To Kiss My True Memories

CHAPTER 4

Chapter 4

The next day, just like Gem wanted, we went to the mall to buy clothes, shoes, accessories. I just buy a few while Gem bought all the things she wants. Hindi naman ako dapat bibili dahil marami pa ako sa bahay ni hindi pa nagagamit pero si Gem ay nilibre ako. If I'm not mistaken Gem has more clothes and shoes than I have but maybe that's not enough, huh.

Gem is fashionable. And being fashionable she doesn't want to have the same style to others. She wanted to be bizarre.

Ang dapat na window shopping ko lamang ay naging shopping ng talaga because of Gem. She's the one who chose everything what I have now. Iyong iba nga ay hindi ko naman talaga gusto dahil masyadong revealing pero binili parin ni Gem.

"Gem, I don't like that." maktol ko sa isa pang dress na pilit niyang pinapasukat sa akin.

It's a black dress and swear when you wear it your cleavage will show up, It's also too short. Maganda ang pagkakagawa lalo na sa likuran pero isang baba mo lamang sa hagdanan ay makikita na ang kaluluwa mo dahil sa sobrang hapit at lampas lamang mg kaunti sa sinusuot kong panty. What the heck! I couldn't swallow to wear that kind of dress!

"'Wag na iyan, Gem. Marami na akong dala

It's too much."

"Nope, kulang pa iyan." maarte niyang turo sa mga paper bag na dala ko. "Lalo na itong akin." she then pouted

My eyes widened because of what she said."Seriously, halos double iyang bit-bit mo sa akin, ah."

She sneer. " Hmmm, I'm nangangawit na." reklamo niya.

"Marami na kasi iyang dala mo. Let's go home." anyaya ko.

"Okay, maybe next week ulit?" ngiti nito sa akin.

I sighed and nodded to her para matigil na. Gusto ko na talagang umuwi. Ang binili namin ay aabotin ng isang buwan hindi lamang pang isang linggo tapos sasabihin niyang kulang pa? Waahh, this girl!

Though, I'm busy here with Gem but I couldn't take away from my mind what happened to me yesterday in the restaurant. Hindi ko sinabi sa kanila kung ano ang pumapasok na ala-ala sa aking isipan I just keep it with myself because I don't think I still need to tell them about it when I know isn't true. Maybe, I'm just imagining that scenario. Or maybe, it was one of my dream that I couldn't remember once I woke-up.

Paano mangyayari ang sinaryo na iyon gayong hindi naman ako lumaki dito? How would that happen when all my relatives says that I grow up with them in France. They say that because that is the truth — or they are lying on me, but that's so impossible!

They didn't lying at me. At kung nagsisinungaling sila, bakit naman? Bakit sila nagsisinungaling if ever naman?

"Antagal naman ni kuya Mark. I already texted him." narinig kong reklamo ng aking pinsan.

Nabalik ako sa aking sarili at binalingan siya, iritadong kinakalikot ang kaniyang selpon, naiinip na dahil wala pa ang driver niya. Though, she can drive on her own naman but she needs a driver para ipabuhat ang mga dala niya. Tsk, ang dami kasing nipamili, eh.

"Sa labas na lang natin antayin." I suggested.

"Dito na, ipapakuha lang naman natin ito." sabay taas sa mga paper bag na dala, halatang nabibigatan na.

I scowled. "Why?"

"We're gonna take our lunch here." she then rolled her eyes at me.

"It's better if sa mansion na." protesta ko.

"No, we're gonna eat here. I miss this." she declared and gave me a sharp look.

"Okay." pagsang-ayon ko na lamang, napasimangot.

We went downstairs of the mall upang doon na lamang antayin ang kaniyang driver. Reklamo siya ng reklamo dahil nabibigatan na sa kaniyang mga dala, nipahawak pa sa akin ang iba. Tsk, dami kasing nipamili.

