piper. it's been three days since Maddy's shower and it'd been a long three days. I want so bad to forgive Neal and just be in his arms, sleep still doesn't find me as I'd hope. neals been trying, which I won't lie surprised me at first because I did expect it since he walked away so easily after he explained what happened. the first day I woke up to a sweet text, then he surprised me calling to ask if I'd be home around lunch which I was planning to after I got sadie from my parents. of course they had questions and I didn't really have answers just explained to them that we were working through something and they understood. he had lunch delivered to me and Sadie along with an over the top desert which she was excited for. the next day I was decorating some of the house in Christma

