CRUSH(ED)

Charlie.

To be honest, I consider myself not a bad looking person but I don’t have the qualities for me to become the queen bee, like, I might have the potential but I like to stay on a low profile, even though im not the first girl that you turn around to look, i could definitely be the 2nd or 3rd depending on the place. With that said, let me get you to my senior year, if we were at mean girls I could be on the table of the definitely coolest people you’ve ever met since I was practically Cady Heron, I just changed school and everyone knew each other but I only met a friend that was changed to the same school, I thought that were going to stick together since we already knew from kinder garden but she had another thing in mind, the first day I saw her at the hallway while she was at her locker

-Hi Lucy! Are you nervous?

-No

-Great, we should get to the classroom so we can sit together

-No, im fine

She closed her locker and started walking the other way, and I know what you guys are thinking, that im annoying as f*ck but to be honest she wasn’t really popular at the other school and I often found myself defending her from bullies and we were very close so her reaction was super weird, I thought that she wasn’t taking the change so good but when I got to the classroom, everyone was there, sitting with their friends and turned around to look at me.

I started to blush, since im super pale, my face was turning into a living tomato, I started walking to an empty chair in the back and everyone went back to their conversations, I was taking a look to the printed schedule that the office lady gave me before, when I heard someone clearing their throat at the chair in front of me, I looked up and there it was, a boy with tanned skin, green eyes and light brown hair

-You must be the new one, Lucy or Sara?

He extended his hand and waited for me to give him a handshake, I touched his hand and it was warm and bigger than my hand, he must play football, he has totally the looks of the typical popular guy

-Hi! Im Sara…

Stop blushing about anything!! He looked at me with his big green eyes and started smiling

-Hi Sara, My name is Charlie, I know that it can be a little overwhelming to be the new one but everyone here is really cool once you meet them. If you want to, I can show you around later so you feel more comfortable and don’t look like a lost puppy

-I don’t look like a lost puppy but thanks, I would really appreciate it

He smiled at me and stared for a few seconds, I frowned a little and he looked away scratching his neck.

-Sorry…hummm…I will be in the front, if you have any questions or if there’s something that I can help you, let me know

-Thanks Charlie

He seated at the first row and started talking to some of his friends and then the teacher came in at the same time as Lucy that had some makeup on, that’s weird, maybe she’s going for a different look and wants a clean start since no one here knows us yet.

The class was basically the same as the other one, they made us introduce ourselves, and you know the same annoying stuff as always, It was finally over and when I got out a girl from class approached me

-Hey girl! Sara, right? I used to go to the school that you came from, I think we met before, my name is Lauren, it was like 5 years ago and we were very little so maybe you don’t remember

-Yes, Lauren, you used to go with your stepbrother, you had some ponytails and he used to pull them

-YES! THAT’S ME! I knew it was you but I wasn’t sure, hey by the way I saw you talking to Charlie, but I would recommend you to keep your distance, he has a girlfriend, Sonny, she’s real b*tch but she’s on vacations, her parents asked for permission so they could make a family trip to Europe, but she will be back in 2 weeks and you don’t want to mess with her

-Ok, thanks for the tip but he just introduced himself and was being nice like you, I don’t think that could be a problem

-Uhhh, girl, you better listen to me if you want to survive to the queen bee

We came out of the classroom and Charlie was waiting outside to show me around but Lauren stopped him

-Listen handsome, I will show her around; I used to go to the same school as her so we need to catch up from all those years

Lauren was really cool and I remember that the time she spent at my old school we were really good friends and she has the best intentions, Charlie smiles and then looks at me

-Well, seems that you are in good hands but still let me know if you need anything and welcome again

-Thanks Charlie

He walked away pulling his hair back and leaving his scent behind, with that I knew that he was going to be trouble.

The next day, i took the bus but there were only 6 or 7 guys from school, when I got off the bus I saw Charlie with his phone and headphones laying on the grass, I started walking to the entrance but I heard him behind me

-Sara! Wait!