Tahimik akong naupo sa isang bench habang si Gem ay iritado nakatayo sa kakahintay ng kaniyang driver. Silently I round my eyes sakto itong tumama sa glass door ng mall at namataan ang mata ng isang lalaking pamilyar sa akin lalo na sa aking puso. It was the son of Mrs. Mizelle Dela Torallez.

He's busy fixing his watch on his wrist while walking but when our eyes meet he got shocked that he even stopped stepping. Awang ang labi kong napatitig sa kaniya. Ni minsan ay hindi kumurap ang aking mata, titig na titig ito sa kaniya seems he will gone once I blink. I don't want to even blink because I think I am just imagining — imagining that he's here right now — staring at me.

I quickly bit my lips when I felt my heart skipped for a seconds — this it is again. Kakaibang pakiramdam na siya lamang ang nakakapagparamdam sa akin, nakakapagpapitig ng puso ko sa ganitong paraan. Napahawak ako sa aking dibdib sa kakaibang pagtibok ng aking puso while some scenario really tryna showing in my mind.

I'm still here, on the rooftop of our restaurant having a dinner with the blurred man in front of me. I'm still smiling while the man in front of me handed to me the one piece of purple rose flower. Bahagyan ko pa itong inamoy dahilan upang mas lalong lumaki ang nakaukit na ngiti sa aking labi.

"Why you're so matagal po, kuya Mark?" my cousin said irritatedly.

Nabalik ako sa reyalidad dahil sa boses ng pinsan. Deretso ang aking mata sa kung nasaan naabutan ang anak ni Mrs. Mizelle, si Mr. Dela Torallez. I still don't know his name.

He's still there, still watching me while scowling. I couldn't help myself not to frowned as well when I remember what scenario suddenly show up in my mind. Ngunit ang ipinagtataka ko lamang ay kung bakit sa pagkakataon ito ay hindi sumakit ang aking ulo.

"Pasensya na po ma'am." narinig kong saad ni kuya Mark, driver ni Gem.

I sighed heavily as I turned to my cousin and her driver. I pushed myself to take away my eyes from Mr. Dela Torallez that far from me because I couldn't handle the wild beat of my heart.

"Ayos lang po." ako na ang sumagot para sa iritadong pinsan.

Binigyan ako ng nahihiyang ngiti ni Kuya Mrak. "Akin na po ang mga dala n'yo, miss."

"Put this in the car and wait for us, we gonna take our lunch here. Copy?" maarteng si Gem.

"Copy, ma'am." natutuwang saad ni kuya Mark.

Napapairap naman si Gem dahil kahit naiirita siya sa pagkakahuli ni kuya Mark ay nakukuha paring tumawa ng driver niya. I couldn't help not to laughed at my cousin. Gem turned to me just to rolled her eyes at me, so irritated.

"What?" I asked.

"Let's go." umuna na siyang maglakad sa akin, mukhang inis pa.

Huling lingon sa lalaking nasa entrance ng mall. Agad akong napakagat sa labi nang makitang pinagmamasdan niya parin ako. He's watching me with his serious eyes — but even how serious his eyes I could still see how sorrow he was.

I don't know what's going on with me but I found myself smiling at him a little before I finally turned my back. I didn't see what his reaction because I felt my heart shy at him because of the happiness inside me.

Sumunod na ako kay Gem sa paglalakad patungong sa restaurant na gusto niya. Padarang siyang naupo at masamang nakatingin sa menu. Nakanguso akong pumipili ng pagkain at paminsan-misan ay sinusulyapan siyang nakasimangot. I don't know but I feel happy right now. Really happy.

Silence engulfed the two of us while waiting our meal. We quietly began to eat when our foods arrived. I remain silent still feeling the happiness inside ms. while she's trying to make a conversation on me. Well she always have a topic. Tsk, akala ko hindi na ako kakausapin.

"Coz, why you don't just stay at home or attend parties every night?" tanong niya at nakangusong pinapanood ako sa pagkain.

Napangiwi ako sa tanong niya. "Why?"

