To Kiss My True Memories

CHAPTER 27

Chapter 27

Ano bang pakiramdam ng nagmamahal? Ganito ba iyon sa nararamdaman ko ngayon sa kaniya? Yes, I admit that I already like him — but love? Loving him now, I don't think so... because... because it's too sudden!

Maybe — maybe I'm just mistaking. I'm just... I'm just concluding. I shouldn't think about it for now and just enjoy the pleasure I feels inside.

"Kairra, nandito ka pa? Nagpaalam ka ng uuwi ah?" si ate Sam nang mamataang narito parin ako sa loob ng restaurant.

"Huh... dito na ako magdidinner, Ate." tanging nasabi ko.

Kumunot agad ang noo niya. "Ah, bakit? Ang sabi mo'y hindi ka pa nagugutom." taka niyang saad.

Napatikhim naman ang lalaking nasa aking tabi. Tinapunan ko siya ng tingin at naabutang nakaangat ang gilid ng kaniyang labi, tila nagtatago ng ngiti. Was he smiling? Why? There's no amusing with what ate Sam said.

"Oh, may kasama ka?" si ate Sam sa aking harapan. "Hindi ba't siya iyong tumulong sayo..." may panunuya sa boses niyang saad.

"Ah, oo, Ate. We will have our dinner here. Doon kami sa taas." saad ko at nginitian siya.

Naguguluhan man ay nakuha niya paring tumango ng dahan-dahan. "Ah... ganon." aniya pa sa mabagal na boses.

"Akyat na kami sa taas." paalam ko na bago binalingan si Darrow na nanonood sa akin. "Let's go." anyaya ko.

Ate Sam asked about our order first and we said it quickly. I gave ate Sam a smile because I know she's concluding something about me and Darrow. But swear, we have no something. Siguro'y ako meron, gusto ko siya ngunit ako lamang iyon dahil alam kong wala lamang ako sa kaniya kaya naman sinusulit ko ang bawat pagkakataon na pumapayag siya sa gusto ko, I just don't know until when it will take.

Iniwan na namin si ate Sam sa kung nasaan siya. Mabilis ang lakad ko sa bawat baitang sa hagdanan patungo sa itaas dahil excited na ipakita kay Darrow ang view ngayon sa taas. It's already dark that's why the view there now is perfect.

"Swear, you will be amaze what's on upstairs." ako nang sa pangatlong paglapag ng hagdanan na ang aming inaakyat.

He didn't say anything like usual, he just stayed silent on my back untill we're now standing on the rooftop.

Why he always chosen to be silent? Is another man like him was really like that? Ganya ba talaga siya, sila? It's kinda boring.

"Turn your eyes around and see the perfect view here at night!" masaya kong saad habang nililibot ang mata sa paligid.

From the dark sky you could clearly see how bright the plenty stars while from afar you could viewy the various colour of lights from the skyscraper. While here on the rooftop of our restaurant is also surrounded by bright and varied light colors. It's too nice to the eyes plus the silent surrounding and fresh cold air at night could lighten up your mood at the same time your feelings.

Gabi na kung kaya't kakaonti na lamang ang mga toang kumakain para sa dinner. Though, sa second floor ang maraming tao dahil may mga selebrasyong nagaganap doon.

"It's really more nice here at night, right?" nakangiti ko siyang binalingan ng tingin habang ang mata ko ay tila kumikinang pa sa nakita sa paligid.

He nodded simply. "How's your foot?" tanong niya, malayo sa inaasahan kong sasabihin niya.

I thought he will say his comments about the view here but why his words was too far from what I expected? Seriously?

"My foot?" natatawa kong tanong. "Wala namang kinalaman ang foot ko sa view, ah?" dagdag ko pa.

"I'm asking how's your foot now?" tanong niya parin.

Napaikot na lamang ang mata ko. "You're asking how my foot now? You didn't ask about it noong nasa party tayo. Bakit ngayon lang?" sarkastikto kong tanong.

