I woke up from my nap sweating and feeling panicked. I do not want to do this with my aunt or my best friend. I would never want Andrew to think I do not want to marry him, but I want my family here, our family to bear witness to our love and our union. I do not want or need big extravagant or expensive things or events, but am I being selfish or unreasonable for feeling like I want Daphne and Katy with me when I marry my love?
I feel overwhelmed. What am I going to wear? I think I have one formal sophisticated dress with me that I brought in case we went out, but its black, I do not want to get married in black. I have been crying without paying much attention, and I just need Andrew, he will make it better.
He does not immediately answer by call and that gets me panicking, where