"You know, your everyday routines was so boring." taas ang kilay niyang saad. "Restaurant, house — restaurant, house. I'm sure hindi ka naman maghihirap kahit hindi kana magtrabaho. You need to rest."

"Para sayo, but for me isn't boring." I sipped on my glass. "You, why you don't want to work in your company, instead."

Umasim ang mukha niya sa sinabi ko. "How many times have you asked me about that?"

"Why?" pinagtaas ko rin siya ng kilay. "I just want you to realize that your company needs you."

"Mom and Dad can handle it, plus kuya Ald and ate Zen."

"Iba pa rin pag-ikaw. When ate Zen got pregnant she needs to stop working for your company. She needs to take a rest. No one can handle your company pagnagkataon, syempre ikaw lamang ang maaasahan." I explained.

She rolled her eyes, quietly. "Okay fine."

"What do you mean fine?"

"I'll try." Inis niyang tugon.

She really hate handling their company, huh! Bakit kaya, hmmm? Was she have any reason?

"Okay, sabi mo eh." I smirked.

Tumahimik na ako dahil naalala nanaman ang biglaang senaryong pumasok sa aking utak habang nakikipagtitigan kay Mr. Dela Torallez, while Gem tryna finding our another topic. She's really talkative, huh. I turned to her, seem she's thinking some deeply, napangiwi pa siya ng parang may naisip na.

"What if..." she trailed off.

I raised my left brow. "What if?" ulit ko sa sinabi niya.

"What if... what if mag boyfriend ka? Alam mona para–"

I cut her immediately. "I don't need that. Ikaw na kung gusto mo."

"What if lang naman, coz." aniya pa.

"Ikaw na lang, I'm sure you need boys." saad ko, iritado. "I think maling lumabas akong kasama ka." binalingan ko siya ng matalim na tingin.

"I'm sorry. I'm sorry." natatawa niyang tugon.

I just sighed.

She stare at me, tilted her head seems she's examining me intently. Nanliit ang mata ko na tila ba may mali nanaman siyang susunod na sasabihin.

"We're not close before but I think you have a secret boyfriend way back." wala sa sarili niyang saad.

"Way back? Kaylan naman?" I asked, shocked.

Her eyes widened, seems like she doesn't have any intention to say about it. "Nevermind, nevermind. Don't mind me." nag-iwas siya ng tingin sa akin.

Gusto ko mang tanungin kung ano ba ang sinasabi niya ngunit hindi ko na ginawa. I just shut my mouth didn't try to ask what she's talking about. Hahaba lamang ang usapan at isa pa wala akong natandaan na nagkaroon na ako ng boyfriend? At dati?

Ngunit... may isang bagay na pumasok sa aking isipan. Ang mga senaryong biglaan na lamang pumapasok sa aking isipan that I didn't know how. But it was too impossible. Isn't true, I'm just imagining it! It just one of my dream!

I take it away in my mind at nagpatuloy sa pagkain para matapos na kami upang makauwi na. Gem remained quiet and doesn't try to open any topic again. Ayos na rin iyon at baka kung ano pa ang masabi sa akin sa huli. She remained silent 'til we got home in our house, ganon din naman ako.

"Do you want me to sleep here?" tanong niya nang makapasok na kami sa sala ng mansyon.

"It's up to you." walang gana kong saad.

I felt tired. Siguro'y napagod kanina sa pagilibot sa mall kanina. Napagod din ang aking utak sa pag-iisip ng senaryong biglaang pumasok sa aking isipan kanina. Napalibot ang aking mata sa loob ng mansyon na tila ba may nakabaon na akong ala-ala dito. Maybe, when I'm still kid?

Mag-isa na lamang ako dito sa aming mansyon. This mansion is owned by my grandparents, parents of my father. My father was their only child. And when my grandparents died this mansion was bequeathed to my father. Meanwhile, when my parents died they named it on me because I was their only child too. Eventually, I'm only the one who takes care all their wealth, of course I'm their only child. Except kung my kapatid ako sa labas, but of course wala. Never!

