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The Girl Behind the Screen

Chapter 5: The Girl Behind the Screen

After that night, everything changed.

Not immediately.

Not in a way anyone else would notice.

There were no confessions.

No dramatic declarations.

No moment where one of us suddenly admitted what was happening between us.

But something had shifted.

Like a door quietly opening.

Like a line being crossed without either of us realizing it.

The next evening, I woke up later than usual.

Sunlight leaked through the gap in my curtains.

For a few seconds I lay still, staring at the ceiling.

Then my first thought appeared.

Maya.

The realization made me smile.

And worry.

Because nobody should occupy that much space in your head.

Especially not someone you've never met.

Yet there she was.

The first thought when I woke up.

The last thought before sleep.

The person I found myself wanting to tell things to.

Little things.

Meaningless things.

The funny dog I saw on a walk.

A song I'd discovered.

A job application I'd sent.

The strange cloud outside my window.

It was ridiculous.

But it was true.

And if there was one thing Maya had taught me, it was that truth mattered.

Even when it was uncomfortable.

Especially when it was uncomfortable.

That night, her stream went live earlier than usual.

11:48 PM.

The notification appeared while I was eating instant noodles at my desk.

I nearly dropped the bowl.

"Wow," I muttered.

"I've become predictable."

The stream title read:

"can't focus on writing"

I clicked immediately.

The familiar black screen appeared.

The viewer count sat at six.

And before I could type anything, Maya's message appeared.

"there you are."

A warmth spread through my chest.

"Hello to you too."

"You're late."

"It's been twelve seconds."

"Still late."

I laughed.

Over the past month, these conversations had become effortless.

Natural.

Like we'd known each other far longer than we actually had.

The stream drifted between topics as usual.

Books.

Movies.

Terrible food combinations.

The fact that Maya somehow believed pineapple belonged on pizza.

Which was obviously criminal behavior.

Around midnight, the chat grew quieter.

A few viewers left.

A few arrived.

Most remained silent.

Maya suddenly typed:

"I got into an argument today."

"With who?"

"My mother."

The joking tone disappeared instantly.

I sat up straighter.

"Everything okay?"

The typing indicator blinked.

Stopped.

Started again.

"No."

My stomach tightened.

For a while she said nothing else.

Then finally:

"She found my notebooks."

"What notebooks?"

"The ones with my stories."

"Oh."

Several seconds passed.

"She thinks writing is a waste of time."

I frowned.

"What?"

"She says I should focus on something real."

The words lingered on the screen.

Something about them made me angry.

Not because I knew Maya's mother.

Not because I understood their relationship.

But because I knew how much writing meant to her.

I knew how her entire face—well, the version of her I imagined—seemed to light up whenever she talked about stories.

How she spent hours discussing characters.

Plots.

Scenes.

Dreams.

Writing wasn't just a hobby.

It was part of her.

And hearing someone dismiss it felt wrong.

"What did you say?"

A long pause.

Then:

"Nothing."

I blinked.

"What?"

"I didn't say anything."

"Why?"

The typing indicator appeared.

Then vanished.

Then appeared again.

Finally:

"Because I'm tired."

The answer hurt more than if she'd said they were fighting.

Because tiredness wasn't temporary.

Tiredness came from carrying something too long.

And suddenly I wondered how often Maya swallowed her feelings.

How many arguments she'd lost before they even started.

The thought stayed with me.

Hours passed.

The conversation shifted.

But not completely.

The sadness lingered beneath everything.

Eventually, around 1:30 AM, Maya typed:

"Can I tell you something weird?"

"Always."

"I don't talk about this stuff with anyone."

I stared at the screen.

Then smiled slightly.

"You literally just did."

"Shut up."

"Make me."

"You live too far away."

The joke landed.

But the vulnerability remained.

And somehow that mattered more.

For the first time, it felt like Maya was letting me see past the version of herself she showed everyone else.

Not the funny streamer.

Not the sarcastic insomniac.

Just Maya.

The real one.

The one who stayed awake staring at unfinished stories and wondering if she was wasting her life.

The one who felt trapped inside a house that didn't understand her.

The one who carried loneliness everywhere she went.

And maybe that's why I stayed up until nearly four in the morning talking to her.

