Chapter 6- Andrew
773 Words
** 58 days after Anna wakes up **
I never really sleep anymore; mother says I am going to drive myself insane. However, I reply what do you mean drive myself insane... that boat sailed a long time ago. But she does have a point, last week I started hallucinating in my office. I had not slept in 3 days I just hate sleeping without her, and the nightmares almost make me scared to sleep.
It is the same nightmare over and over again, I get to Anna just before Malcolm tried to r**e her, I rip out his throat and me and Anna are millimetres apart when she is shot and then I wake up. That was the exact moment I thought I had her and then also lost her, no matter what I do I cannot change the outcome, it is like the Groundhog Day nightmare. I have started to do patrol duty along the borders, just anything to keep me occupied because if I am awake then I am not asleep, and the nightmares cannot get me if I am awake.
I know Anna’s having a hard evening, I can feel her upset in my chest. If I could take it away from her I would. At Alex’s insistence I have started to see a counsellor and she says that although Anna has not died, I am experiencing grief because the Anna I know, and love has gone. She explained the stages of grief... one of them is acceptance. I feel like I am going to be stuck in this grief forever because I cannot ever accept that Anna’s not coming back, the only way out of this grief is getting Anna all the help she wants and needs so she gets better.
My wolf tells me something is wrong, but because the connection with Anna’s wolf is lost, he cannot channel in properly. He thinks there is blood, and my heart is pounding, there has been no alert, no breeches so I have to shift back to human form to call Mylo, there is no answer, so I send messages to him and Daphne and start to get dressed in case Anna’s hurt and needs me, I’m just putting my shoes on when Mylo calls back.
“Hey boss everything is fine, Luna is upset but she isn’t hurt ok.” Why is she upset? Why was there blood?
“Tell me what happened Mylo” I use my alpha voice, so he has no choice but to explain.
“Ahh shite... Daphne said to say it was Luna’s moon blood, her first one since coming home and she didn’t know what it was... she thought she was dying! Daphne is explaining everything to her now because she does not remember the teachings either. She’s really upset boss because of earlier too, and maybe hormonal all things considered”.
I can breathe again. My poor sweet Angel has been through the mill and there is a small part of me that happy to hear she has her moon blood, she is physically ready to have my baby again. “Thank you for explaining Mylo, I know this is not our usual topics of discussion. Does she need anything? Is there anything I can do to help?”
The worst thing is that lately there is nothing I can do to help; I am useless to her. “I have no clue boss, I never had any of these issues with Rosalie because she was ill. I will ask Daphne when she’s done and I’ll let you know, I have to shift back now so I can sit with Luna while she sleeps.”
How I wish I could do his job for him, but I think to be so close to her and not be able to do or say anything would hurt “bye Mylo and thank you.”
I decide to go and speak to mother- she will know what to do, I shift back to wolf form I can get back to Alex’s faster this way. I wake Alex and Katy when I get there but I just want to talk to my mother.
“Mother Anna has her first moon blood since the accident she’s frightened, sore and doesn’t understand what’s happening... how can I help her?”
My mother gives me a cold stare good morning to you too son!
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