To Kiss My True Memories

CHAPTER 15

Chapter 15

"How's your head, hija?" she looked at me and gave me a little smile. "It's still aching or not?"

I stare her for a while before I answered. "It's fine po. Hindi na po sumasakit."

"Rest more hija, you need it." she adviced before she turned on her back to face my Tito and Tita. "Her head were on good condition now but I'm not promise it will be all the time. But I will suggest that let her rest more at least days and don't stress her, that's bad for her and there's a big possibility that it could affect on her headache. Let's prevent it to happen again." Dr. Munar explained to Tito and Tita seriously.

"We understand doc." si tita Gemi.

"Mr. and Mrs. Costallales may I talk you for a while. Para na din sa iba pang kailangan. I have a unanswered question."

"Yes doc." ani tito Amer.

Bumaling agad sa akin si Tita. "Rest more, darling. You need it." she then kissed me on my forehead.

"Rest, okay." si Tito naman na minsan pa akong sinuri.

"Babalik din agad kami." Tita smiled at me.

Ngumiti rin ako pabalik sa kaniya. "It's okay kung matagalan po kayo, you have your own business. I'm fine here naman po."

"We will go. Have some rest." she caressed my hair once before she turned to Gem. "Take care her, Gem. Take care here both of you." Tita kissed Gem too.

"Yes, mom. Ingat po."

Ilang minuto ang lumipas nang umalis na si Tito at Tita sumabay narin sa kanila si kuya Aldwin at ate Zen. In the end, Gem and I are the only person here.

Though, I felt mad at them for lying about my situation I'm still thankful that they're still here. They always here to take care of me. Thanks to them, they're truly my family!

If they not here, what would happen to me? I'm a completely mess!

"Coz, Sheeme will pay you a visit here mamaya, with her friend daw." basag ni Gem sa katahimikan.

"Okay." I said lazily.

She sighed. "You're hungry, you need to eat para mas mabilis ang pagbalik ng lakas mo. Just wait here."

Sa pagbanggit niya ng pagkain ay agad akong nakaramdam ng gutom. Seems I didn't eat for a days. Anyway, how many days did I fall asleep ba? two... tree? Maybe.

Sinundan ko ng tingin si Gem, she's begins arranging the food that Tita and Tito brought when they arrived. Bumalik siya dala ang isang tray at nilapag sa aking harapan.

"Ako na, I can manage." angal ko agad ng aamba siyang susubuan ako.

"Huh, okay."

Immediately, I get the spoon and pork at mabilis na nilamutak ang pagkain. The fudge I'm very hungry! Sunod-sunod ang naging subo ko dahil sa sobrang gutom ni hindi ko na pinansin pa ang panonood ni Gem sa akin, mangha ata sa pagkakagutom ko. Tsk, Ilang araw ba kase akong tulog at kanito ako kagutom?

"Ilang araw akong unconscious?" tanong matapos ang huling subo sa kutsara.

She sighed deeply. "Seven days, pang eight ngayon." malungkot niyang saad.

Napabangon ako sa sobrang gulat at dahil sa ginawa kong mabilis na kilos ay napahingal ako. Was she serious!?

"Dahan-dahan lang, Kairra." pagalit niyang saad.

"Are you kidding me? One week?" hinihingal kong saad, hindi makapaniwala.

She only nodded as her answer. It's true, she's not joking around!?

"Totoo?" pagkumpiram ko.

Tumango ulit siya. "Mom and dad book a flight immediately when they reach the bad news about you. One day have passed and your still here when they arrived and they came here straight even it's dawn at wala pa silang pahinga sa byahe."

The fudge!

What I've done!

"Tree days have passed and you're not still awake, dad plans to take you abroad and transfer there, para doon magpagaling." huminto siya at tipid akong nginitian, mariin naman akong nakikinig. "But I protested, mommy too and kuya. Dad very desperate to transfer you abroad buti na lamang at kilala nila ang doctor na umasikaso sayo, she's a family friend, that's why dad have decided that you're going to stay here, may tiwala din kase sila sa doctor."

Shocks!

It's true! I spent a week here lying on the bed!

Am I'm that too weak? How's the restaurant now? Dahil sa kalagayan ko ay naabala ko pa si Tito at Tita. Kung hindi dahil sa akin ay hindi naman sila biglaang pupunta dito, eh! They have they own business!

"Are you okay?" Gem asked softly.

"Yup." matamlay kong saad. "Ano pang nangyari?" tnong ko, takam sa nangyaring hindi ko alam.