Because every time she revealed another piece of herself, I felt trusted.

Like she was handing me something fragile.

And somehow I didn't want to drop it.

The following week brought a new routine.

Maya began streaming almost every night again.

Sometimes she wrote while chatting.

Sometimes she complained about writing.

Mostly she complained about writing.

One evening she typed:

"I've spent three hours writing one paragraph."

"How?"

"I don't know."

"Are you writing or fighting demons?"

"Both."

Another time:

"My character refuses to cooperate."

"Still?"

"She's become powerful."

"I'm rooting for her."

"Traitor."

The conversations flowed endlessly.

Yet something else was happening too.

Something neither of us mentioned.

We were becoming dependent.

Not in an unhealthy way.

At least that's what I told myself.

But I started noticing things.

When Maya wasn't online, my nights felt emptier.

When she seemed sad, my mood shifted too.

When she laughed, I felt lighter.

It was dangerous.

I knew that.

Yet I kept walking deeper anyway.

One night she disappeared halfway through a stream.

No warning.

No explanation.

Just gone.

Five minutes passed.

Ten.

Twenty.

The chat grew confused.

A few viewers left.

I stayed.

Thirty minutes later, Maya returned.

Her first message was:

"sorry."

"What happened?"

The typing indicator appeared.

Stopped.

Appeared again.

Then:

"parents."

Just one word.

But it explained everything.

I stared at it.

Then typed:

"You okay?"

Several seconds passed.

"No."

The honesty startled me.

Not because of what she said.

Because she said it at all.

Most people would've lied.

Most people would've said:

"I'm fine."

But Maya didn't.

And maybe that's why I trusted her.

Because she respected the truth too much to hide behind it.

The chat stayed quiet after that.

Most viewers left.

Eventually only two remained.

Me and someone else who never spoke.

At around 3 AM, Maya suddenly asked:

"Do you ever feel like you're behind everyone else?"

The question hit harder than expected.

"Every day."

"Really?"

"Yeah."

I stared at my messy apartment.

The unopened bills.

The rejection emails.

The uncertainty.

Everyone I knew seemed to be moving forward.

Careers.

Relationships.

Goals.

Meanwhile I felt stuck.

Like life had forgotten me.

"Sometimes it feels like everyone got a map," I typed.

"And I didn't."

The typing indicator blinked.

Then:

"That's exactly it."

For a moment neither of us said anything.

The silence felt familiar now.

Comfortable.

Like sitting beside someone instead of talking to them.

Finally Maya wrote:

"I'm glad you get it."

The sentence looked small on the screen.

But it carried weight.

Because understanding was rare.

Real understanding.

The kind that didn't require explanations.

The kind that made you feel less alone.

And somewhere along the way, that's what we'd become for each other.

Proof that we weren't the only ones struggling.

Proof that someone else understood.

A few nights later, something happened that stayed with me.

The stream had been running for almost three hours.

The viewer count hovered around eight.

The conversation moved slowly.

Peacefully.

Then Maya typed:

"Tell me something true."

I smiled.

The game again.

I considered my answer carefully.

Then wrote:

"I check your channel before I go to sleep."

The message appeared.

Immediately I regretted it.

Too honest.

Too revealing.

Too real.

Several seconds passed.

Then:

"Every night?"

"Pretty much."

A pause.

Then another message appeared.

"I check if you're there when I start."

My breath caught.

For a second I simply stared.

Rereading the sentence.

Again.

Again.

Again.

The room felt suddenly warmer.

My heart louder.

Because that tiny confession meant more than either of us wanted to admit.

Maybe we were becoming habits.

Maybe we already were.

The realization frightened me.

But not enough to make me stop.

Never enough to make me stop.

At 3:41 AM, Maya typed one final message before ending the stream.

A message that stayed with me long after the screen went dark.

"I think you're my favorite person to talk to."

Then the stream ended.

No explanation.

No follow-up.

Just gone.

Leaving me alone in the glow of my monitor.

Staring at the empty screen.

My heart racing.

My thoughts spinning.

And one terrifying possibility growing larger with every passing day.

I wasn't just attached to Maya anymore.

I was falling for her.

And for the first time, I wasn't sure if that was a good thing.