New Beginnings

Mirza.

I started laughing hysterically. I opened the middle visor without him noticing.

“Why are you laughing?”

I pulled out my gun and c****d it back.

“What the-”

I got up and pointed it at his face.

“I’m warning you only once more, leave me alone. I am not one to be f****d with.”

He rolled his eyes.

“I bet you don’t know how to use that.”

“Really? You know nothing about me.”

I aimed right next to his head and fired. It grazed his ear so I got in the car and drove off. I kept driving then went to the warehouse. I walked inside and everyone was staring at me.

“What?”

“Are you okay?”

“Fine.”

I walked to Elijah’s office and sat down.

“I know that look.”

“They’re trying to make me see James one last time before he dies.”

“Seriously? They know you hate him.”

“That’s what I’ve been saying! Thank you.”

“But he is dying and will be dead anytime now. Give him one last visit to tell him how you feel.”

I sighed.

“I can’t do it. I can’t see him like this. I can’t see him weak and frail because it makes me scared.”

“I know. But you need closure.”

“I just, I can’t handle that. I can handle anything else, not my father.”

“Why do you think that?”

“Because he’s the reason I am the person I am. If he would have done his job as a father I wouldn’t be where I am.”

“That’s a good thing. You wouldn’t have met Tariq or me, you wouldn’t have a son, a job, any of this.”

I sat there for a second thinking about it. He’s right, he’s always right. 

“Why are you always right about everything?”

“I don’t know. I guess with my age and what I’ve seen, I pick up things.”

“Has he texted you asking if I’m here yet?”

“Hasn’t stopped blowing up everyone’s phones looking for you.”

I rolled my eyes. We talked for a while before Tariq came sprinting through the door.

“Thank god.”

He grabbed my hands and made me stand up. He wrapped his arms around my waist, making me get closer to him until there was no space left between us. I wrapped my arms around his neck and held him for a few minutes. I pulled away and held his face.

“I’m fine.”

“I was scared.”

“I know. I went to the gym and worked out my anger.”

He grabbed my hands.

“You didn’t have to do this to yourself. We could have talked it out.”

“Talking is what caused my anger. I just needed to hit something.”

He chuckled. 

“I made you so mad that you had to hit something until you bled?”

“No not just you. It was built up anger that I couldn’t take out because I was pregnant.”

“Well are you okay now?”

“Are you going to make me talk to James?”

“No.”

“Good. But yes, I’m okay now.”

He pulled me back into a hug.

“How’d you find out I was here?”

“I called one of my friends who is here and he said he saw you walk straight into the office.”

I chuckled. We talked to Elijah for a few more minutes before heading home. When we walked inside Cam and Camilia were sitting on the couch making out.

“Well look at you two.”

Cam jumped off of her and started coughing.

“I didn’t expect you two to be back so soon.”

“Cam I really don’t care. You two wanna be together then get together. Just don’t hurt each other or else you both die.”

They laughed then we all went to bed. I got upstairs and got in the shower. I heard the door open then shut so I pulled back the curtain and saw Tariq brushing his teeth.

“How was your workout?”

“It went okay. Dude was harassing me but a girl came over and helped scare him off. He followed me to my car and pulled out a gun.”

He started choking.

“He f*****g what?”

“I grazed his ear with a bullet if that makes you feel better.”

“Not one bit. Give me his information tomorrow and I’ll take care of him.”

“It’s-”

“Don’t argue with me right now. He went after my girl.”

I turned the water off and got out of the shower. I made him look at me.

“It’s fine.”

“You see, this isn’t fair. You’re naked and you know I love it when you’re naked.”

“Oh really? Show me how much-”

He grabbed my waist and pulled me closer. He picked me up and carried me to the bed and threw me down. He kissed my neck then started kissing down my body. 

“Oh fuck.”

I grabbed his arm and pulled him back to my face. 

“Put it in.”

He bit his lip then put it in. He got closer to my ear.

“How rough?”

“As rough as I can take.”

He pinned my legs down and went deep. He started getting faster and faster with every thrust which made me scratch up his back more. After a while he pulled out and made me get into arch. He put it in and started going fast. 

“T- T- Ta- Tar- Tariq.”

He slowed down and pulled out a little bit.

“Are you okay?”

“You were too fast.”

“My bad.”

He went all the way in again and did deep strokes that drive me crazy. We went at it like this for a while then he pulled out. He made me sit up and start sucking. He face f****d me for a little while then came. We lied on the bed and I caught my breath. 

“How was that?”