"Drink first." inabutan niya ako ng isang baso ng tubing.

Sumimsim ako dito ng kaonti. "Continue, please..." I said desperately.

She sighed heavily first. "Dad very furious when I tell them the true story, he immediately file a case for Sheenia and Zurina." aniya ng may bahid ng galit ang tono. "Galit na galit si daddy, Kairra. We can't even stop him, we can't calm him down. Five days at hindi ka pa nagigising, sinubukan niyang sumugod sa pamilya ni Sheenia at Zurina, but thanks to mom at napigilan niya. Kung hindi ay hindi namin alam kung ano ang nagawa niya... and the worse part was he have a gun that time."

Oh good! My heart hurt because of that. Tito Amer care for me so much that he can do bad things for me — but I don't want that part! Ayaw kong mapahamak siya o kahit sino sa relatives ko para lamang maprotektahan ako!

Unti-unting nawala ang galit ko dahil sa kanilang pagsisinungaling. I understand them now why they need to lie at me. They just wanted the good for me! Ngayon alam ko na iyan! I can't blame them for they lies.

It's true, in our lives there are many reasons why someone's lying to you or us. Why they have to keep a secret on us. There was a time when you'll ask yourself why they are doing this to you? Why they need to do those things? And in the end we conclude some unsure things without completely assurances. But the truth was... there are more formidable reasons that when the time comes we will understand them, we will understand those reasons.

Stop concluding some things without assurances because it could make the light situation become worse.

May mananatiling mga tao sa iyong tabi. Iyong tipong hindi ka tatalikuran sa kahit anong dahilan at paraan gaya ng sitwasyon ko ngayon. And I have them always, they're my relatives.

"Bakit ngayon lamang kasi ako na gising!?" paos kong saad.

"It's okay, we're always here to wait you patiently 'til you woke up even though how many days and years have passed." si Gem at ngumiti sa akin ng malaki.

I've her always. I've my relatives always and I'm always lucky.

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A few hours have pass and I already knew what really happened while I'm unconscious. I caused so much trouble at muntik ko pang mapahamak si tito Amer.

I already understand and forgive them for their lies - but the one thing I couldn't understand is, when and how I lost my memories? What is the cause?

Is there any fast way to bring back the memories I lost? Or I can be restored all the memories I lost?

Of course, I should be!

I'm desperate to restored all those memories specially to remember my happy memories with my parents. Dapat lamang upang ma-recognize ko ang mga taong may espesyal na puwang sa buhay ko. At upang malaman ko ang mga katotohanan sa nakaraan ko. The memories I lost is the only key to find again my true me.

I lost my memories and I feel that seemed I lost myself too.

Naputol ang aking malalim na pag-iisip nang marinig ang katok sa pintuan. I let out a deep sigh as I lyingdown properly.

"Maybe, that's Sheemee and her friend na." balita ni Gem at nagmamadaling buksan ang pinto.

I just rolled my eyes.

I'm being irritated when I heard someone visiting me, not because they annoy me but because I remember someone that didn't pay me a visit yet! Gising na ako pero hindi pa siya dumadalaw! He didn't try to come, huh. Maybe he's busy?

Because of his fiancee?

Buti pa si Sheeme may time para dumalaw, but someone I expected didn't. Maybe he's thinking na sapat na nandito siya noong unang paggising ko! He's just guilty because of what his fiancee did to me!

Ang lahat ng inis ko para sa kaniya ay ipinikit ko na lamang ng mariin. It seemed like I doesn't want to face my visitor now, but I know it's rude!

I am mad at him but it's okay I didn't like him naman! Kahit pa umamin ka na sa kaniya, Kairra?

The fudge! It's driving me nuts!

Hmmmm, basta I didn't love him naman! Hindi naman talaga!? But I'm wondering if we know each other way back? Siguro'y hindi!

"Pasok." narinig kong anyaya ni Gem.

"It's okay lang ba? I hope we don't disturb her rest." si Sheeme.

"Of course not! I already told her that you will pay her a visit-" si Gem na natigilan dahil sa kung ano. "Ohh, you're with Mr. Darrow Dela torallez." manghang saad ni Gem.

I'm on my way to roll my eyes ngunit dahil sa binanggit niyang pangalan I immediately turned my head to see him and if it's true? Awang ang bibig ko nang bumaling at nakita kong sa akin agad ang mga mata ni Darrow na tila inaabangan ang aking reaksyon.