Some of my relatives helping me to handle our businesses. They guiding me naman dahil hindi ko kayang i-handle lahat.

"Sa kwarto mo ako matutulog." Gem clapped her hand happily.

Inirapan ko siya. "Duh, ang daming kwarto. Your not allowed in my room."

"Duh, as if bago sayo na sa iisang kwarto tayo matulog." maarte niyang saad.

"I don't want to sleep with you." singhal ko.

She just pouted cutely at me. "Kaya ako dito matutulog ay dahil alam kong sa kwarto mo ako. Duh! laki kaya ng kwarto mo, and if you don't want I'm just going to sleep in our house na lang."

"Okay fine whatever." I rolled my eyes, bago dumeretsyo sa kitchen. "What do you want to eat?"

"You will cook?" sunod nya sa akin sa kitchen.

"What do you think?" balik kong tanong.

She chuckled. "I'm just asking."

"Mamaya pa, hapunan natin."

Nag-aksyon pa siya na nag-iisip kuno. "Ayaw ko sanang kumain dahil diet ako pero dahil luto mo kakain ako."

I just rolled my eyes. "What do you want?" binuksan ko ang refrigerator at kumuha ng tubig.

"Kaldereta." she shouted happily.

"Tsk, dami pang sinasabi." I murmured.

"Sungit ngayon ah." pang-aasar niya.

"I'm tired, mag-papahinga na ako."

"'Wag ka na lang mag-luto, dami mo namang kasambahay, eh." aniya.

Hindi ko na siya pinansin at dumeretsyo na ako patungong kwarto. Pagod ako dahil sa kakalakad-lakad kanina. I will just going to sleep for a minutes to give some rest my mind thinking about what scenario showed in my mind recently.

"Okay, I'll just walk around, I miss your mansion." she shouted echoing in our mansion.

Though, I'm on my bed, want to sleep but I couldn't. Even I closed my eyes I still remember what scene suddenly showed in my mind recently while staring the man in the entrance of the mall, which is Mr. Dela Torallez.

The man I didn't know but he can make me feel some sort of feelings!

I eat dinner with Gem. As I promised, I'm the one who cooked our dinner. Paulit-ulit ang puri niya sa akin kaya't medyo naiirata na ako. I don't know why, but I was annoyed with her once she mentioned that I have a secret boyfriend way back!

Way back?

"You know coz, now I realized you don't need a jowa." she laughed.

"Of course I don't need that, ikaw lang naman po kasi ang nagsasabi, eh." naiirita kong sabi.

"Yes, you don't need." sabay ngisi niya. "Asawa na ang kailangan mo, Kairra, asawa na!" gulat siya pero halata ang pagmamalaki sa boses dahil sa sinasabi.

Ang kakalunok kong pagkain ay parang gustong pang umahon sa aking lalamunan. What the fudge? Was she insane? Was she really my cousin?

Fudge!

This girl!

I'm still young!

"Ang galing mong magluto, ang sarap nito. Maybe if you have time, you can teach me." masaya n'yang saad at nagpatuloy na sa pagkain, tila wala lamang ang mga sinabi.

She's really baliw na!

Tumaas ang kilay ko dahil sa kaniya, if papatulan ko siya I think mas lalo akong mafru-frustrated. I don't know but I can't get myself get used to her. Hanggang sa matapos kaming kumain ay hindi na ako umimik, but of course my cousin, Gem still talking about her opinion for me, her words have no end. I just forced myself to not mind her even though she's nakakarindi na.

Nang gabing iyon din ay nakatulog naman ako ng mahimbing even I couldn't still forget that strange scenario. Si Gem din ay tulong na tulog sa aking tabi. Napagod din siguro.

Kinaumagahan, pagdating ko sa restaurant ay hindi masyadong busy ang mga tao, maybe it's too early. Maaga pa kaya karamihang order ay mga coffee and breads, order ng mga studyande at patungo sa mga opisina.