"I'm... I'm preoccupied that time." aniya, may bakas ang iritasyon sa boses. "How's your foot?" siya at sumulyap pa sa aking paa.

"It's fine already! I can walk properly now." bahagyan kong inangat ng kaonti ang paa at pinaikot ito ng makailang beses upang makitang maayos na talaga ito. "How 'bout you? May sira ba sa kotse mo?"

"My car is fine. Paanong magkakasira kung ang katulad mo ang sumipa." taas kilay niyang tanong na tila may pinapahiwatig.

Napangiwi ako sa inis. "What are you trying to say? Mahina ako!?"

"Tssk." suplado niyang saad. "You lack weight, you're thin." nagawa niya pang pasadahan ng tingin ang aking katawan.

What the hell! I'm still on my uniform how could he see my body shape properly!?

"I'm not thin, I'm sexy!" pagalit kong saad, palibhasa you're old na!

"Sexy, huh." he said sarcastically.

"Yes, I'm sexy! Hindi mo ba nakita ng mabuti ang suot ko sa party? It's too fit on me and my body curved reveal!" iritado kong paliwanag.

He just sighed and shrugged.

Tssk, this man!

"Let's just go na nga lang sa ating table! You're stressing me out about sa mga sinasabi mo!"

"Yeah, dapat na nga tayong kumain para madagdagan na ang timbang mo." he said as he chuckled thoughly.

"What the!" hindi pa ako natatapos sa sasabihin nang iniwan niya na ako roon at nagtungo sa lamesang paborito ko.

Tskk, this man driving me nuts!

How dare him insult my body! How dare him insult me!

"You're just old already!" I murmured while gritting my teeth.

Sinamaan ko ng tingin ang malapad niyang likod habang naglalakad na patungo sa aming lamesa. Iritado naman akong sumunod sa kaniya, napapapadyak pa sa sobrang iritado. Yes, I like you but you shouldn't insults me!

Nang makarating sa aming lamesa ay nagawa niya pa akong ipaghila ng upuan. Padabog akong naupo doon, masama parin ang titig sa kaniya. He's just smirking because of my childish reaction.

"What's that glare for?" he chuckled.

"Stop insulting me?" I said, you could trace the frustration on my voice.

"I'm not!" depensa niya na natatawa.

I just pouted at him before I turned my eyes from afar and keep silent.

He stayed silent too while I feel him staring at me intently. Binalewala ko na lamang ang mga titig niyang tila pinag-aaralan ang kabuoan ko. With his just simply stare he could make me uncomfortable on my sit already while he could easily make my heart beat too fast and loud.

Shocks! Why it's easy for him to make me feel these feelings! He have so much affects in me! — But it's sad to say that it's just a one sided feelings!

"So, you didn't go home yet after your school?" tanong niya, binasang ang katahimikan sa pagitan namin.

"Isn't obvious? I'm still on my uniform!" pagtataray ko, iwas parin ang tingin sa kaniya.

Hindi naman na siya nagsalita o nagtanong muli dahil sa mataray kong sagot. Na guilty naman ako agad sa pagtataray ko sa kaniya.

The fudge, I think I couldn't stay more longer being mad at him!

"Hmmm, how about you? Umuwi ka na ba... after your work?" tanong ko, mahinon ngunit hindi parin siya binabalingan ng tingin.

Hindi niya naman ako sinagot. Nag-antay ako ng ilan pang segundo ngunit wala parin. Slowly, I turned my eyes to him and guess what? I caught his lips forming smile seems there's something funny — and I should ask him why he's smiling but I got amazed on his smile.

It was my first time to see him smiling like that! Though, even his face was always serious, he's still handsome but hell he's more handsome while smiling like this! Ang mga mata niyang nakatitig sa akin ay nanliliit dahil sa malaki niya ngiti.