Mali ako ng iniisip sa kanya kanina!

The fudge!

He's here!

"He's your friend or...?" Gem asked, may halong panunukso sa tanong.

"Friend." natatawang pagkukumpiram ni Sheeme, tila may ibang ipinapahiwatig, kahit hindi ako sa kaniya nakatingin alam kong sa akin ang kaniyang atensyon.

"Oww, okay." si Gem na naguguluhan kay Sheeme.

My eyes didn't leave Darrow's eyes even Gem guiding them towards the sofa in front of my bed.

"Hi, Kairra." Sheeme smiled as she wave her hand. "How are you?"

I turned my eyes to Sheeme irritatedly. "I'm fine." tipid kong saad.

Muli kong ibinalik ang tingin kay Darrow, nakatitig parin sa aking ang seryoso niyang mga mata na tila may gustong sabihin ngunit hindi ko mabasa. His eyes was too mysterious.

"We brought some foods, you want to eat?"

"Kakakain ko lang." tipid ko paring sagot kay Sheeme. "How's the restaurant?" now I gave my full attention to her.

Napangiwi siya sa aking tanong. "I resigned already."

"What?!" napabangon ako sa gulat dahilan upang nakaramdam ng sakit sa aking katawan.

"Dahan-dahan naman, Kairra." pagalit na saway ni Gem.

"Sheeme." narinig kong seryoso saad ni Darrow, may pagbabanta sa tono.

Why did she resigned!? At ngayon pang wala ako doon!

"Okay, I'm sorry." Sheeme surrendered. "Don't worry, maayos naman ang lagay noong umalis ako." she explained.

Nagpakawala ako ng isang bugtong-hininga. "Kaylan pa? at sinong pumalit?"

"Si manager Sam at manager Ruth, sila naman dati,eh."

"Huh, what do you mean?"

"I just ask them a favor, don't worry about that they're doing fine there." she said while smiling to assure me.

Napatango na lamang ako kahit hindi makuha kung bakit niya ginawa iyon. Simula pa lamang noong una ay nagdududa na ako sa kaniya kung bakit pa siya nagtratrabaho sa restaurant ko as a manager when she have enough money. Indeed, she's rich and they have a plenty properties.

But still, I'm not contented on her answers. It's still bothering me so much ngunit may isang posibleng dahilan kung bakit niya iyon ginawa. It's possible that we know each other before, right?

Are we closed to each other way back? Isa ba siya sa mga nakalimutan ko? I couldn't say yes nor no.

Isang alaala pa lamang ang nagpakita sa aking isipan at iyon ay ang tungkol kay mommy at daddy. Even how much I pushed my mind to remember my past no scenarios showing up.

I'm really desperate to remember every single things about my past! I just hope there is a chance to bring back all the memories I lost. Umaasa ako sa huli.

"Don't worry na, Kairra. Just rest first, they're really doing fine there. But there are a customers who want to meet you daw, they reported on me pala. I almost forget." balita niya.

I scowled as my brow rose. "Really!? So I guess it's time to go back there na..." masaya kong saad ngunit sa kalagitnaan pa lamang ng sinasabi ko ay kita ko na ang protesta sa kanilang mga mukha. "To meet them properly. It's needed, though." I smirked.

As if kaya na ng katawan ko, huh!

Ayystt, Kairra! Why you're too weak!

"Do you think daddy will allow you?" mapanuyang protesta ni Gem.

"And I think the doctor won't allow you too?" si Sheeme naman.

Hindi ko mapigilang hindi mapabaling kay Darrow na supladong napatikhim, tila umaapila rin sa gusto kong mangyari. I stared to examine him, his wearing a black suit seems like he had a meeting that he need to be present but he's here paying me a visit.

Hindi din siya nagsalita ngunit malalim ang pagkakatitig sa akin na tila ba naglalakbay ang isipan sa kung saan. I cough hoping that his deep serious eyes that staring at me will change but it didn't. Patuloy ang seryoso niyang paninitig sa akin na pilit ko namang pinantayan.

"Anyway, Sheeme it's okay if I'll leave you here? Sasalubungin ko lamang si nana Mirna sa baba." narinig kong paalam ng pinsan kay Sheeme.

Bumitaw ako sa pakikipagtitigan kay Darrow dahil hindi na mapatigil pa ang malakas na kalabog ng aking dibdib sa paraan ng paninitig ng mga mata niya. I turned to Gem and Sheeme, pretending that I'm listing to their conversation, though my mind was still occupied on Darrow.

