Making A Luna

PREPARATIONS

Esme

Had I heard Blaire right? Her words replayed in my head as I tried to figure out the best response. How could she even know anything about Logan and I? I hadn’t told her and something was telling me Logan wouldn’t have either. As far as I knew they hadn’t even had a conversation yet. No I must be imagining things, there’s no way she just asked me that. She couldn’t. Could she? Blaire was staring at me expectantly as I sat in silence, debating my next move. Was I that caught up in everything going on with Logan that I was now imagining other people talking about him too? Surely not. It would make sense though, I’ve been thinking about him constantly these past couple of days. Think Esme think! “Esme, speak” Blaire demanded as I continued to stare at her not saying a word. Yes I need to speak, but what do I say? What can I say without opening something I wasn’t ready to? “Sorry I was in my own world. What did you say?” I lied, not wanting to give anything away. Blaire raised her eyebrows, looking at me as if to say don’t play dumb with me. “What is going on with you and Logan?” s**t. Okay I guess there really was no way of getting out of this. I began to panic as I realised that if Blaire knew something was going on, then surely everyone else would know. Or at least they would soon. “I don’t know what you’re talking about. Why would you even think something was going on?” I asked, hoping she would believe me and move on. Blaire snorted at me in disbelief. “Oh come on Es, don’t lie to me I see the way he looks at you, like you are his whole world. I don’t even know the guy and I can see he’s head over heels in love with you. If I didn’t know better I would think he was your mate!” She caught me by surprise. I knew Logan was into me, but in love with me? Impossible. “Blaire, I really don’t have a clue what you’re talking about. Look we need to go and get these rooms ready” I insisted, just wanting this conversation to be over. I hoped that I had said enough for her to believe me, I was confused enough about Logan without having to speak to someone else about it. Once I spoke out loud, I knew there would be no going back and that I would have to admit it to myself. “I know you’re lying to me. There’s something going on and I want to know about it” she demanded as I stood up from my seat. If she wasn’t going to drop this then I would just have to ignore her advances. I made my way out of the room and headed upstairs to the closet where we kept all of our spare linen. I pulled out a basket and grabbed as many bedsheets as I could out of the cupboard and placed them into it. “Are you seriously going to ignore me” Blaire said as she walked up behind me. She was really persistent and it was starting to get on my last nerve. Why could she not just respect the fact that I did not want to speak about Logan? “Here hold this” I said shoving the basket into her hands. She stared at me in shock as I turned back to the closet and grabbed another basket. If she was going to bother me the least she could do was help. After all I probably wouldn’t even be doing this if it wasn’t for her, I never would have done this with some random person had Mason mated with them. I pulled out the duvet covers and placed them into the empty basket on the floor before picking it up. “Seriously Esme this is ridiculous” Blaire moaned as I closed the door behind me. “Blaire in case you hadn’t noticed we have more important things to be doing that discussing something which isn’t even true. So can we please just get on with what we are meant to be doing?” I raised my voice in frustration. I didn’t know how much more of her nagging I could take. I took her silence as a yes, and continued my way to the guest floor. I figured that we had the most rooms on that floor, so it would be the best place for us to start and get it over with. I could hear Blaire trailing behind me but not once did I look back at her, I didn’t need her starting the conversation back up again. I would rather work in silence for the rest of the day than have to talk about Logan. I walked to the end of the hall and entered the guest room on my left. Most of these guest rooms had been empty for the better part of 2 years so they were pretty dusty and would need a good clean. “Blaire can you go to the fourth door down on the left, you’ll find the cleaning trolley. Please bring it back here, these rooms are worse than I thought” I asked, Desperate to get a few minutes away from her. “Sure, be right back” she smiled before turning and leaving the room. At least she didn’t seem to be annoyed with me anymore. I walked into the en-suite, looking around to see what needed doing. With both me and Blaire the room shouldn’t take much longer than 15 minutes I thought to myself. We had our work cut out, with 34 members coming from the other pack we would need to prepare all 15 guest rooms plus 3 rooms in the beta area and 2 in the alpha area. We had a particularly big pack house compared to most packs, partially because we were a large pack. Due to the packs status, it wasn’t uncommon for us to host guests and accommodate other packs in disasters. “Right shall we get started?” Blaire asked as she came in the room pushing the cleaning trolley. I nodded my head and walked to the trolley, grabbing some bathroom cleaner. “I’m going to tackle the bathroom first, if you start with the windowsills and clean the mirrors in here” I suggested, turning around and heading towards the bathroom before she could start harassing me again. I started with the toilet and the bath before moving my way onto the sink and mirrors. Before long I had managed to clean the bathroom and made my way to join Blaire in the bedroom. I closed the door behind me and spotted Blaire cleaning the mirror. “How are we doing in here?” I asked. “Good after this we just need to change the bedding” she told me. I walked over to the baskets and pulled out the bedding and sheets before walking towards the bed. Blaire finished cleaning the mirror and walked around to the other side. She grabbed one end of the sheet as I grabbed the other so that we could tuck it around the mattress. “Es, I know you don’t want to talk about it but I know there is something there. So please just tell me what is going on with you and Logan?” She pleaded as we finished putting the sheet on to the bed. I let out a sigh as I walked over to the closet to get the duvet and pillows out. I couldn’t keep lying to her anymore and she wasn’t going to let me. “Fine I’ll tell you but can you promise it stays between us? I don’t even want Logan to know I’ve spoken about this” I begged. Blaire nodded her head as she tugged the duvet cover on. “Okay so to be honest with you I’m not really sure. He kissed me before he went home last week and I ran away. Then he turned up the night he got attacked. He was sat in my room waiting for me when I came up from dinner, said he wanted to talk. Mason found out he was here somehow and asked him to come help with the rogue attack. Blaire - it’s my fault he got hurt. He wouldn’t have been here if it wasn’t for me” I started to cry now. Blaire dropped the duvet and came rushing over to my side of the bed. She pulled me into a hug to try and soothe me as the tears came rolling down my face. “Th-that’s not even th-the worst p-p-part” I stumbled, trying to get the words out. I pulled out of Blaire’s embrace and took a deep breath trying to calm myself. “L-last night I went to see him. We kissed and I completely lost myself. I got lost in the moment.” “You didn’t” “no I didn’t sleep with him, but I probably would have. He rejected me Blaire. He told me that it wasn’t the right time, but insisted he wants me. I’m just so confused” I cried whilst trying to wipe the tears from my face. “Blaire I think I have feelings for him” I admitted not only to her but to myself for the first time. I had feelings for Logan, I wanted him despite knowing I shouldn’t. “Esme, I had no idea. I’m sorry for pushing you” she apologised looking down at the floor. I knew if she had known she wouldn’t have kept pushing me, but I also knew she wanted me to be happy no matter what that meant. “It’s okay” I said composing myself now. “I just feel so torn on what I’m meant to be doing. When he touches me, I feel something I didn’t know I could feel before. Especially with someone who’s not my mate” I confided. “He’s not your mate?” Blaire asked curiously. “No. My wolf hasn’t noticed him as her mate and I know he’s not. But part of me wishes he was, it would make this all so much easier.” Blaire nodded her head as if to say she understood. “Can we continue getting these rooms done now please?” I begged not wanting to talk about this any longer.

