He called me Pudako

But he have a big heart

11:59 pm  Mon. Oct 31, 2016

I arrived way earlier than usual. The store was still closed but few people were there waiting for the store to open up. I checked and it looks like we still have 15 minutes before this one will open. Damn!

It's a long wait so I decided to take a walk. I hate waiting and I'm not really in the mood to just stand there and waste time. I need to continuously do something to keep my mind occupied. I passed by the church but I didn't step a foot inside. I didn't dare to look at it either. I continue to walk till I get to the same spot where I was a while ago. Luckily the store is already open. 

I hurriedly went to my locker and shove my bag inside it. I didn't even bother to lock the thing . If there were things to be lost then let it be. I don't f*****g care. After I've time, I immediately went to our station and fixed the display one by one. Every variety of each product. I made sure they are perfectly lined and every vacant space has been re - filled . 

My mind is busy thinking what to do next. Then I decide after this I'll repack other items for refill and also check w/c items that have run out of stock already. There, maybe I have enough things to do until the clock hits 10 am. And then what I'm gonna do after that? I shook my head. I'll focus on this one first. After a while, I glance at the shelves of our aisle to check the display.

 To my disappointment I saw that I'm almost done! the heck it's not even 7:30! Dan I made a mental note to do things at a very slow pace, else I'll be running out of things to do even before we hit the noon break.

"SEAN!"

I turned and saw Mark looking at me like I've grown another head. 

‘Now what?’ 

"Er..."

"Sean, you bastard!" 

He hit me the moment he came close. 

"What the heck are you doing here?"

"Er....Work?" 

I answered him in a isn't -it - obvious - manner.

"You dimwit, don't use that sarcasm on me."

"What? You did ask?"

"It's your day off. why are you here?"

"Can't I go to work during off now?" I said while laughing. 

I don't even know why I'm laughing. Heck! I must be losing my mind.

"I don't get you. All of us here were dying just to get an extra day off yet here you are working a week straight. Do you even know what day off is for?"

"Aow come on! If I take my off now all the girls here will miss me. I don't wanna disappoint them" 

I said while smiling playfully. 

"Besides, staying at home doing nothing is quite boring. I'd rather be here. at least I get paid."

"Er... suit yourself then."

I went back to finish what I'm doing.

Nothing remarkable happened during the day. We do the usual stuff. We also talked to Vising about our inventory. It's Monday and usually we order stuff that is running out of stock, and then giving our opinion about trying to add and replace other products. Me and Mark also help lifting boxes here and there. Helping those stations who needed some muscles to help out. Some of the stations don't have a man so we kind of lend a hand. They need a guy to help them carry new stocks. Some of them are quite heavy.

I keep myself busy till I run out of things to do. 

'Damn! I need more work!'

Maybe the chances were playing tricks on me. For we don't have much of a customer to assist either. I need to move around. Once I stop, thoughts will flood into my mind. I've been holding them up since last night. And I can't let those thoughts bother me now.

"Guys make sure you cleared your stations already. It's 5 mins. to go before closing time!" the store manager announced.

Everyone cheered as I let out a sigh. It's time to go … home...

Everyone was just waiting for the last customer to finish her shopping. Some of my workmates, especially girls, were doing a retouch. Some were checking their phones and some were having chat. And here I am, still trying to focus on repacking. 

'repack focus on it. don't let your mind slip'

"Hey that's enough!" 

It was Mark. I didn't notice he was there. 

"We already have enough stock for refill for the next 3 days!"

" I'll be done in a minute." 

I looked at him and then my attention went back to what I'm doing. 

" I thought you're doing your retouch with Vising and Krisan. I heard you just a few moments ago" they were arguing over a face powder.

"Don't change the topic. What's wrong with you today?"

'Damn! Why so nosy?'

"I'm fine yow. By the way can you do me a favor?"

"Er. ."

"Can you buy me some beer before Lesley leaves the cashier?"

"Ok. But stop that now. Or else I'll tell Miss Che to fire you already."

After that I met Mark at the main entrance to hand me the beer. But I should know it won't be that easy.

Instead of handing me my beer, he grabbed me by the wrist dragging me somewhere. I'm not in the mood to argue so I just followed him. Strange enough , I feel a little bit at ease having him near me. Touching me like this. :)

Hey! don't get the wrong idea. it's his hand on my wrist dragging me in not a very gentle manner. Heck! I almost striped off a rock over there but he didn't even bother to check if my face hit the road or not. 

'So mean.'

Later, we finally reached the park. He made me sit on one of the swings. He opened a can of beer and handed it to me.

"Now talk." it's a command. I don't know but it sends shivers to my spine. 

This dude looks small and squishy but he sure is scary sometimes.

"About what?" I ask nonchalantly.

"Don't play dumb with me asshole. I saw you working like mad this morning. Not only that. Your mind seems to be floating around somewhere else." 

He sat on the vacant swing beside me. 

"You know you can tell me everything."

I chuckle. 

"Can I?"

"Hey, I can be nosy and talkative sometime, but I know where and when to keep my mouth shut."

"Er. .."

I took a sip of my beer several times trying to contemplate if I'm going to spill it now. A few moments later, I decided to give it a go.

"It's just... the situation in where I live now is getting more and more awkward." I give out a heavy sigh. 

"I'm thinking if I should move out or not."

"Is it that hard?"

"Er..."

I told him the thing that's bugging my mind. But still trying to conceal some situations in w/c he understands that it's too private to be talked about.

Having him here like this is like seeing a star on a cloudy night. We continue to talk. He listened to every word I say. We laughed occasionally in some topics. He stayed with me there until I became at ease.

" s**t!" I cursed out after checking the time 

" It's almost midnight already. I'm sorry for Keeping you up this late."  

After all the work we had today, I'm sure he's feeling tired already and he also looks like he badly needs to rest.

"No worries. Besides, it's my day off tomorrow. So it's no big deal."

"Thanks for your time anyway." I said. 

But rather than saying your welcome he hit me on the shoulder instead.

" By the way,tell me where your address is? I'll walk you home."

"No thanks. I can go home by myself."

"But it's on my way too. I'll walk you there then I go home too."

"Don't be stupid Sean. We go in the opposite direction upon reaching the crossing."

"Whatever. Let me walk you home na..."

"Uh..Er..." he finally agreed. 

"But only till we reach the crossing. Then I'm on my own."

"Aow. You don't want me to walk you home?"

"Gees...! Shut it, Sean. I'm a guy not a girl! No need to walk me home. I can go there myself."

"Right. You're not a girl your chest is not big enough to be one." 

I said to him grinning from ear to ear.

"But I like you better. You have a big heart." 

I tap him by the left side of his chest then grab his bag and start to walk ahead of him, smiling like an i***t.

I hear him say 'Asshole!' before following me.

Things may not be less awkward than what it already is when I reach the home where I stay. but I'm very glad I have him with me tonight.

[end of entry]