I chuckled.

“Amazing but you were in my stomach.”

“I could tell.”

We laughed then he got up and handed me a hoodie and a pair of clean shorts. We both got dressed and I slowly walked to the bathroom to brush my teeth. We went back to the room and laid down. Apollo jumped up on our bed and cuddled with me while Tariq spooned me. 

“So Cam and Camilia.”

“What about them?”

“What do you mean ‘what about them’? We walked in on them making out.”

“We knew it was going to happen. I wonder how cute their kids are going to be.”

“Sophia, no.”

“What? A girl can wonder.”

He chuckled.

“I have to go to the school to pick up some books then I have a few meetings.”

“That’s fine. I have a few jobs and errands to run.”

“Do you want me to take De’Andre with me?”

“If you want but I’m sure that you’re going to get hate for bringing a baby to important meetings.”

“I’ll ask Camilia to watch him tomorrow.”

“Alright.”

He kissed my cheek then went to sleep. De’Andre started crying so I got up and checked on him. I sat in his rocking chair and held him until he calmed down. I sang ‘Simple Man’ by Lynard Skynard to him softly until he fell asleep in my arms. I rocked him for another twenty minutes then I put him back in his crib and went to bed.

As soon as I laid down, Apollo got on my lap asking for attention.

“Go to sleep pupper.”

I moved him off of my lap and Tariq chuckled.

“What?”

“You fighting with the dog, it’s funny.”

“You know what.”

I grabbed my pillow and hit him in the face. He started laughing then I got on his lap and pinned his hands down.

“You can’t move now.”

He c****d his eyebrow.

“Really?”

He grabbed my wrists and sat up with me still on his lap. He wrapped my hands behind my back and held them together. 

“You done?”

I leaned forward and kissed his jaw line.

“Not even close.”

He chuckled then he threw me onto the bed and pinned me down.

“Quit bugging.”

I shifted my leg to the side and wrapped it around his waist. I rested my heel on the middle of his back and pulled him closer to my body.

“Or else what?”

He used one hand to pin mine above my head and put his other one in my shorts. He put two fingers inside of me and used his thumb to play with my c**t while I moaned.

“Are you going to behave?”

“Are you going to punish me if I don’t?”

He chuckled then started fingering me and rubbing my c**t fast while my eyes rolled to the back of my head and moaned.

“Be quiet little girl before I f**k you up so badly that your legs are still shaking while you’re in those meeting.”

I bit my lip then he took my shorts off. He got up and opened the door.

“Apollo, out.”

He got up and slowly walked out of the room then Tariq shut the door. He grabbed the box out from under the bed.

“No, no, no, no, no. I’m sorry daddy. I won’t do it again.”

“Nah you wanna act up right? Questioning me? Teasing me? That ain’t going to slide so sit there and wait to receive your punishment.”

God this man makes me horny. He grabbed the handcuffs and cuffed me to the bed frame. He turned the dildo on and shoved it inside of me. Then he turned the vibrator on and put it on my c**t. I wanted to grab something to control myself but I couldn’t which is going to make this so much harder. 

He grabbed a chair from the desk and pulled it over to me.

“You already know the rules. No looking away, no closing your legs, no moaning or whimpering, if you c*m there will be consequences, and if you try to disobey there will be worse consequences than this.”

He pulled his sweats off then his boxers. To make himself harder he rubbed the vibrator on my c**t which made my eyes roll to the back of my head. As soon as he was hard he started rubbing slowly then he chuckled.

“I have a better idea.”

He got up and moved me to the edge of the bed. He grabbed the back of my head.

“Open.”

I opened my mouth and he shoved his d**k inside. He faced f****d me while I gagged and choked on it. After a few minutes he pulled out and sat back down. He kept m**********g while I had to watch. I bit my lip to stay quiet but as soon as I heard him moan, I knew it was over.

My eyes rolled to the back of my head.

“Oh f**k mamas.”

I looked at him and his head was tilted back slightly and he was m**********g fast which made me want to c*m even more. He looked me in my eyes as he came then bit his lip.

“Are you going to be a good girl?”

I nodded my head fastly then he got up and laid on the bed on his stomach then took the vibrator off of my c**t and turned it off. He slowly took the dildo out and turned it off too. He put my legs on his shoulders and started licking my c**t.

“You can c*m now.”

He started eating me out and I came immediately and he looked me in my eyes as he ate me out. He kissed my stomach and started going up. When he got to my neck, he wrapped my legs around his waist then kissed me softly.

“Are you done bugging?”

