I hate that I love him

He has me in a spin

Waking up in Aidens arms is the best feeling in the world, I finally feel like I belong, like I have a real home.

“Good morning Demi”; “how did you sleep” he asks me in his deep morning voice.

“Very well thank you” I reply letting him snuggle his head into my neck.

“Shall we get breakfast” he asks kissing along my shoulder sending shivers down my spine.

I nod without speaking, the truth is I could stay here in bed with him all day.

after a hot shower I wonder down stairs and into the kitchen where Aiden is drinking coffee and looking out of the window.

He looks deep in thought.

“Anything worth looking at” I ask making him spin around.

“There is now” he smiles and walks towards me.

He is so good looking, I cant take my eyes off of him.

He grabs my waist and walks be back until I am against the kitchen wall where he kisses me with full force, like he has a need for me, like I am his drug.

I run my fingers through his soft messy hair, letting him no how much I want him, we pull apart breathing short sharp breaths.

“Lets go” he smiles taking my hand and walking me to the front door.

Once in the car he holds my hand for the short ride into town.

We end up in the same Delhi that I done a few hours of unpaid work.

“They do the best beagles here” he is excited like a drug dealer getting a fix.

“I worked here for free” I say it quietly so he doesn’t hear me.

We order our breakfast and find a table to sit at.

I look around at all the faces of people rushing from place to place, I look at the young girls behind the counter being yelled at with door orders.

This could have been me, I’m so glad I didn’t end up getting the job.

“What’s wrong” Aiden touches my arm but dose not leave his hand there.

“Memories” I reply as our food is brought to us.

“Good or bad” he asks putting sugar into his coffee.

“Both” I reply, I don’t say anything more, I just eat my food and we watch the world go by in silence.

We spend the rest of the day at home and I show him my ideas for the lounge, he is very impressed and also throws in some ideas, of course I can make better choices tomorrow at the fabric shop.

“Well good night Demi” is what I get when Aiden has finished his glass of wine.

I look at him in disbelief.

“Is that it” I ask standing up and clenching my fists.

“What do you mean” he asks leaning on the door frame.

“Well, just good night Demi” I cant believe him, “after our weekend together you just say goodnight” now I’m pissed.

“What is it you want from me” he asks like he really dose not have a clue.

I stand to face him.

“What the f**k do you think I want Aiden” I cry rasing my voice.

“I must be some kind of i***t” I cry walking over to him.

“Of course your not” he replies folding his arms.

“Then what was this weekend”, I feel a fool, “was I just a piece of ass”, “were you bored” I need some answers.

He looks down at me with what can only be described as a blank expression.

“Screw you”, I barge past him and up the stairs.

“Demi its complicated” is all he can say behind me.

“Oh f**k off Aiden” I yell down at him.

how dare he treat me this way, how dare he make me feel used, like it was nothing.

I slam my bedroom door shut and flop onto my stomach on the bed.

A few minutes later I hear him slam his own door.

The next morning I am up to let the workers back in, I give them a quick brief on colours for the lounge and tell them to not unpack any furniture until I get back.

Throwing my bag over my shoulder I head for the front door.

“Going somewhere without me Demi” is all I hear from behind me.

I stop in my tracks and spin around to look at him.

“As a matter of fact yes”; “I’m going to do my job Mr Jeffries” I give him a forced smile.

He smiles back standing there looking all hot with his hands in his pockets.

“Well if my memory serves me right”, he places his finger on his chin, “I am your boss, and I say weather I will come with you or not”, he smiles again and walks past me to the elevator.

I sigh heavily and join him at his side.

“Demi I’m sorry” he does not look at me.

“Just don’t Aiden”, I really don’t want to hear his lame excuses.

We walk into the fabric shop and are greeted by the enthusiastic Diane.

“Miss Monroe”, she shakes my hand.

“Mr Jeffries” so good of you to join us.

She leads us to the back of the shop where she has laid out some very expensive looking fabric.

I run my hands along the soft material and close my eyes.

Aiden is watching me closely.

“Do you mind if I have a look around”, I look at Diane and she nods and smiles.

I walk off towards the front door and look through some curtains that are already packed and quite hideous, but I just need to get away from Aiden.

“See anything you like”, I hear him behind me.

I spin around to discover he is inches from my body, I feel the heat from him being so close.

“Please get back there and do your job” he is not asking me, he is demanding me.

“Diane is waiting for you” he keeps his cool but I don’t want to push his buttons to much.

I walk back the way I came and see Diane smiling like nothing is wrong.

“These truly are lovely” I say touching the soft cream velvet.

“”I agree” comes Aidens voice from behind me.

I ignore his comment and ask her about the silk.

Diane is handed a phone from behind and she looks at me smiling apologetically.

“If you keep this up, I will bend you over this counter and take you right here, right now”; his threat making me turn around to look at his face.

“You wouldn’t” but I actually think he would.

He means it alright and I don’t know weather I’m scared or turned on.

Diane returns and asks if we like what we see.

“I like the satin and the silk” I say picking up the material and holding it up.