"Good morning, miss Kairra." Kuya guard greeted.

I just nodded, my way to greeted him back bago dumeretsyo na sa counter kung saan may nag-iisang server doon. Where are the others?

"Where's Sheeme?" bungad kong tanong.

"Good morning, miss Kairra." pagbati niya. "Nasa second floor po marami pong inaasikaso." she said friendly.

"Thanks." I smiled a little. "I gonna go there."

"Okay po, Miss."

I went in the second floor, naabutang abala ang halos lahat ng servers sa itaas na nagmamadali sa lahat ng ginagawa. What's going on?

"Good morning, Miss" bati ng lahat ng nakakapansin sa akin.

At least even they busy they have time to greets me, huh.

"Good morning." I greeted back.

"Good morning, K." Sheeme greeted me happily. "How's your rest?" mausisa niyang tanong.

I rolled my eyes when I remember Gem words that even we're having dinner she keep talking about nonsense topic. Though, I don't care but it's irritating me specially when he brought that topic about my secret boyfriend! I thought tapos na siya noong nasa mall kami, but I was wrong pinagpatuloy niya pa ang pangungulit na hanapan ako ng boyfriend — I mean hindi na boyfriend, worse asawa na daw! The fudge, my cousin!

Ehh siya nga wala, eh — But I'm not pretty sure.

Ngunit ang bumabalik-balik talaga sa aking isipan ay iyong sinabi niya na... I have a secret boyfriend way back? I don't know if I believe on her because I couldn't remember about it — pero sa bawat pagpasok nito sa aking isipan ay may kakaibang pinapahiwatig ang pagpintig ng aking puso. Everytime it inlet in my mind I remember some unexpectedly scenarios show up in my mind.

"Bad rest mood." humangikngik si Sheeme.

I looked at her with my irritated eyes. Natigilan siya dahil sa naging reaksyon ko pero bakas pa din ang pagngisi niya. Seems reminiscing something.

The fudge! Masama na nga ang rest day ko, masama pa din ang araw ko 'til here. I sighed heavily trying to calm myself down. I don't know but I feel irritated this past few days.

"You all look so busy." I said seriously.

Pinilit niyang pinaseryoso ang mukha niya. "Marami kasing nagpa-reserve. At kaninang maga lamang lahat, kaya we're so busy." she smirked.

"Dapat bang magdagdag pa ako ng server?" I asked.

"Nope. No need. Kaya namin." taas kilay niyang saad.

"Huh, Okay."

She smiled at me. "Maiwan na kita, marami pang aayusin."

"Okay. Babalik ako dito mamaya, after I visit the rooftop. Kung may naghahanap sa akin just call me." paalam ko.

"Okay, K." she said sounds pissing me off.

I just scowled.

Seems I used to her sa ganito niyang ugali, ang mapang-asar na lagi niyang ginawa sa akin. Nakakapagtaka lang — pero ngayon ko lamang siya nakita dahil sa France na ako namalagi.

I went on the rooftop to visit, ngunit wala pang ni isang tao dito. I spent a couple of minutes while silently watching the blue sky. I found myself comfortable with that situation, tahimik, tulala ngunit ang gaan ng bawat pagpintig ng aking puso. Isang bugtong-hininga ang pinakawalan ko bago nagpasyang bumaba na sa second floor upang makatulong doon.

Nang makarating ako sa panghuling hagdan ay pansin na agad ang maraming tao, pansin ko din na karamihan sa mga server ko ay pagod na ngunit pinipilit pa din na ngumiti bilang pagbati sa mga costumers. They really working so hard.

Maybe I can double their salary?

They're really working so hard.

"Uy Jet, ikaw na muna magdala ng order sa number five reservation table, may Isa pa kasi doon at wala pang nag-aasikaso baka umalis o magalit." I heard the girl server asking a favor with a boy server.

Aligaga na sila. They no longer know who's the customer they need to approach first.

"Sino ba iyon, Ann." Jet asked.

