re us. A drop in temperature. A thickening of scent.
The border.
Jarek lifts his chin, nostrils flaring. “Smell that?”
Pine. Wet soil. Wolf. Not city. Not ours.
“They’re close,” I say.
“Closer than they should be.” His jaw tightens. “Stay behind me.”
“Sure,” I mutter. “That worked great last time.”
He gives me a look that would make a lesser wolf roll over. I hold his gaze for a beat, then sigh and fall half a step back. Compromise.
We move into the scrub, shoes crunching on broken glass and gravel until the concrete gives way to dirt. The river noise fades, replaced by the steady rustle of wind in unseen leaves. My wolf surges, pressing against my bones with a low, eager whine.
Then I hear it: a howl, far off, threading through the dark like silver wire. Not a warning. Not a hunt call. Something else.
It hits me in the chest.
My knees almost go out. Heat races up my spine, my heart slamming against my ribs in a rhythm that isn’t mine. The sound pulls at something buried so deep I didn’t know it had a name.
Vaelor.
Jarek’s head snaps toward the trees. “Shit.”
Another answer rises from the city side, lower, colder, shaped more like a command than a call.
Corren.
Two notes, two gravities, and I am the point where they collide. My wolf lunges toward both at once, tearing me in half. I clutch at the nearest low branch, nails biting into damp bark.
“Seryn?” Jarek’s hand closes around my arm, steady and hot. “Breathe.”
“I am,” I gasp. “That’s the problem.”
The howls fade, leaving vibrating silence. I’m left shaking, breath coming fast, eyes burning. The world sharpens—every scent, every sound, too much.
“I can’t…” I choke, hating the thinness of my own voice. “I can’t keep doing this. Being pulled apart every time they breathe.”
Jarek doesn’t say it’ll be fine. He just tightens his grip, grounding.
“Then we change the rules,” he says quietly. “Or we break them. But we do it with our eyes open, Seryn. Not by stumbling into the dark alone.”
The trees loom ahead, thick and waiting. The city hums behind us, bright and blind.
For twenty‑four years, the border was a line I pretended I could straddle forever.
Now it’s a knife, and I’m the one it’s cutting.