“For the night, yes.”

“Do I have to put it back in?”

“No.”

“Then quit.”

He got up and put his boxers on. He opened the box again and grabbed the keys then unlocked the handcuffs. He rubbed my wrists then kissed them before putting everything back in the box and putting it back under the bed. He grabbed my panties and hoodie then handed them to me.

“I can’t find your shorts.”

I pointed to the corner of the room where he threw them then he handed them to me. We got dressed and my legs were still shaking badly. I laid down then De’Andre started crying again.

“I got it.”

He got up and walked into the baby room. He came back a few minutes later with the baby in his arms. He cooed at him then he rocked him in his arms.

“You’re so good with him.”

He chuckled. 

“We both had to raise our younger siblings.”

He kissed the babies head and kept rocking him. 

“You can go to sleep mamas. I’ve got this.”

“I don’t doubt you. I can’t sleep.”

“Well try. You have a long day tomorrow.”

“Coffee.”

“That can’t be your answer.”

“Well it is.”

“No babe, go to sleep. I can handle the baby for a while then I’ll come join you.”

I sighed then got in my spot. I turned my lamp off then he walked out of the room. A few minutes later he came back and laid down with me. He wrapped his arms around me and kissed me softly.

“Goodnight baby.”

He kissed me again.

“Goodnight mamas.”

He held me as we slept and as soon as I started drifting, De’Andre started crying again.

I sighed then slowly walked to his room. I picked him up and changed his diaper. I rocked him until he started falling asleep again so I sat in the rocking chair. 

I started falling asleep with him in my arms. I woke up to Tariq taking the baby out of my arms. He picked me up and carried me to the bed.

“The baby?”

“He’s asleep mamas. I’m taking you to bed.”

“But-”

He laid me on the bed and pulled the covers over me. I was asleep within seconds. I felt him slip under the covers and go to bed too. He rested his hand on my stomach then kissed me. We woke up to his alarm going off around three thirty. 

He got up and went into the bathroom and I went into the babies room. I was standing there watching him sleep peacefully then Tariq walked in and rested his head on mine.

“You can go back to sleep.”

“It’s okay. I’ll stay up with you until you go in for work to take care of him.”

“I’ve got it baby. I like taking care of him.”

“Are you sure? I don’t-”

He grazed my neck with his lips. I moaned quietly then he grabbed my hips, making me lean back on him. I grabbed the back of his head making him kiss me more. He slid his hand under my shorts and started playing with me.

“B- B- Baby not here.”

He sighed then took his hand out and licked my c*m off of his fingers. He went downstairs with the dog then I followed shortly after. He made a pot of coffee while I brought Apollo into the backyard while Tariq got ready. He came outside with me then wrapped his arms around my waist.

“I want a quickie.”

“I’m still sore from last night.”

“We barely did anything.”

“I got punished. My punishment does a lot to me.”

“What were you punished for?”

“Teasing, talking back, and acting up.”

“That’s right. Now-”

He pulled me back by my hips and pressed his print against me. He grabbed my throat and made me look at him.

“Be a good girl and listen to your daddy.”

I bit my lip.

“I want a quickie.”

“I can’t handle-”

He picked me up and carried me over to the table.

“Babe no. I can’t take it.”

He rolled his eyes.

“You say this everytime.”

He kissed my neck and pulled me closer. He grabbed my waist aggressively and it hurt.

“Geo stop you’re hurting me!”

I gasped then I looked away.

“Tariq I-”

He took a step back. His face, he looked hurt and upset.

“Did I just-”

He put his hands on his face.

“Oh my God I-”

I stood up and grabbed his hands. I made him look at me.

“I’m so sorry. I didn’t mean to call you-”

“I made you. I reminded you of your assault.”

“I’m not mad. You wanted to do something new but you didn’t know. You were testing my boundaries.”

“That doesn’t make it right. I still did it.”

He went to hug me but I stepped back.

“I can’t even touch you right now.”

He walked away and I walked in after him.

“I’m not upset.”

“Well I am!”

Camilia walked in.

“Quiet down you two.”

Tariq looked away.

“It’s not a big deal. We can get through this because we always do.”

“But not once have I reminded you of him. I just did that and I can never forgive myself.”

“You can and you will because I have already forgiven you.”

“Sophia that’s not the point.”

“You’re right. Do you want me to flip my s**t on you? Blame you and cuss you out? Huhh? Is that what you want from me?”

“No! I- I don’t know what I want but I do know that I can’t forgive myself for what I just did to you Sophia. I can’t- I can’t fix that.”