"No problem. It's okay." ngiti ni Sheeme kay Gem.

"Thanks, buti pala at nandito kayo, wala kasing magiging kasama si Kairra dito pagnagkataon, baka tumakas, eh." aniya ng may panunuyang tono. "Also, wala rin kasamang aakyan si nana Mirna at baka maligaw pa siya." dagdag niya pa.

Tsk, dinamay pa ako. As if my body could walk and move so much now.

"Ah, I see." tawa ni Sheeme.

"Kairra, I'll go first." paalam niya sa akin. "Entertain your visitors." pahabol niya pa.

Napairap na lamang ako sa kaniya! She's making fun of me, eh!

Gem left already as silence quickly engulfed in my room. Darrow is too silence, he's just watching me intently. Ilang minuto ang lumipas at si Sheeme ang bumasag sa katahimikan.

"How was your head?" panimula ni Gem ng nakangiti sa akin.

I smiled a little. "It's fine."

"Huh, we don't know about your condition." maingat niyang dagdag.

"Don't worry, I don't know too!" napangiwi ako.

I don't even know if we're close or at least know each other way back. I don't know what scenarios I lost. I don't know how much the memories I lost! But I think everything.

Namutawi muli ang katahimikan sa amin. Sheeme didn't try to speak again while Darrow still silent, but the deafening silence was broken by the loud ringing of the cellphone. Mabilis na hinalugkat ni Sheeme ang kayang bag dahil doon ang tunog.

"Oops, someone's calling." she said obviously. "Excuses." dagdag niya pa at iminuwestrang ang palabas upang sagutin ang tawag.

Sinundan ko siya ng tingin hanggang tuluyan siyang makalabas. Nang binalik ko ang tingin sa kay Darrow ay mariin parin ang titig niya sa akin. The way his eyes stare me didn't change at all.

Napakagat ako sa labi nang walang mahanap na salita to start a conversation with him. I heard him sighed heavily as he stand and start walking towards me. I felt my heart skipped for a second before it pounds so fast and loud. this is the feelings I always want to feel from him.

My feelings isn't lying when it comes to him.

Pinanood ko siyang maglakad palapit sa akin at ngayon ko lamang napansin ang tatlong lilang rosas sa kamay niya. Napataas ang kilay ko at hindi na maalis pa ang mga mata sa lilang rosas na hawak niya. It's my favorite color.

"For you." he said with his deep voice as he handed me the purple roses.

Nag-angat ako ng tingin sa kaniya. "Thanks." tipid siyang nginitian at kinuha ang mga rosas.

I handled it with my two hands, mabilis na dinala sa aking ilong upang amuyin ang mahalimuyak na amoy nito. It's smell fresh.

"How are you?" tahimik niyang tanong nang makaupo sa upuang nasa gilid ng aking higaan.

Sinubukan kong umangat upang makaupo, mabilis naman akong inalalayan ni Darrow. He carried my head as he help me to sit comfortably. Sa paglapit niya ay hindi makatakas sa aking ang kaniyang amoy. His smell was too good!

I wondered how's my smell now? I didn't take a bath yet! Gosh, mabaho na ako. Nakakahiya sa kaniya!

"Thanks." ako nang maayos nang nakaupo sa kama.

"Do you want anything?" he asked.

I shook my head. "I'm fine." sagot ko kahit nasagot ko na kanina kay Sheeme, hindi niya ba narinig?

"Your head?" he added.

"It's on good condition now."

He nodded silently. Tinitigan ko muna siya at sinuri. May isang tanong ako para sa kanya na kanina pa bumabagabang sa aking utak.

"Did I know you back before?" I asked slowly.

Tila nagulat siya sa biglaan kong tanong. He didn't answer me. He just stayed silently.

"Magkakilala ba tayo?" tanong ko muli.

Still. He chose to be quite and didn't answer me.

"Close ba tayo noon? How am I before?" desperada ko talagang tanong kahit hindi niya ako sinasagot.

He sighed heavily. "Don't talk about past." tanging sagot niya.

Sa dami ng tanong ko iyon lamang ang sinabi niya! And he didn't even answer one of my questions.

Why he couldn't answer any of my questions?

"Why?" naguguluhan kong tanong. "Maybe we're not close before? We don't know each other?" sarkastikto kong saad, titig na titig sa kaniya.