"Iyong pogi doon." Ann giggled.

Napabuga ako ng hanging. The fudge, she can still giggled, huh. Hmmm.

"Ikaw na. May ihahatid din akong order, eh." Jet answered.

"Aluh, pano na–"

Ann didn't finished her words when she saw me.

"G-ood morning, M-iss." kabado nilang bati.

"Good morning." I smiled. "Is there any problem here?"

Mabilis silang umiling-iling. "W-ala po, miss." they answered.

"Oh, c'mon, maybe I can help. I know there's a problem, I caught you two. So what it is?" taas kilay kong tanong ngunit nakangiti parin.

Nagturuan pa sila kung sino ang sasagot. "Miss, doon po sa VIP table wala pang nag-aasikaso. Huh, kanina pa po kasi iyon, baka magalit na. Pupuntahan ko naman po mamaya." paliwanag ni Ann.

Tinuro nila sa akin kung saan. Pagkatapos ay dumeretsyo na ako sa VIP table na iyon nang pinaliwanag na ako na ang mag-aasikaso doon. They're right, no one of my server approaching him.

Ohhh.

I suddenly stopped walking when I clearly see who it was.

The son of Mrs. Mizelle Dela Torallez. I can't explain what I'm feeling right now, it was a mixture of feelings that I couldn't really explain. I'm shaking, my heart beat faster while I hold myself just to continued walking towards him. Hindi ko napigilan ang mga mata ko na lakbayin ang kabuoan nya. His wearing a formal black suit, while inside was his white long sleeve seemed he attend some formal meeting like what he was wearing yesterday I saw him in the mall.

I couldn't still forget how our eyes meet yesterday.

I felt a familiar bang in my chest.

I can't explain my own heartbeat. Seems, it was beating with happiness but at the same time it was beating because of the sadness — I don't know! My heartbeat driving me crazy!

"What's you order, S-ir?" I asked when I was in front of him, a little bit shy. "K-indly choose what the best dishes you want, but swear this is all the best. Try our Italian food or our France and of course there's also a Filipino food here, S-ir" I smiled even I'm shaking as my heart beat wildly.

"Where's your server?" tanong niya na ikinagulat ko.

Sa dami kong sinabi wala man lang siyang pinili? Tinanong pa ako? What's his problem?

I scowled. "They're all busy, S-ir. Can I get your order?" tanong ko muli.

Sa tingin ko ay hindi sana siya sasagot kung hindi ko lamang nilakihan ang ngiti sa'king labi. Mabilis lamang siyang pumili na para bang sanay na siya dito. I watched him while he's seriously picking up his order seems I used to watched him this close. I then felt my heart keep beating wildly, I'm just tryna not to mind it.

Hindi ko alam pero para bang nangungulila ako sa ganitong pakiramdam. Feeling that can make my heart beat so fast and loud. Feeling that can make me happy easily. Feeling like I was being pulled back into the past.

"J-ust wait a few minutes, Sir. I'll get you order now." tahimik ko siyang iniwan upang makuha na ang kaniyang order.

Seem like I'm stray when I'm in front of him. I can't figure out why he can affects me like this so easily. My heart beat faster seem I'm in the competition of running. This unknown beat of my heart seems reminding me of my past — past that I don't know what is all about but seems it's have a colorful meaning.

"I hope you like it, Sir." saad ko habang nilalapag isa-isa ang kaniyang order.

Hindi ako nakatingin sa kaniya dahil busy sa pag-aayos ng kaniyang pagkain, pero ramdam ko ang paninitig niya sa akin. This is it again, I'm shaking but I acted like it's nothing. What's that stare for?

"I have to go, S-ir. Enjoy your meal." I smiled but he's busy staring at me.

"Coz, you leave me, huh." galing sa aking likuran ay narinig ko ang boses ng aking pinsan. Iritado.

I immediately turned my back to face her "You were still sleeping." I quickly defended.

"Why you didn't wake me up?" Gem asked lazily.

