THEODORE
I hardly paid attention to the conference because of how shitty I felt.
Alice's words kept replaying in my mind, and I asked myself for the hundredth time if I might've made a mistake in my assumptions.
This time, the answer I got was...unclear.
The conversation I overheard was the nail in the coffin for me.
From her point of view, I seemed like a pretty shitty guy alright. Carmella's presence was certainly complicating things, but Alice had no way of understanding that I didn't want to marry her, and that our relationship expired a long time ago.
If I could just switch off this insane desire I felt for her, we'd be able to move past this easily and quickly. She didn't want me? Fine. Move on. My attraction to her was me breaking my own rules about never getting involved
