THE CEO's REGRET

CHAPTER 14- THE THURSDAY

Sebastian had been on the phone saying my name the night before he married someone else. I drove home from that lunch and sat in my car for twenty minutes before I trusted myself to go upstairs.

I didn't cry, not because I was holding it together, but because what moved through me in that car park… hands in my lap, engine off, the afternoon going on outside the windscreen without me wasn't the kind of thing that became tears. It was slower than that, heavier.

The particular sensation of a story you have lived inside for sixteen years beginning to change shape underneath you, and there being absolutely nothing you can do to stop it.

He had been saying my name at 3am. I had built everything on what I knew. The engagement announcement on a Thursday morning and the silence that followed.

One phone call, his voice careful and low, my name in his mouth, and then the click of the line going dead because I had hung up before he could say anything else. I had made that story clean and final because clean and final was survivable. Open-ended wasn't.

I had never once let myself wonder what he had been trying to say in the space I didn't give him. I let myself wonder now.

I sat in that car park and I stopped managing the thought and I let it go where it had always wanted to go, and I felt something release in my chest, something I had been gripping so tightly for so long that letting go of it felt almost like an injury.

I didn't reach for it, I just sat with the strange, aching relief of no longer holding it. Twenty minutes, then I went upstairs.

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The Thursday memory came that evening without permission, when I was twenty years old. Kitchen table, cold coffee, laptop open for something completely unrelated, and then the page loaded and the photograph loaded and the words beneath it arranged themselves into something my brain refused to process on the first attempt.

“SEBASTIAN HALE, HEIR TO HALE INDUSTRIES, AND CLAIRE SUTTON —”

I didn't finish reading, I sat completely still while the room continued around me. Then I picked up my phone and I called him because some part of me… the stubborn, certain part that had believed in him completely…needed to hear him tell me it wasn't true.

He answered on the third ring. His voice was careful in the specific way of a man braced for a blow he had been expecting and dreading in equal measure.

”Is it true.” I said. Not a question, I didn't have enough breath to make it one.

A pause, a second or two. But long enough to answer me before his mouth did.

”Naomi…” he said. Just my name. In the voice he kept for the things that cost him, and I hung up because if I let him say one more word I would listen, and if I listened I would break, and I had a baby inside me that I had not yet told anyone about and I could not… could not… afford to break.

I hadn't cried, I had packed a bag instead. Now I sat on the edge of my bed in the quiet of my apartment, sixteen years older and no longer able to use survival as an excuse to stay numb, and I let the memory run all the way to the end.

I didn't cut it at the familiar place, I let it breathe. I let myself sit inside it long enough to feel, properly and fully, what it had cost that twenty-year-old girl to hang up that phone.

“He was saying your name.” At 3am, the night before. I pressed both hands flat against my thighs and held them there. I breathed until the pressure in my chest became something I could carry again.

Then I got up, washed my face with cold water, and went to make dinner.

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The next morning I was at my desk by eight and I was immaculate. Three client emails answered before nine, two vendor confirmations sent, one floor plan approved and returned before the first meeting of the day.

Marcus came in at ten with coffee, set it down on my desk, and looked at me with the quiet, respectful attention of a man who could see exactly what was underneath the surface and had enough regard for me to leave it where it was.

"How was yesterday?" he said, his voice casual in a way that was never quite casual.

"Productive," I said.

"The Westbridge inquiry came through."

"I saw it. Brief is in your inbox."

He nodded and went back to his desk without pushing, because Marcus never pushed. He just stayed, which had always been the more useful thing and the thing I was most grateful for.

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Isla was doing homework when I got home, textbook open, pen moving in the slow, deliberate way she had when a problem was genuinely resisting her and she was refusing to let it win. We made dinner together and talked about her history project, a friend's upcoming party, a film she'd been tracking for months.

I was present for all of it, not performing, actually there because Isla had always been the one person who could pull me fully into whatever room I was standing in without even trying. We were clearing the plates when she stopped moving and looked at me.

She didn't rush it. She just looked, in that careful, unhurried way of hers, those grey eyes steady and a little too perceptive, moving over my face like she was reading something written in a language most people couldn't see.

"You look like you've been crying Mom," she said.

"No my love, I wasn’t," I said.

A small silence settled between us. She turned her glass slowly in her hand. "I know," she said quietly. "That's what worries me."

She picked up her bag and went to her room, and I stood at the sink with the water running hot over my hands and my eyes fixed on a point past the window where the city moved in its usual indifferent way.

I thought about the girl at twenty who hadn't cried either, who had folded herself inward and packed a bag and built an entire life out of the sheer will to stay standing. Some habits lived in you so long they stopped feeling like choices. They became architecture, the bones of who you were.

I was still thinking about that when I sat down with my laptop at nine-thirty. Eleven emails, ten exactly where they should be, one wasn't.

Unknown sender…no name, just a string of numbers, a generic domain that had been created for this single purpose and nothing else. No subject line, no body text, not even a greeting. Just an attachment.

My hand paused over the mouse, I opened it. A scanned document, one page. It took a moment to understand what I was looking at, and then another moment because the first understanding felt too enormous to land without confirmation.

A bank transfer record, dated nine years ago, one month before the society pages had run Sebastian's engagement announcement. Originating from a Hale Industries subsidiary account. Deposited into an account I had never opened or touched, never known existed, In my name.

My signature at the bottom, authorising receipt. Close enough to fool someone who had only glanced at my signature once. Wrong in three specific places that I recognised immediately because it was my name and I knew every line of how I wrote it.

Someone had fabricated proof that I took money to walk away from Sebastian. Someone had built a lie that looked exactly true enough, and whoever they were, they still had it.

They had sent it to me deliberately, now, after I had walked back into his world with a plan I thought was mine.

The question that sat in my chest like a stone was not “why.” It was “who else has seen this.”