He was picking up his stuff and running where I was standing, there was something cute about him, somehow he looked very handsome, I forgot to mention but we wear uniforms at school but he managed to look like a model with his white shirt, black pants and holding his jacket over the shoulder, he put his free arm around me and started walking

-Tell me, what do you think about school so far? Do you like it? Did Lauren gave you a good tour or did she leave the good parts for me?

-Wow, too many questions, but I like it, looks like its going to be a good year, yes I like it and im not sure which ones are the good parts

-Well the art class has a little gallery and at the library there’s a perfect spot in case that you need to study there, also if you want to go to the football games, there’s a pretty neat spot where I can save you a seat

-You’re in the team? I kind of figured it before

-Ouch! So you are saying that I am predictable?

-No, I said…

-I’ll give you predictable, Sara Connor

Before I could finish, he took me from the waist and kissed me but our lips matched perfectly, even though I felt like I was flying for a moment, my arms stayed down like if I was a soldier, they didn’t respond even when my brain wanted to pass my fingers through his hair so bad, we kissed for like 30 seconds but it felt like hours when everything that Lauren said came to my head, I opened my eyes and saw his eyes closed still into the kiss, only then my arms responded and pushed him away breaking his moment, he opened his eyes very wide and was really blushed but looked worried when he saw me freaking out

-I’m sorry it’s just that I couldn’t resist and I had a really bad impulse to kiss you since I saw you…

I started walking to the hallway; luckily nobody was around since the bus arrives almost 40 minutes before everyone starts arriving, i got into the bathroom trying to figure out what happened my heart was pounding so hard and so fast, I know this guy has something on me.

I hear people talking outside, they are finally arriving, I arrange my hair and make sure that my face doesn’t look shocked anymore, I got into the classroom and voided any contact with Charlie but I didn’t know if I could trust Lauren to tell her what happened so I guess this will be our secret.

A month passed by normal, I made some friends and somehow Lucy became friends with some of the girls on the classroom but later I found out that she invented a whole new personality and suddenly she decided that she never met me before, im not going to lie, I was a little hurt when I found out, but I wanted her to have friends and be happy, I was making friends on my own, a group of girls named Liz, Nancy and Alexis, we became very close in a very short time, which allowed me to ask about Charlies girlfriend when we got together after school without being suspicious about our little incident, Liz was the one who spilled the tea about everything:

-Her name is Tiffany, she is super vain and her ego got bigger when she got her nose done, then she went to summer camp and guess who went to the same camp? YES. CHARLIE. When they came back both looked different, Charlie used to be chubby but both of them got hot during summer so when they got here they were like king and queen, Tiffany on the other hand…

She has never been cute or whatever, just because she is blond with blue eyes and skinny

-Don’t forget that her dad is crazy rich

Nancy interrupted while eating a bag of chips with her pants full of crumbs

-Hey guys, what did I miss? Any news on the queen bee?

Lauren just arrived; she goes to soccer practice after school. Liz continued

-Well, my mom was talking to her mom and apparently they had to return before than expected because Tiffany and her brother got sick so they returned 3 weeks ago but they had some marks on their body, that’s why they haven’t returned to classes, somehow they got better and will return in a couple of days.

-Do you think she’ll come to my party? -Alexis said

-What party? –I asked and all of them started giggling and looking at each other

Then Lauren hit Alexis on her head.

-It was going to be a welcome surprise party for you but Alexis messed it up, it will be tomorrow, and you have to be there, even if its not a surprise anymore, please, you have to be there!!

-Hmmm im not sure if I know you too well for a party –All of them turned and looked at me in disbelief- IM KIDDING, GOSH! YES! I’LL BE THERE!

We all started laughing and Lauren stood up with her fist in the air like she’s going to punch me – Omg Sara I will kill you!

