MY HUSBAND MY CAPTOR

CHAPTER 3

NEVER LOOKING BACK

ANISHA’s POV

“Giiiiiirl… I really don’t want to go back to those dark and painful memories, you needed to have seen me, Julia I was a wreck, a complete shadow of myself, I’m shining and happy now … not totally happy because they won but at least I have Alice and shedrack now” I kept chatting away to Julia.

Julia smiled at me, she turned to her cashier table to talk to one of her staff. Both of us were just coming from a restaurant where we had our lunch. I checked my wrist to update myself on the time again.

Time is very important to me now because of my twin, I had to pick them up from school by three, an hour from now. “I hear you my friend, but you know I will still tell you the same thing, I think your husband should know about the twins!” Carla responded, turning to look at my scowling face.

Julia is like that, she's very sweet and straight forward. Thanks to her I was able to adjust to life in Germany, three years after I ran away and I’m thriving here.

“Never Julia! You don’t like me at all, you want me to go back to that hole and continue living in sadness and depression?” I yelled at her playfully, trying to jesticulate with my face as much as I could.

She chuckled at me and almost burst into laughter. I guess my explanation worked. It's funny now but that was how I was living three years ago before I fled from my marriage and Georgia.

Only my father and Ryan knew of my present location and I didn’t tell them until I had landed and settled in Germany for at least two weeks. I knew they would be worried so I had to call them.

Julia here has helped me a lot, got me a teaching job, an apartment close to hers and showed me how to survive here in this very different place. It was worth everything as I have my little peace now.

“I miss my husband. Julia … I won’t lie but he broke my trust and our vows, he shouldn’t have allowed my mother and sister into our home, let alone given them such power to do those things to me” I explained to my friend, frowning as some of the memories came back to me.

She extended a cold drink from her fridge to me, we both walked into her office, some of her clients in the supermarket greeted us as we walked past them.

They already know me as a regular person here. Whenever I drop my twin in school and close from my own work, I always stay here until it is closing time. I finish at work by one in the afternoon, so I always had two hours to chat and spend time with Julia, my only friend here.

“But your father! Can’t he talk to your husband, he should at least allow for the divorce if he’s no longer interested… you know I usually tell you, your man still wants you” Julia blurted out to me. I could see the twinkling in her eyes, she loved teasing me with this particular statement.

I rolled my eyes at her, took out a seat from one of the cushions chairs in her big and beautiful office, “my father will not stay in the same space as Jamie, he doesn’t like the way he treats me and he tried so much to talk to him but you know …. Jamie didn’t change, they are more of enemies….

“Also don’t forget that my mother and twin sister now live permanently in our house, it was more like I was co-wifing with my own sister” I reminded Julia again. Have told her all the stories but I guess she wanted to hear them from me again.

She smiled sadly and patted my back in support, she knows how much the whole memories hurt me.

“I cried to my father that night .. three years ago, I wept hard and I was shattered. My father… he cried with me but he was relieved that I came back home. He called my mother to warn her about how she’s treating me and how she’s supporting Carla to ruin my home….

“Three years ago when they made my husband chase me out with that r**e lie, Julia… i agreed to him that the two men r***d me and I had to go to the hospital, but that was to flush away all the semen, I didn’t flush my womb… what baffles me most is how our family doctor agreed in the report that I have no womb suddenly!” I recalled the incident to Julia again.

“You said you went to see her that same day right and she told you, everything was fine and you are healthy and fertile!” Julia responded to me, looking angry at once. The whole evil plot gets to her as well.

“I should have recorded her, but I didn’t know such would happen that same night, I left my man and home under the rain and all my mother did was gloat and make fun of me about it, when my father called she was so happy and elated about her victories… added more fire into my already rotting pain by jubilations and laughing at us…. It was the worst day of my life” I told my friend, clutching my chest to control my hurt.

Julia knew I was going through a lot of pain and she just kept quiet, allowing me to relieve myself by talking to her. I smiled sadly at her before I continued again.

“You know before I finally left, Ryan and my father had warned me and begged me to run for my sanity but I didn’t want to… it would mean Carla get to win again and this time she would get my husband, she always took my things and I didn’t want that” I continued.

“Immediately I landed here the next day after he chased me out, he was chasing me about with calls and tests, ordering me to come home… I thought about going back to Julia … but you know, after I spent two weeks here and felt the taste of freedom and peace!….

Julia smiled happily as my face lit up at how happy and peaceful I feel here in Germany, “also the news of my miracle pregnancy! And the arrival of my twin! Why would I want to go back to that dark place?” I concluded, throwing the question to Julia.

She sighed loudly and stared at me, I instantly knew what she was about to say and she didn’t disappoint me, “Anisha I still think he should know, you don’t have to go back, but he’s still your husband … he wouldn’t even sign the divorce papers you’ve been sending for the past two years” she told me seriously.

“Julia… to hell with saving my marriage, I’m over that… I won’t tell him. These children are mine alone! He went ahead to engage my twin sister a few months after I left, you saw the news too!” I shouted angrily at my friend, I didn’t like the fact that my husband engaged my sister.

As much as I try to pretend that I’m Over him and all, the whole thing still hurts me and Julia knows.

“But you got your win Anisha… you see life isn’t so unfair after all, your twin sister lost her pregnancy and you had two babies! Now you can prove that you didn’t lose your womb and they were lying! You get your man back!” Julia informed me, she really wanted my marriage to work, but I wasn’t interested any more.

I ignored her and checked the time again, this time on my phone. It was almost closing time in my twin school, I knew I had to start moving, I stood up from her sofa slowly.

“He broke my trust and ignored my love for him, I won’t go back to him Julia, Carla can have him and I’m not interested in any man anymore …” I announced to julia.

She slumped her shoulder in defeat and looked away. I don’t know why she’s so concerned about my marriage success. She had always been like that since we met.

Trying all her best to patch things up between us, standing up for Jamie even though she hasn't seen or spoken to him In reality, “maybe he was also brainwashed by your sister and mother… You said it yourself that all the allegations were plain lies, everything that separated you two … …..maybe he’s also angry that you left him… I think he still loves you” Julia tried again. Walking behind me as we took the lift to the exit of her supermarket.

I closed my ears with my fingers and she growled at me, knowing fully well what my gesture meant, I wasn’t listening to her anymore, all I want now is to pick my bundles of joy and head home.

Their three year birthday party is coming up soon and I can’t wait for the day, something to look up to. Instead of dipping my head and looking back into the very annoying and sad memories.