Roman

Things had been pretty crazy these last few days with Delilah. I was struggling to let her out of my sight knowing that she was carrying my pup and with the rogue attacks I was becoming increasingly anxious about it all. “Alright guys great work. Let’s call it a day go rest up” i bellowed at the young trainees. I hated the fact that we were being forced to train even our youngest wolves to protect themselves, should the need ever come. The threat we were under was unknown and we needed everyone to be prepared for the worst case scenario. The boys scattered at my command, probably glad it was over. As I watched in the direction they were going I saw Blaire coming towards me, a massive smile on her face. This couldn’t be good. I started to walk towards her to meet her halfway. “What have I done to earn the presence of my future Luna?” I asked as I approached her. “Look I know you don’t really know me well and I hate to do this bu” “Blaire cut to the chase what do you want” I laughed, hoping she didn’t find me rude. “Well we’ve got that new pack coming tomorrow and we’re going to need to provide training for them. I know that you train the younger wolves already but I was just wondering if maybe you could take on an extra training session?” She asked, the words flying out of her mouth so fast you’d think she was in a race. “Of course Blaire I’d be happy to” I smiled at her. I was happy that Mason had found his mate, even if it wasn’t Esme. Blaire seemed like a nice girl, and so far everyone in the pack was taking well to her. “Thankyou so so much, honestly Roman this helps me so much!” She babbled, almost jumping for joy. “I’m happy to help it’s really no bother at all” I assured her. I knew Mason had barely spent any time with her since they met and taking on so many training sessions would mean he would have no time at all. I didn’t want that to happen to him or Blaire. “I’m really sorry Blaire but I’ve actually got to go. Delilah is getting some really strange cravings at the moment and I promised her I would get her cold fries and Ice” I laughed. Delilahs taste buds had been all over the place and today it was anything cold. I made a mental note to pick up some ice pops as well for her. When she had said cold fries I had laughed and asked why to which she had said she wanted fries but couldn’t bear to eat them hot. “No problem Roman. I’ve actually got to get back to preparing rooms with Esme anyway. Thankyou so much” she thanked me once again. “No need to thank me, honest” I smiled before starting to walk away. I could only imagine that Delilah would get increasingly demanding throughout the next six weeks which would become a struggle once I became beta. It was less than a month until Mason became alpha which meant in turn that I would become the beta. I would be lying if I said I wasn’t stressed because I was, extremely. All I wanted was to be able to focus on my mate and our pup right now, but instead I had to focus everything else. I was glad that Blaire had felt she was able to come to ask me for my help. If she was to be my Luna, then we needed to be able to build a good relationship. I walked towards my car, pulling my key from my pocket and unlocking it. “Roman” Masons voice came shouting from outside the pack house. I turned my head to face him and my face dropped as soon as I saw the look on his face. “My fathers office now!”