After hanging out for a while with the girls, Lauren gives me a ride home, her mom picks us up from school, her mom talked to my mom and offered to give me a ride everyday since they live 2 blocks away and so I don’t go on the bus, which is perfect since everyday I go around school to avoid Charlie, things got awkward since the kiss and he left me some notes on my locker apologizing, it was very sweet but I limited myself to only say hello and goodbye, the least I could do since he was the only one that talked to me on the first day.

I get my stuff out of my backpack and a letter falls to the floor, I pick it up and recognize the handwriting from the sorry notes, it’s from Charlie.

Dear Sara

Let me start by giving you like the 200th apology since we kissed, It has been a week but I have to tell you that I cant stop thinking about it, about the softness of your lips, and all of you actually.

I noticed that you don’t get at school in the bus, I was hoping to talk to you in person but with all of them looking I know that some of Tiffany’s minions will tell her but everytime that you cross the door I just… I don’t know what happens to me, I get this feeling of kissing you, your scent when you walk by, your hair and the way take it away from your face when you are talking to your new friends, I mean, everything about you, you are like glowing all the time.

I asked Lauren if she could help me giving you this letter and if she could give me your address to know if you feel it too or if its just me. If it is, I promise I will leave you alone, otherwise, come to the flower dome next to the flower market at 5pm.

Yours, Christian

The worst part is that I felt the same but I had to know if this was getting somewhere or if he was going to stay with Tiffany, I didn’t want any drama since it was the first month I was here. I put on my blue dress that I know it looks great and shows a little bit my curves, I put some eyeliner, perfume and head to the flower dome, when I get there he’s sitting on a white bench looking at his feet with a bunch of roses on his hands.

-This was so not predictable at all

He looks up and his face lights up with a huge smile –You came! I thought that you weren’t or that Lauren didn’t give you the letter, I didn’t have your number and I thought it would be more personal if I wrote de letter, and believe me I spent a lot of time writing it feeling so dumb because I couldn’t express myself or what I wanted to really say, I guess what I mean is that…

Now I don’t let him finish and pull his shirt to me, somehow our lips already know that they are so perfect together, my arms are responding now and I throw them to his neck, he drops the flowers and grabs my waist to deepen the kiss, my fingers go through his hair and its just a perfect moment. We are surrounded by flowers, the sunset behind us and I wish this kiss couldn’t be better.

We sit on the bench and start talking about pretty much everything we have in common, time goes by and the night caught us, he drives me home and I give him my number so we can keep talking and he saves me on his phone as Sara with a heart emoji, I asked him if he will be tomorrow at the party and of course Lauren already invited him over. We get a little goodbye kiss and that’s how we end a perfect night

I take a shower and hear a message on my phone:

Charlie <3

Everything seems so unreal, cant wait to see you tomorrow. Good night gorgeous <3

 I also have a text from Lauren:

Lauren

Hey girl! I guess you know everything by now, I only helped him with the condition that he wont break your heart and that he will do something about Tiff, I hope you are not mad at me, if everyting went well, text me a big red heart and if not, send me a poop lol, still I need details tomorrow, night, ill see you tomorrow 7am sharp.

I sent her a big heart emoji and go to sleep with the biggest smile ever, yes, indeed, everything feels unreal.

The next day we just made eye contact for a few moments but we couldn’t stop smiling, when we got out of school, we sneaked on his library’s secret spot that he decorated with lights and some paper butterflies, he had a used futon from the psychologist room and some blankets, he asked me about my previous school how it was and we ended talking about him and how he was before I met him

-You know, it was super boring, I like to play in the team but sometimes I feel like I don’t know where I will end, we have a year left until college and to be honest I don’t know what I want

-Don’t be so hard on yourself, we are still young and you have a year to figure out what is it that you like, is there something that you feel really passionate about?

-hmmm… I don’t know, there is something but my dad thinks is a waste of time

-what is it?