“Mr Jeffries”; I hold it up to his body, “what do you think”; “I would hate for you to get bored of it after a day or two” I look back at Diane who is still smiling and has no clue to our silly fight.

“Could you give us a few minutes privacy please” he asks Diane making her nod and leave.

I put down the fabric and make a hasty retreat towards the door.

“No you f*****g don’t” Aiden grabs my arm and pulls me back towards him.

I swing my hand to slap his face but he catches it and pins it behind my back along with my other hand.

“Don’t you f*****g dare” I am seething mad.

He turns me around and pushes me forward so my body is now on top of the fabric never letting go of my hands.

He yanks down my pants and kicks my legs apart.

“Aiden please” I don’t know if I’m begging him to f**k me or to get off me.

I’m so confused right now, and so turned on at the same time.

He thrusts himself inside me making me cry out into the coloured fabric in front of me, his grip on my hands getting tighter.

I cry out again, this giving him the ammunition to go harder and faster.

He thrusts deep inside a few more times before letting go of my hands and collapsing on top of me.

His breathing matching my own.

He tucks himself back in and runs his hands through his hair as I stand and adjust my pants.

Diane comes back in the room and she looks concerned when she sees my flushed face, but she says nothing.

“Could I please use your bathroom” I ask walking around the table towards her.

We leave the fabric shop after making a few joint decisions, and head to a furniture shop.

We browse the store looking at different couches and tables.

I like the look of a soft grey corner sofa, it has extra large seats for lounging on and being cosy on dark cold nights.

“This one is perfect” I say laying down and putting my feet up.

Aiden smiles and jumps on top of me making me giggle.

I still hate him for what he did last night.

I try to push him off me but its no use.

“I’m sorry” he looks at me with his big bright eyes, “I’m sorry for being a d**k” he kisses me softly.

“That hurt me”; “you hurt me” I reply letting a tear slide down my cheek.

“I know and I’m sorry” he replies climbing off me and sitting next to me on the sofa.

“Don’t do it again” I warn him with my eyes, and I think he gets it.

We ride home in silence, the memory of him between my legs only a few minutes ago still in my mind, and the fact it was in the middle of a shop is mind blowing.

I shower and change my clothes, Aiden orders us some food and we make a spot on the living room floor.

The decorators have done a fantastic job of painting the feature wall, I personally love the colour green.

We eat our food sitting on the floor, Aiden has stripped his shirt off and is sitting in his Gym shorts looking fine as hell.

“Are you finished” I ask putting some of the empty pots in the paper bag they came in.

Aiden nods while licking his fingers.

I raise to my knees and as I’m about to get up Aiden grabs me and pulls me back down towards his lap.

“No you don’t” he holds me firm while I try to get off his lap.

“Aiden we cant keep doing this” I push his hands away but he just grabs hold again.

“Doing what Demi” he asks pulling my top up over my head.

“Aiden please” I sigh trying to stop him from unclipping my bra.

“I love it when you say my name” he looks so handsome.

He kisses my chest as I continue to struggle.

“Aiden you have to stop” I don’t know why I keep pushing him away, “I want to go to bed”, I fall backwards off his lap onto the floor, in seconds he has my pants off and is kissing me all over my body.

“I just want my desert” he says moving down my body to my sweet spot.

I try to push his head away embarrassed that he can see everything.

But he holds me firm putting his tongue on my now very hard bud.

My body relaxes and I enjoy the feeling of his mouth on me.

He pulls me down onto his face, and I grab his hair moaning loudly at the pleasure he is giving me.

I don’t think I will ever tire of this feeling, the way he makes my body explode is nothing I have experienced before.

I cry out as my orgasm rips through my body making me shiver and shake.

Aiden removes his shorts and climbs between my legs.

He kisses me softly and smiles, a smile that could destroy a persons soul.

He thrusts inside me making me gasp, this pleases him because he moves slowly taking his time.

He is a man in need, he grabs the top of my head and pulls my hair making me lift my head up and back exposing my neck.

I run my hands down his back and wrap my legs around his body feeling his soft buttocks under my calves.

“You feel so good” he breaths into my neck.

He is moving faster now, getting close to the edge. “f**k me” he lets go and growls over and over into my neck before kissing me passionately.

He falls to the floor beside me and catches his breath.

We lay there for a few minutes looking up at the ceiling.

“You should get some lights put in the ceiling” I say after my breathing becomes normal again.

“It could look like the night sky” I love this idea.

“He turns his head to look at me.

“Your the interior designer”, he smiles,; “your the one with all the power Demi” he looks back up at the ceiling then closes his eyes.

“Come on, lets go to bed” he says sitting up and pulling me with him.

I wonder to the bathroom and then to my room.

“Where are you going”, he calls out to me; “come to my bed” he asks in a way I can not refuse.

So plodding down the hall, I enter his room and climb into his bed, a bed I will come to love more than my own.

He climbs into bed behind me, still naked as the day he was born.

He wraps his arms around me and kisses my shoulder.

“Sleep now” he whispers in my ear.

I don’t need telling twice, I fall asleep within minutes safe with his body wrapped around mine.