Because I'm holding on to the armrests of my seat with such a death grip, I'm afraid I might break them. What if I'm too late, and she already has a relationship with this jerk? It's not completely out of the question. There isn't a good reason for her to be otherwise. She is completely unaware of the depth of my affection for her or of the efforts I have made to track her down. I'm pretty sure she has it in her head that I've already found someone new to hang out with. Why in the world wouldn't she?
Then my mind goes to the woman who was so close to becoming number fourteen. Only a few minutes after we first met, she welcomed the opportunity to go to a hotel room with a total stranger like me. Due to the fact that the man she loved did not reciprocate her feelings, she was planning on le