Then, who's the man showing up on my mind everytime my head ache? Hindi ba siya iyon? Then, kung hindi siya sino?

Ohh, you punk, Kairra? Umasa ka na siya iyon!?

But I remember one time he's talking about 'our past'. I remember it na sinabi niya but I'm not sure kung para sa akin nga ba talaga iyon. Maybe, isn't really for me, I'm just hoping.

"Yeah, we don't know each other way back. S-o, you're not the blurred man showing up on my mind." I whispered as I stared him sharply.

Ramdam ko ang pagkakatulala niya dahil sa aking sinabi, tila ba nakakagulat ang sinabi ko. Was he surprised because he's not the blurred man who's showing up on my mind?

What's the matter!?

"We're really not-"

"I know you very well and you know me back before." he cut me off with his serious tone.

Ako naman ang nagulat sa sinabi niya. Natahimik ako at hindi makapagsalita agad. So, we already know each other before?

There's a possibility that he's the blurred man showing up on my mind?

You punk, Kairra! Don't hope!

"So, I guess, we're not close before, huh." singhal ko.

"We're really close way back." he said huskily but with his serious tone.

I blinked for several times because of what he said. As I felt my heart beat so fast and loud that I couldn't expected.

We're really close? How close?

"T-hen, what our connections before?" kabado kong tanong.

He sighed. "More than what you couldn't think now." paos niyang saad, titig na titig sa aking mga mata.

More than what I couldn't think!?

"I-f we are, why I couldn't remember you?" lakas loob kong tanong sa kaniya. "H-uh, I mean... you said, we're really close... s-o I guess, dapat I could recognize y-ou?" pagtanong kong saad.

Napayuko ako, hindi siya makayanang tignan dahil nahihiya sa aking sinasabi. But I just want to know something true about what my life is way back.

Nanatili akong nakayuko ngunit hindi ako nakarinig ng sagot sa kaniya, but I feel his stare on me. I wondered why he couldn't answer me? Is there something wrong?

W-as, he lying to me?

Mabilis akong nag-angat ng tingin sa kaniya. Ang malalim at seryoso niyang mga mata ay agad na tumama sa akin. His eyes was too deep that I couldn't always read, seemed he's always thinking deeply!

"A-re you lying to me also?" I asked nervously.

Kita ko ang biglaang pagkakagulat niya ganon din ako because I don't know where my words came from! I just want to know if what our connections way back!

But swear, marahil ay hindi makaalala ang isip ko, tumitibok pa rin ito ng malakas na tila may gustong ipahiwatig pagdating sa kaniya. It seems my heart used to beat like what I'm feeling right now for him, for only him!

What are we way back?

What our connections to each other?

I accidentally asked if he's lying to me, he seemed look so surprised about my question. I'm really wondered now if he's true or he's just lying at me!

I just want to know!

I want to trust him so bad, so I hope he's not lying! I hope he really is not!

"A-re you lying to m-e?" ulit ko sa nanginginig na boses.

He didn't answer, he just watched me, but his eyes now was too soft not like a while ago, too serious. His soft eyes keep watching me, napaayos pa siya sa kaniyang pagkakaupo habang nakita ko ang pag-angat ng kanan niyang kamay sa aking gilid na tila gusto niya akong hawakan, but he's holding back himself not to.

Why he can't answer me? Why, because it's true?

Parang may dumaang anghel sa aming dalawa sa sobrang nakakabinging katahimikan. Ang marahan niyang mata ay nakatitig lamang sa akin, nakaya ko namang titigan siya pabalik kahit pa malakas ang kalabog ng aking dibdib.

He sighed first before I heard his answer. "No." he said seriously.

Ang tingin niyang marahan sa aking mga mata ay hindi bumitaw kahit pa nasagot niya na ang aking mga tanong. I just stare him back too, I didn't even feel myself breathing even my eyes blink once, kaya nagulat na lamang ako nang may malaking kamay ang humawak sa kanang kamay kong nasa tagiliran. My heart skipped because of his sudden moved. Darrow's huge warm hand covered mine.

Should I believe on him?

Why not?

But I don't know yet.

I really, really wanted to bring back all the memories I lost as soon as possible so I could recognize all the person I couldn't remember.

Hindi ko alam kung paano ako maniniwala sa kaniya, sa kanila. Ngunit ito nanaman ang utak at puso ko na nagtatalo. My mind can't remember, can't try to accept his words but my heart believes on him, though I doesn't have any assurance in the end.

It is true that our mind and heart are the worst enemies!

