Derek
*Derek*
I was standing at the balcony inside my apartment and staring out through the large transparent glass. It was nightfall and my hands were tucked into my side pocket.
I shut myself up from thinking or feeling anything, because I am afraid of what I will do if I give in to my thoughts.
I can never forgive myself for what I did to Isabella, and I don't deserve her forgiveness either. She was right to say she doesn't recognize me anymore, because I can't even recognize myself.
The man I used to be will be ashamed of the man I am now. I hate myself for putting my mate and son into this mess. I want to get them out of it, but it's like every time I try, I keep hurting them even more.
I have tried to make Isabella understand that I cannot be fixed but she wouldn’t listen. My