The fudge! My heart wants to explode now because of so much kilig na nararamdaman!

How could he affects me this easily? I think I'm liking him more because of this! — You punk, Kairra. You shouldn't like him more deeper because it's too dangerous! Isn't good!

"H-ey... I'm asking y-ou." napakagat ako sa labi dahil sa pagkakautal.

He sighed first and bit his lips to hide his wide smile. "Not yet." he then said shortly.

"Hmmm, okay." napatango na lamang ako.

So, galing siya sa opisina niya pagkatapos ay dumeretsyo rito para kumain ng dinner? Is he didn't know how to cook?

"Anyway, where's my handkerchief? Did you bring it? You should give it back to me now."

"I didn't." sagot niya na parang wala lamang.

Napangiwi ako. "Dapat dinala mo na para maibalik sa akin. Next time dalhin mo." mariin ko siyang tinitigan.

He just shrugged.

What does it mean? Parang wala na siyang balak ibalik sa akin iyon, ah! Nasakaniya parin ba iyon? O wala na?

Nanlalaki ang mata kong tumitig sa kaniya when I realized something. "Wait... don't tell me! Don't tell me nawala mo ang panyo ko! Did you lost my handkerchief!?" paratang ko.

"Of course not! It's still in me. I'm keeping it safely." he said camly.

"Just make it sure! It's very important to me. Did you see the two letters in there? I did it on my own!" may pagmamayabang sa boses.

"Yeah." tanging saad niya naman.

"Don't forget to bring it on sunday. Magkikita tayo kaya dapat ibalik mo na. And don't worry I will bring your coat as well." may kasiguraduhan sa boses ko. "Mabango iyong coat mo, ako ang naglaba." pagmamalaki ko pa.

He smirked snobbishly. "Really?" mangha niyang tungon.

Napaayos naman ako sa aking pagkakaupo at nginitian siya ng malaki "Oo. Mabangong-mabango na 'yon!"

"Let's see, then." aniya, nangingiti.

Sa kalagitnaan ng aming pag-uusap ay dumating si ate Sam dala ang aming dinner. Though, isn't needed na pumunta pa siya dito, I think she's planning something.

"Here's your dinner, Kairra." nangingiti niyang saad habang ang titig ay nasa akin.

"Huh... thanks, ate Sam. Hmmm, hindi naman na kailangang i-entertain mo pa ko." nginitian ko siya ngunit pinagtaasan ng kilay.

He laughed silently. "I'm just curious." aniya.

Napasimangot naman ako sa kaniya. She have nothing to curious about!

"Anyway, alis na ako. Enjoy your dinner." makahulugan niya pang saad, mariin ang titig sa akin.

Nang makaalis sila ay nagsimula na kaming kumain ni Darrow. The two of us remained silent. It's too quiet here and I couldn't start to open a conversation for the both of us. Hindi ko alam kung paano sisimulan kung kaya't nagpokus na lamang sa aking pagkain. Ganon din si Darrow sa aking harapan but I feel him every minutes throwing a glance to me.

It's makes me feel some butterflies in my stomach but I remained quiet and serious. I hold back myself because I know it was nothing. I'm just making it a big deal.

"Is your school is okay?" he asked in the middle of our meal.

Gulat ako dahil siya ang nagbukas ng conversation para sa aming dalawa. I stop eating as I look at him to focus my attention to him.

"Hmmm, kinda. Pero kaya ko naman iyon."

"Free to ask me when you're having a hard time with some of your subjects. Some subject in business is hard." he offered seriously.

I scowled. "You know I'm taking a business course?" taka kong tanong.

He nodded as his answer.

He knew? How?

Was he really know me that much already even I didn't meet him yet? What else he know about me, I wonder?

"After our dinner you should go home too. May klase ka pa bukas." aniya pa.

Napatango naman ako. "That's my plan, anyway."