“You can. We can.”

I went to grab his hand but he walked away. Camilia looked at me.

“What happened?”

“He got a little rough and I called him my assalents name. It was all by accident and he didn’t mean to hurt me. I’m not upset with him.”

She shook her head.

“Why is he taking it so hard?”

“I don’t know but it’s hurting the both of us.”

I sighed then De’Andre started crying. I walked to his room and picked him up.

“Hey, it’s okay handsome.”

I rocked him in my arms and cried silently. Tariq walked in.

“I’m leaving.”

I wiped my face then I turned around.

“I love you.”

He walked away and I sat down. Once he was asleep I put him back in his crib then went to our room. I sat in his spot holding his pillow. I checked the time and it was four in the morning. I started sobbing and clinging onto his pillow. 

“I’m sorry. Everythings my fault, it’s all my fault.”

I kept crying then I heard footsteps. Tariq creeped out of the shadows.

“It’s my fault.”

I got up and flung my arms around him. 

“I thought you left.”

“I did. I forgot something so I came back.”

I looked him in the eyes and cupped his face with my hands.

“This is not your fault. There was no way you could have known that I would have said that.”

“I shouldn’t have gotten that rough.”

“You wanted to try something new, it didn’t work, and we move onto the next thing. This is how we work.”

“But I reminded you of him.”

“For a second. It didn’t feel right and I said the wrong thing and that is on me. You had no clue that would be my reaction.”

“But it’s still the fact that I did.”

“Babe he’s dead. He can’t do anything to me anymore. I’m not worried that you are going to be like that because I trust you. I love you.”

I started kissing him then he put his hands on my waist softly.

“The look in your eyes, you were terrified.”

“Because I didn’t know what you were going to do. But it’s okay, it happened, we learned, and now we move off of this.”

“I’m calling off for the day.”

“No, you need to go to work, I have meetings and school stuff, and Camilia said she’d take care of De’Andre for the day. Lord knows how long she’s waited for a sister to have a baby.”

“Are you sure?”

“Yes. Now grab whatever you forgot and get your ass to work.”

He kissed me again and he didn’t let go. He just stood there for a few minutes holding me, taking me in. 

“I can’t lose you.”

“I can’t lose you either. I’d be losing the calm-”

“To your f*****g crazy.”

We started laughing then he kissed me again before leaving. I sat back down and held his pillow closely to my chest. I laid there until my alarm went off at six then I got up and took a shower. I went back to the room and checked my phone. My first meeting is at two thirty so I have a while. 

I put on a pair of black shorts and a baby blue crop top. I dried my hair then did my makeup. I went back downstairs and I saw Cam and Camilia drinking coffee.

“Morning.”

They looked at me.

“You wanna talk about it?”

“There is nothing to talk about. We tried something new, didn’t work, and now we are moving on.”

“You’re not upset?”

“Cam if I got upset every time someone reminded me of him, I would never not be upset.”

He shook his head.

“He still made you think of him.”

“It wasn’t his fault!” I turned around. “He is not to blame for this. It was an accident and now we are all moving on. We already talked about it and made up so we are fine. Stop talking about it.”

I made a cup of coffee and let Apollo outside again. I walked to De'Andre room and picked him up. I pulled my bra and top up and started feeding him. Once he was done I burped him then fixed my shirt and bra. I walked downstairs.

“Are you sure you wanna watch him today?”

“Absolutely. I love taking care of him.”

I smiled. 

“I just fed him so he should be good until I come back. His formula is in the closet and-”

“Sophia, calm down. It’s not my first time taking care of a baby.”

I chuckled then I handed him to her.

“Okay, I’m going to finish getting ready then I’m heading out.”

I walked upstairs then brushed my teeth. I went to my office and put my computer in my bag along with my phone, chargers, files, and my flash drive. I went back downstairs and put my socks and shoes on. I went back to the kitchen and kissed De’Andre.

“I’ll be back soon handsome.”

I left and got on the highway. I drove to Kankakee county and started going towards the school. When I got in the parking lot, I parked where I usually would. I got out of the car and everyone was staring at me so I chuckled.

“Sophia?!”

I saw Kyle sprinting towards me. He picked me up and started laughing.

“SHE’S BACK!”

“Not entirely. I’m here to get my school stuff.”

He set me down.

“Where’s De’Andre?”

“He’s with Camilia and Cam. I have a lot of stuff to do today and Tariq had to work today.”

We walked past Mirza and Brandon.

“Sophia?”