“And put your trust in Allah.
And enough is Allah as a disposer of affairs.”
-Surah al-Ahzab, verse 3
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ROHAAN
It’s a strange feeling to feel nothing at all. You’re present here but not really. Ayra’s words hit me hard. I don’t give a damn about what they do; they’ve done it all before.
They might break me but inside I’m me. I’m not their plaything; I’m definitely not the guy that was abused ever since he was young.
So, my mind wanders off to what Ayra said and I wonder. I wonder if Allah really will forgive me. I don’t understand why He would. I’m just a worthless person who couldn’t deal with his crap and fled to the UK at the first opportunity he got.
‘. . .do not despair of the mercy of your Lord.’
It’s like a blow to my stomach. Like I might’ve been dead all these years