Pinanood ko siyang magpunas ng kaniyang bibig at sa tingin ko ay hudyat na ito ng pagtatapos sa kaniyang pagkain. Ambilis niya naman! Napapangalahatian ko pa lamang ang akin! Nagmamadali siya?

I focus on my foods and eat faster. Mga ilang minuto pa nang matapos ako ay agad na rin akong nagyayang umuwi. I already said to him for times that he doesn't need to pay for the foods we eat because it already paid but he still left some enough money to pay for our foods.

"Bayad na iyon, hindi ka na dapat ng iwan pa ng pera." pagalit kong saad sa kaniya habang pababa na kami sa hagdanan.

"It's fine." tanging saad niya.

"Next time don't pay when you're with me." utas ko.

Hindi na siya ng salita hanggang sa makarating na kami sa labas. Eksaktong pagtunog naman ng aking selpon dahil sa isang tawag. Its dad who's calling me. I quickly answered it.

"Hello po, dad?" sagot ko at bahagyang tinalikuran si Darrow.

"Where are you? It's already late, your aren't home yet?" alalang tanong ni daddy.

"I'm here sa restaurant po. Pauwi na rin po ako."

He sighed, sounds relief. "Take care. Your mom asking about you as well."

"Tell to mom don't worry about me. I will be there in a minute."

"Take care, darling." si daddy sa mahinahong boses.

After the call I ended up the call quickly and turned to Darrow who's watching me intently, I caught him, though.

"Your dad?" he asked.

I nodded. "They worried because I'm not yet home."

"You should go now." aniya.

Tinanguan ko siya at hindi namalayang napatitig na sa kaniya. We're still here in front of our restaurant. It was dark but because of the light coming from the restaurant we could still see each other clearly. We stared into each other's eyes for a few minutes and no one bothered us even though my car parked in front of us that driven by my driver, it didn't bother us to keep staring at each other.

This time at this place I confirmed my feelings for him. This isn't dark like how dark the sky now. Indeed, it's full of colours, full of emotions, full of feelings and full of truths. This feeling isn't swallow, it's already too deep that I'm dread of. I was constantly falling for him!

Now, I realized, to fall in love is the most perfect feeling you could feel and nothing can stop you. And yes, maybe this feeling can't be reciprocated by the person you love. Sometimes it makes us cry, makes us feel some pain, makes us sad and broken but we couldn't change the fact that to fall in love into someone is an unconditional feeling we will never forget even this person isn't meant for us, even this person isn't our forever. At the end of the day this feelings makes you realized one thing — and this is not to be afraid to fall in love over and over again until we find the person that meant for us.

Darrow say his soft goodnight to me that night while I couldn't still say anything because I'm busy sensing what my inside shouting at.

It's friday now, it's only one day from now and it's sunday, we could see each other again! Sa restaurant ay hindi narin ako nagpapagabi dahil iyong ang bilinin niya kaya talagang sunday lamang kami magkikita. Though, I could clearly feel my heart now beating with so much excitement.

Sa panghuling subject namin ay napapangiti ako dahil iniisip ang muli naming pagkikita kahit pa maraming pinapagawa ang aming mga guro. Tila walang makakapawi ng aking saya ngayon.

"Mga babae, ano na? Hindi ba tayo iinom, nai-istress na ako sa dami ng pinapagawa ng mga teacher, eh!" iritado si Zandro pagkaalis ng aming panghuling teacher.

I just keep arranging my things while listening to their conversation.

"My gosh, Zandro! There's a lot of papers we need to pass next week." pag-alam ni Sheeme. "Kailangan muna nating tapusin ang mga ito."

Yeah, we have so much papers we need to pass. Binibugbog na kami sa dami ng gagawin. It's stressing us but we still needs to submit it on time para walang points na mabawas at makapasa sa mga subject.

Zandro sighed stressly. "Then how about next week? G ba kayo mga babae? Uhaw na uhaw na ako!"

