I hate that I love him

Let the games begin

The next three days go by in a flash, I have hardly seen Aiden, he seems to come home after nine in the evening and is gone before seven in the morning.

I have spent time shopping for new clothes and underwear, something I have not done in over a year.

I also stock up on some home magazines looking for inspiration, but to be fair, if I don’t know Aiden then I wont know what he likes.

I have just finished my bowl of Mac and cheese when Aiden enters the apartment, I wash my dish and sit back at the dining table to wait for him.

“Good evening Demi” he walks in looking super hot in some silver pants with a white shirt, his sleeves rolled up to his elbows showing me he has a tattoo, I bet he used to be a real bad boy.

“Earth to Demi” he clicks his fingers breaking me from my trance.

“Sorry, yes” I say blinking over and over again but trying to avoid eye contact.

“Shall we go” he asks grabbing his coat from off the back of one of the chairs.

I stand and grab my new note pad and pencil, I also have a tape measure in my bag just in case.

The drive is only ten minutes on the outskirts of town, but we do not speak, we just listen to Morgan Wallen singing about wasting his time on a former lover, something I have yet to do.

When we stop outside the front of a tall glass building, I see why he isn’t living there yet, the grounds are still being finished and there are still some big bits of machinery standing around, I’m pretty sure this is a health and safety issue.

“Carful, the ground is uneven” he says coming around to my side of the car, he holds his hand out to me.

“It’s ok” I say as we walk towards the front entrance.

“I got it”, he takes his hand away, I don’t need his help, I have always tried to do everything on my own, even when my sister was alive, she called me stubborn.

Once inside we walk past the reception area that seems to be almost complete.

We take the elevator up to the top floor, what is it with living on the top.

When we exit the elevator we take a few steps towards dark double doors, Aiden takes out his key and unlocks the door.

The entrance hall is impressive, and will be the first thing people see, we walk on towards a staircase that sweeps around to the left, and here’s me thinking we were already on the top floor.

“Impressive huh” he says with an ounce of excitement in his voice.

I nod unable to find words, he leads me further in and to the right where there is the most beautiful kitchen I have ever seen, its like being in a country cottage with gold fixtures and fittings, there is a square island in the middle big enough to fit twelve people around it.

“Your being very quiet” he says braking my thoughts.

“Sorry, I have a million and one ideas bouncing around in my head” I lie, I have no ideas because I can’t get this beautiful scene from my head, not to mention Aiden standing in front of me looking like a slice of heaven.

We walk around the downstairs for over half an hour, he talks about colour and style, he talks about art and wall hangings, all things he is paying me to think about.

We walk up the magnificent staircase up to to the second floor, three bedrooms in total, all with their own bathroom and walk-in wardrobe.

“This will be the master bedroom” he says walking into a very large open space, there’s a large bathroom to the left and an equally large walk in wardrobe next to that.

“This is like a bedroom on its own” I say walking around the large space jotting things down in my note pad.

The bathroom has yet to have the flooring laid, something I will have to choose, the bathtub is big enough for three people, and the shower will have at least 5 jets to clean you from all angles.

The other two rooms are very similar to this but not as big, and the view of the city is something wonderful.

We head back down stairs, back towards the entrance, I just cant believe I get to create a whole house if you will, for someone else to live in.

“Shall we go” he asks as he opens the front door.

I nod and head for the elevator, when Aiden presses the button the doors open straight away.

I spend the next three weeks planning and organising contractors and decorators for the apartment, I have been back once on my own just to see the bathroom floor laid in black granite with flecks of diamonds crushed inside, it looks spectacular, and I cant wait for Aiden to see it.

Things have been strained between us, if he enters a room I leave, and vice versa.

It’s Saturday evening and once home Aiden asks me if I would like some Chinese food, its the first time he’s really to me spoken in the last week or so.

“Yes please” I reply quietly, I still haven’t forgiven his for his comment about me having money now.

We eat in silence until Aiden speaks.

“Tell me about you” he asks taking a mouthful of noodles.

“Not much to know” I say biting a spring roll in half.

“Family, friends”, boyfriend” he looks so beautiful, the soft lighting making his face flawless.

“No family, no friends, and certainly no boyfriend” I look at him as he stops eating, he looks at me like I’m an alien.

“There must be someone” he asks putting down his chopsticks.

I shake my head and close my eyes, this is going to be a hard one to explain.

“So your telling me you do not have any living family, or that you do not have any friends who will be calling around, or” I slam my hand down on the table making him jump.

“Unlike you Mr Jeffries, I have had a pretty s**t time of things over the last few years, I lost my parents when I was young, then for some reason or other, God decided to take my sister” I feel the tears sting my eyes, “I didn’t have time for friends, nor did I feel the need for them.

he is totally speechless, but I’m not done quite just yet.

“Unlike you, I am alone, totally and utterly alone, so I apologise for not wanting to talk about my life, but to be frank with you, I haven’t yet had one”, I stand from the table and excuse myself as he sits and watches me leave the room.