"Don't talk about past, please." sumamo niya, habang hinahaplos ang aking kamay.

Why I shouldn't talk about past. Is there something on it.

"J-ust don't lie, please." I whispered softly while looking on his eyes.

He sighed as he smiled at me a little. "I'm not."

"I-I do not want to fill my mind with lies... especially I have no certainty to remember all the memories I lost... so please, be true. I-I'm begging you, huwag kang magsinungaling sa a-kin." mabilis akong napayuko matapos mabitiwan ang mga salita.

Napatingin ako sa kamay niyang nakahawak sa akin. Patuloy niya itong hinahaplos ng marahang ngunit sa bandang huli ay pinagsiklop niya ang aming mga kamay. His warm hand gave me some warm as I felt a soft feelings touched my heart.

I feel his another hand touched my chain, he then slowly lift it up.

"I'm begging you too. Try to believe on me. I'm not going to lie on you, never." deretso niyang saad sa aking mga mata.

I didn't speak. I just stare his eyes softly. His words makes me calm inside. He doesn't need to beg because I will always give him a chance to prove himself even if it's doesn't have a full assurance in the end. Though, he doesn't need to prove himself anymore because my heart always recognized him quikly even we didn't meet yet again for the second time.

That true here was... I'm just scared. Natatakot lamang akong sumugal sa huli.

Natatakot ako na sobra kong siyang mahalin, dahil ngayon pa lamang ay sinisigawan na iyon ng aking puso. Natatakot akong sumugal para sa aming dalawa.

There's a reason in every situation!

"You will going to make your new memories... with me. Just please, let me again like before."

His one hand now started brashing on my fingers, habang ang isa ngayon ay masuyong hinahaplos ang aking buhok. Dinama ko ang bawat haplos niya na para bang sanay na sanay na ako sa ganitong pakiramdam - pakirmadam na nakakagaan ng loob at nagagawa kang pakalmahin.

"And do believe on me." he said huskily.

I couldn't get myself to speak because I'm occupied now on his silent soft touches. Tahimik kong dinama ito habang nakatitig sa kaniya.

"Please..." sumamo niya. "Bigyan mo ako ng pagkakataon." he begged.

His eyes silently watching my every reaction while he's patiently waiting my answer. Medyo umayos ako sa pagkakaupo at naging agresibo naman siya sa aking galaw upang tulungan ako. Palihim akong napangiti.

Was he used to do that? He's a kind of gentleman.

Nagtama ang aming mga mata kaya natigilan siya, tahimik ang buong silid habang tahimik din naming pinagmamasdan ang isat-isa. I quickly bit my lips. I hope he didn't see me smiling?

Ito nanaman ang mabilis na pag-pintig ng aking puso, it seems like my heart tryna pushing my mind to remember this feelings and to make me understand that this feelings isn't strange anymore.

This feelings makes me realized that even I lost all my memories my heart didn't lost and forget what I've feel for him.

Sa mabigat at madilim na araw mayroon paring maliit na sinag ng liwanag. And even the days, time and years pass and the place always replace my feelings for him will always find a way to connect with each other hearts.

I will always give it a try - but what I'm not sure is, if it's for permanent or for just temporary.

Ngunit, sa ngayon ay gusto kong panghawakan ang mga nangyayari kahit walang kasiguraduhan sa bandang huli lalo pa't nagiging masaya ako dito. I know it was really wrong, but I really wanted to follow what my heart screaming for.

Dahan-dahan akong tumango sa kaniya na nagpakunot naman ng kaniya noo, hindi nakukuha ang aking pinapahiwatig.

"I believe...." mahina kong bulong. "On you and I trust you."

Isang tango lamang ang nagawa niya, na para bang prinoproseso pa ang naging sagot ko. Unti-unting gumuhit sa aking labi ang malaking ngiti.

"T-hank you." he whispered slowly when he realized what I said.

Nginitian ko lamang siya at hindi na nagsalita pa. Silent quickly engulfed on ours while we're starting in to each other eyes habang patuloy kong nararamdaman ang marahan niyang haplos sa aking kamay. I feel satisfied with this scenario.

I'm hoping that when the day came and all the memories I lost will be restored I wish it will give me the answers and assurances what myself wanted. I wish it will give me light to assure what my true feelings for him.

Sana lamang ay hindi ako mabigo at masaktan sa bandang huli kung sakaling nagkamali akong piniling panghawakan ang mga pagkakataong ito.