"G kami next week. Para marefresh narin ang utak ko." agad na saad ni Stef at agad ding sumang-ayon si Hannah.

"How about you, Ken? Clarence?' baling ni Zandro sa dalawang lalaki.

"I don't know—"

Zandro didn't let finish what the two boys saying about. "Aysus, don't worry sasama si Sheeme at Kairra sa bar." panunukson niya sa dalawang lalaki. "Mag-aaya pa ako ng iba nating classmates para marami! I'm excited na!"

Tssk!

I don't know if I will come.

"Speaking of bar." biglaan utas ni Hannah. "One of my cousin saw... Darrow there with someone." dagdag ni Hannah.

I secretly scowled quickly as I turned to them, she got my attention because of what she just said. Matigil ako sa pag-aayos ng aking gamit.

"With someone? Sino naman? Babae ba?" sunod-sunod agad na tanong ni Zandro.

"Of course babae!" sarkastiktong saad ni Hannah. "I even have a picture of them."

Mabilis nilabas ni Hannah ang kaniyang selpon upang ipakita sa lahat ang sinasabing litrato — but of course except me!

Nanatili naman ako sa aking kinauupuan, tahimik na nililigpit ang gamit kahit pa ang atensyon ay nasa mga kaklase na abala sa pagtingin ng picture ni Darrow na may kasamang babae.

"Isn't it edited?" Sheeme asked while staring Hannah's phone.

Napangiwi ako sa komento niya.

Gusto ko ring bumaling upang matignan iyon o masuri ngunit pinigilan ko ang aking sarili because I don't think I'll be happy if ever that's true. I just keep arranging my things.

The fudge, what's wrong with me!

"Kairra, are you going with us next week?" si Ken, bahagyan pang lumapit sa akin.

I turned to him to answer him. "Huh, I don't know."

"Why? May gagawin ka ba sa araw na 'yan?" tanong niya muli.

Hindi ko na siya masagot dahil ibinalik na ang atensyon sa mga kaklaseng tinititigan parin ang picture na nasa selpon ni Hannah. Ni hindi na natapos sa pag-aayos ng gamit sa bag dahil sa lumilipad na isip.

"Oo nga. Edited iyan!" Zandro said irritatedly, sounds not sure.

"I think that's true." a naman ni Hannah. "Matagal ko iyang tinititigan and that's too natural, walang edite na nagawa. The way Darrow help that girl waist was too soft. That girl looks familiar to me too." she added.

Napalunok ako sa narinig while I feel some un-okay feelings inside me!

"I also likes Darrow but that's the truth. One of my friends saw an article about Darrow and his girl wich is... Zurina—"

"Zurina? Their model!?" pagalit na saad ni Zandro.

Zurina? Model? Hmmm, sounds could pass to Darrow taste, huh!

"Yup. May lumabas sa social media about their relationship to each other. Though, it's deleted now but na-iscreenshot ito ng friend ko. I think they want to keep their relationships a secret." a ni Stef.

"It's over now for Darrow. I need to find another man." si Hannah sa malungkot na boses.

"Maybe, Darrow's just playing with that girl! Baka hindi siya seryoso!"

"I don't think so, Zandro." si Stef.

"We're not sure." si Hannah naman.

Tssk, you shouldn't listen to them, Kairra! Maybe, you like him but I guess you're really not interested to him! He's already taken now and just accept the fact that he won't going to like you anymore. Hindi ang gaya mo ang tipo niya!

Don't be so affected!

"If they have a relationship let them." saway ni Sheeme sa kanila. "Huwag n'yo na silang pag-uusap gayong nasasaktan naman kayo. You shouldn't stress yourself thinking them, you should reserve your mind thinking our requirements, instead." she added.

"Mabuti pa nga!" sang-ayon ng iba.

"Let's go na, Kairra." baling sa akin ni Sheeme, nagmamadali.