-nah, forget about it, is dumb

-oh come on! Ok, I’ll tell you what I want to do, my mom studied art and I have always liked to paint, draw o anything that involves creating something beautiful, there’s art in everything that we see, sometimes its more complex than others but theres always some beauty in everything that sorrounds us that allows us to express ourselves -He observed me while I was talking but its like he had something on his mind- ok, your turn.

-ok ok, well, when my parents got divorced, I stayed a few months with my grandma and she is Italian, I used to be with her while she was cooking so she taught me some things and I fell in love with her food, the passion that she has when she cooks, the spices, pretty much everything that she did had her touch and sometimes on vacations I stay with her and she teaches me what she knows, and… this is so embarrassing… once we took a cooking class together and the chef said that I would be a great apprentice and offered me a middle time job on his restaurant but my dad is not going to let me do it so… I might as well stay on the football team, get my scholarship and get the hell out of here.

-You should do what YOU want to do, no what your dad wants, or you will be happy with your decision, talk to him if he doesn’t understand you, at least you have you mom’s support and also your grandma, I think that he would probably understand if you tell him how passionate you are about it, its like you light up when you talk about it, if he cant see that, he will regret losing the best part of his son.

He grabbed me by the neck and give me the most passionate kiss ever, his hands started going down to my arms, then to my waist and just when he was getting lower, we heard a noise that brought us back to earth, we picked up our stuff and he took me home, I got ready for the party with a pink dress that the girls helped me pick it was a little tight with spaguetti straps, I used my  long black hair lose, I put a little make up on and my favorite perfume, now that I know that Charlie loves it so much.

Lauren picked me up at 9 and arrived to Alexis place, a lot of people were there and my group of friends, we got inside and there was really loud music, the soccer guys brought beer and there was a big sign at the living room saying “WELCOME SARA” with a bunch of stars and balloons, we danced a little and then I saw Charlie come in, Lauren told me that we could go to her room to “talk”, we went to her room and he kissed me like if we didn’t see each other in years, he got a little box out of his pocket.

-Hey bae, I wanted to give you a present and its more like a promise because I know that I have to fix some things before we can definitely be together, but this is the promise of that

He opened the box and got a necklace with a letter C on it, he asked me if he could put it on me, I picked up my hair and when he was done he got his hands on my waist while he gave me little kisses on the neck, he turned me around facing him and kissed me, we started making out but we started getting a little intense he picked me up and threw me to the bed and deeply kissed me again while my fingers went through his hair and his hands on my thighs, things started to heat really fast, I started pulling his shirt of, he pulled my panties down my legs I wasn’t sure if it was ok to do it so fast but I felt like he was the one, I already had s*x with a previous boyfriend but I never felt the same as I do with Charlie, I opened his jeans and he stopped to look at me, he was heavy breathing and asked me with a really soft voice

-seems like you already know what you are doing, do you want to continue? I’ll respect it if you don’t

I took him by the neck and kissed him while I pulled his pants down, he opened his eyes and knew that I wanted to continue, I have never been more ready, just when I thought that he was having second thoughts about it, he was already inside me, he was super gentle he did it for a few seconds and then he stood up to remove his jeans and get a condom from his pocket, huh! I wonder if he thought that he was getting something tonight, I know I did that’s why I matched my underwear. I tried to unzip my dress but Lauren knocked on the door.

-GUYS! YOU HAVE TO GET OUT NOW!

We dressed as fast as we could and got out when we heard someone downstairs, talking to some girls, Charlie had his eyes wide open and looked at me in disbelief, I got to the living room where a little group of people were gathering and saw a girl in the middle with short blond hair, and deep blue eyes and a very bad attitude, she turned around and Charlie got his hand away from mine.

-Tiff! What a surprise!

He hugged her and when he let her go, she looked my way and gave me a look like if I was just a cockroach on her way

-So…who’s that?

She noded towards me asking Charlie, he turn around and said so naturally:

-Just the boring new girl.