Maybe I was too harsh on him, I mean he wasn’t to know, perhaps I should apologise.

I fall on to my bed and cry myself to sleep, I miss my sister everyday it hurts, but she would’ve wanted me to move on and be happy.

The next day I see a note left by Aiden, he asks me to attend his sisters charity event as by way of apology, I have to admit it would be good to see Lady Jeffries again.

I walk into town to buy myself a gown, I already know the theme, so picking out a pale blue satin floor length dress, I look and feel amazing.

Aiden looks Devine in his deep blue suit, he really is very hot, and I’m the one who will be hanging off his arm.

We arrive at the grand hotel where a red carpet lines the sidewalk, there are flashing lights coming at us from all directions.

“Are you a secret celebrity” I ask as we walk inside.

“Didn’t you know” he smiles back at me, it breaks the ice slightly, which I’m grateful for.

Lady Jeffries walks over to greet her brother with a warm hug and a kiss on the cheek, He is very sweet with her.

“Demi, sweetheart” she says holding her arms out to me, I welcome her warm embrace, she smells of lavender and honey.

“You look beautiful” she says looking me up and down, “I hope my brother has been treating you well” she gives him a look as if to say, you had better or else.

“Yes” I nod smiling up at him.

We enter the grand hall and I am transported so a winter wonder land, there are twinkling lights everywhere, I’m talking millions of them, and white satin hanging all around with pale Blue silk draped from the ceiling, it a true wonder.

“Beautiful” I mumble to myself whilst looking up.

“Indeed” is Aidens reply looking at me, my cheeks flush and I make my excuses to use the bathroom.

The bathroom is empty when I enter which I’m relieved about, so it turns out, trying to hold my dress and pee at the same time is harder than it looks.

I hear some loud rather well spoken ladies enter the bathroom just as I’m about to exit.

“Did you see that little w***e on Aiden Jeffries arm” is the cold voice of one woman.

I slam my hand over my mouth, how dare they judge me without knowing me.

“I mean, of all the women to bring, he brings the help” another woman laughs, wow this is how people see me, I mean yes I am the help but I am also a human being.

I need to leave, I have to get out of here.

I pass everyone without being seen and head for the exit, I call for a taxi and climb in.

Tears are steaming down my face, I just wish I could disappear.

When I get home I climb out of my dress and toss it in the wardrobe, I pull on a long white t-shirt and clean my face, looking in the mirror I shake my head, always alone Demi.

I climb into bed and lay down just as I hear the front door slam, oh s**t, I did’t tell him where I was going.

My bedroom door flys open and in comes an angry Aiden.

“Privacy” I yell standing up.

“f**k privacy Demi” he is mad.

“What the hell happened” he breaths still holding the door handle.

“I felt unwell” I say squaring my shoulders back.

“Bullshit” you just vanished and I was worried sick, he says it like I’m his disobedient daughter.

“Don’t talk to me like I’m a child” I say getting more angry as the minutes tick by.

“Well don’t act like one” he says it with such conviction, it makes me super mad.

“Get out of my room” I say walking over to the door, I push him in anger.

“Do it again” he sneers, “I dare you” he makes me look at him.

There’s electricity in the air, we stand face to face, neither of us moving.

Taking me by surprise he grabs me around my throat and pushes me hard against the wall, my back hitting it with a thud, I don’t have time to complain or protest when he slams his lips against mine, I keep my arms down by my sides and dig my nails into the skin of my thighs.

His kiss is like nothing I have ever experienced, he drops his hand from my throat and pulls away from me.

The room is deathly quiet apart from our heated breath, he tries to speak but I turn my head away and bite my lip, suddenly extremely shy over what just took place, and the fact that my n*****s are pushing against my white shirt, evidence that I like what just happened.

He leaves the room, leaving me still standing with my back against the wall, I hear his bedroom door shut and I let out a long breath.

That was intense and probably the most erotic thing that’s ever likely to happen to me, but it scares me, why did her kiss me, what does it mean, and what the hell do I do now.

The next morning I walk into the kitchen to see Aiden sitting at the dining table drinking coffee, s**t, I should leave before he sees me.

“Good morning Demi” he says all chirpy, he is wearing skinny jeans and a pink shirt with the collar undone, he looks drop dead gorgeous.

“Yes it is” I say walking over to the fridge, to get some orange juice.

“We leave in ten minutes” he says all casual, like nothing has happened, maybe I was dreaming it, yes that will be it, it was all a dream.

“Earth to Demi” he snaps his fingers, “we have to meet perfect blinds at the apartment” he gives me a look which makes me remember I made the appointment yesterday.

“Yes”, I say quietly, I put down my glass and walk towards the door, “yes, sorry, give me ten minutes” and with that I exit the room and get ready for the day ahead, a day of un-known, a day with the s*x god himself.