Napakunot ako ngunit tumago na lamang din. I put all my things inside my bag at wala na akong pakealam kung hindi na sila maayos.

I thought no one could makes my wide smile fade away but I was wrong. Dahil sa kaniya kaya may malaking ngiti sa aking lani ngunit siya rin pala ang magiging dahilan kung bakit mawawala ito!

"You okay?" tahimik na tanong ni Sheeme nang naglalakad na kami patungong parking lot.

Kunot-noong akong bumaling sa kaniya. "Yup."

"Tssk, don't pretend. You like him right?"

"I don't know—"

"You just admit it, K! Don't lie." she cut me off irritatedly. "You really okay?"

I gave her a smile. "Yes, I like him but isn't that deep. It's just a 'paghanga!" mariin kong saad.

She stared me for a moment before she shrugged. Piniling huwag na lamang magsalita o magbigay ng komento.

It's up to her if she will believe on me or not!

"Sheeme, hmmm, do you know his number?" tanong ko sa kalagitnaan ng katahimikan sa pagitan namin.

"Who?" lito niyang baling sa akin.

I bit my lips before I say the name. "Darrow..." iwas ako ng tanong sa kaniya.

"Darrow? Why you were asking his number now? What going on?" agad niyang mga tanong na tila nanunukso.

I rolled my eyes out of irritation. "He said we will going to see each other on sunday. I won't go since we have so much papers we need to do." I explained.

"Is that so..." makahulugan niyang saad na tila may iba pang dahilan. "Then, bakit kayo magkikita?"

Ayystt, I still need to explain about it to her! I know her, she won't gonna let it pass 'till she didn't know everything.

I let out a deep sigh. "May ibabalik kaming gamit sa isat-isa."

Namilog ang mata niya habang nakanganga na tila nakakagulat ang sinabi ko. Her eyes blink for times seems she couldn't believe what I said.

What's wrong with her!?

"Kairra, don't tell me.... don't tell me!" aniya, hindi matapos-tapos ang sinasabi.

Napairap ako sa kaniya. "What's wrong?"

"Kairra..." she whispered my name. "Don't tell me... you slept with him already!" gulatan niyang saad.

This time ang mata ko naman ang namilog dahil sa sinabi niya. "W-hat... what the hell, S-heeme!"

"K, huwag kang magsinungaling!" sigaw niya.

"Sheeme!" sigaw ko rin.

Para na kaming tangang na nagsisigawan dito!

I get now why her reaction was like that! Shocks, she has a dirty minded. I quickly felt my face heated. Ang dumi niya mag-isip!

"Why would I sleep with him!?" pagalit kong saad, swear namumula na ang mukha ko dahil sa iniisip niya.

"Then anong gamit ang ibabalik n'yo sa isat-isa? Isn't it underwear—"

"Sheeme!" pigil ko sa kaniya at bahagyan ko pa siyang nahampas sa braso. "We didn't do it! Take out in your mind what you're thinking about us!"

"So... you really not do it?" she whispered seems we're talking some very private things.

Binigyan ko siya ng masamang-masamang tingin. "Hindi nga! I don't even know him bakit ko gagawin iyon sa kaniya! I won't give my V with the person I didn't know!" I explained irritatedly.

"I'm sorry... I'm sorry." nangingiti niya ng ngiti sa akin.

"Ganon ba ang tingin mo sa akin?" inirapan ko siya.

She laughed silently. "I'm really sorry na ngarod..." aniya at bigla pa akong niyakap.

I just pouted.

She's over thinking! Ang dumi pa mag-isip! What the hell! U-underwear, really!?

"Anyway, I don't know his number." mahinahon niyang saad, nangingiti parin sa akin.

"So... hmm, did you know someone who know his number?" seryoso kong tanong kahit nangingiti parin siya.

She shook her head cutely. "Wala rin. But I will try to find a way to get his number."

"Thanks." tipid ko siyang nginitian bago inirapan.