"I don't want to disturb you, mahimbing pa ang tulog mo." I explained.

She rolled her eyes."By the way." she stopped. "Can you please come with me, this night?" her voice turned softer.

I scowled. "Where?"

"Bar..." she pouted.

"I can't." tanggi ko na agad. "As you can see there's plenty costumers for their reservation this day."

Nakanguso kong nilahad ang maraming tao. She didn't waste any bit of her gaze to look at what I'm pointed out. Nabaling sa aking gilid ang aking tingin at napansin si Mr. Dela Torallez, he's still staring at me intently! The fudge we're still here in front of him pa pala!

Sinilip kong muli siya para matignan ang kanyang expression if he mad or he realized that my actions was unmannerly, but instead, he seems listing too about what me and my cousin talking about. Aayain kona sana si Gem na umalis but she speak again.

"I thought you'll come with me." she said sadly.

Is she have a problem? She's not like this.

"Sorry, Gem. You can stay here if you want." pang-aalo ko. "Marami kasing reservation ngayon."

"That's my plan." malungkot niya paring tugon. "I want to drink, eh." kibit-balikat niya.

I let out a deep breath. "I will come with you. But not now."

Her face turned brighter. "Really?" she asked happily now. "When?"

"Tommorow?" I shrugged.

"Sure. Bukas!"

I nodded. "Then... tell me what's your problem." tanong ko na tila ikinalungkot niya bigla.

I got you, coz.

"Let's go." anyaya ko.

Umalis kami doon at hindi na nagawa pang balingan ng tingin o maski magpaalam sa kay Mr. Dela Torallez na mukhang nakikinig parin amp! I don't think I need to say goodbye to him!?

"Tell me..." Saad ko kay Gem nang nasa veranda na kami.

"I don't have." she shook her head.

"Ohh come on." singhal ko.

Pilit siyang ngumiti sa akin. "Swear it's nothing."

"Liar." sinamaan ko siya ng tingin.

Natahimik siya at umakto na parang malalim na nag-isip. Pinanood ko naman siya.

"Excuse me, K. The costumers on the table eight wants to meet you." Sheeme said. Interrupting us.

"Okay. I'll go there na." I declared and glace at Gem saying that 'we're not yet done'

"What?" natatawa niyang tanong. "Just go." pantataboy niya.

Iniwan namin siya at sabay kaming nagtungo sa table na sinasabi ni Sheeme. Nadaanan ko ang table ni Mr. Dela Torallez. For now I will call him with his last name because I didn't yet know his first name. Tsk, ayaw ko pala siyang makilala, 'ewan ko kung bakit.

Sinulyapan ko siya, tahimik at mag-isang kumakain doon. Slowly, he lifted up his gaze and caught me staring at him. I then felt my heart suddenly beat so fast. Lagi nalamang ganito ang nararamdaman ko sa tuwing malapit ako at nagtatama ang aming mga mata. May ibig sabihin ba ang pagbilis ng pintig ng aking puso?

Naguguluhan ako sa pakiramdam ko na hindi ko matukoy. I want to know why my heart always throbbing too fast when it comes to him. I want to know if we had a connection way back — but it was really clear in my memories that we didn't yet meet way back even when I'm still in France.

The first time I saw him when I go back here in the Philippines was when I'm arguing with my costumer. Iyong naabutan siya sa glass door na nakatulalang nakatitig sa akin. Ang sabi ng mga tito, tita at pinsan ko ay simula ng bata ako ay sa France na ako tumira. So it means I don't have a clear memories here in the Philippines because I'm still kid that time. But still I'm badly wanted to know if we already met each other before?

Gustong gusto kong alamin kung magkakilala ba kami noon pa man kahit alam kong malabo, kahit alam kong hindi. Ngunit sa dibdib ko ay may malaking parteng nagsasabing nagkita at nakilala ko na siya noon pa man. With every beat of my heart make me feel that I knew him very well way back.

That's why I need to know if we ever had a connection with each other — way back.