"Don't get mad at me na. Bati na tayo." aniya na parang batang nakikipagbati sa inaway.

Like what Sheeme promised, nang gabi ring iyon ay ni-text niya sa akin ang number ni Darrow na nakuha niya. I wonder where did she get Darrow's number?

Sheeme:

Bati na tayo, K. Sigurado daw na iyan ang number niya sabi ng pinagkuhanan ko.

Ako:

Thanks.

No'ng gabi ring iyon ay ni-text ko na si Darrow bago gumawa ng mga papers. Sisimulan ko na ito dahil marami-rami. I don't think matatapos ko on time, ang dami kase! Sa lahat ng subject mayroon!

Darrow:

Just leave my handkerchief on the counter and tell that's mine. I can't go to get that. — It's Kairra, btw.

After I send my message I block his number immediately before I proceed to start doing my papers. He doesn't need to reply but I hope he will going to do what I said.

I can't face his now — I mean I don't want to face him! First, I've so much things needs to do. Second, he lie on my face saying that he doesn't have a woman. Third, it's needed for us to see each other again!

When the sunday came I stayed in our home doing my papers but I couldn't concentrate. Ala-una na ng hapon ngunit iisa pa lamang ang aking natapos dahil ang utak ay lumilipad sa kung saan. Naiirita na ako sa sarili dahil walang matapos-tapos.

Nakdukduk ako sa mga papel na aking ginawa, mariing pikit ang mga mata nang marinig ko ang pagtunog ng aking selpon. One message came.

I lazily got my phone to check the message. It's from ate Sam.

Ate Sam:

Kairra, may nag-iwan ng panyo dito. Sayo raw, kuhanin mo na wala na 'yong nagbigay.

So, he really did what I text to him, huh!

Bakit parang naghihinayang ako na hindi ko siya makikita ngayon? Bakit parang gusto kong makita siya... kahit saglit lang? Bakit ganito ang nararamdaman ko!?

You punk, Kairra! Yes, you like him but you should control what you feel for him! He's with someone already, you should moving on now! You should stop thinking about him! You need control your own feelings!

But at the end my heart decided to go at the restaurant. I will just going to get my handkerchief, wala rin naman akong matapos-tapos dito, eh!

I'm having a hard time here!

I quickly change before I go to our restaurant. Sa byahe ay iniisip ko parin kung bakit pa ako magtutungo doon ngayon pwede ko namang kuhanin sa ibang araw ang aking panyo. Ngunit... nararamdaman kong hindi ako magtutungo doon para sa aking panyo kung hindi para makita roon si Darrow kahit pa alam kong wala na siya dahil sinabi na ni ate Sam na wala na nga siya roon.

"You really punk, Kairra." galit kong saad sa sarili pagkababa sa sasakyan.

I sighed heavily before I walked to go inside. Once I get my handkerchief I should go back home dahil marami pa akong gagawin kumpara rito na tutunganga lamang ako. I need to concentrates doing my papers.

"Ate Sam, nasaan iyong handkerchief?" agad kong tanong kay ate Sam na nasa counter.

"Ohh, Kairra, ikaw na pala iyan." aniya at binati ako ng ngiti.

I nodded. "Huh, kukuhanin ko lang iyong panyo.

"Sandali lang at kukuhanin ko." aniya.

Sinimulan kong ilibot ang aking paningin sa tahimik na restaurant. There's only a few people, maybe because isn't luch time. Maya mayang hapon pa muli dadami ang tao para sa dinner.

"Ito na, Kairra." nilahad niya sa akin ang isang maliit na paper bag.

Mabilis ko itong kinuha upang i-check ang laman sa loob.

"Umalis na iyong nagbigay, Kairra."

"Kanina pa ba, ate Sam?" tanong ko habang binibuksan ang paper bag.

"Kani-kanina lang naman." she said.

When I finally opened the small paper bag I quickly rolled my eyes when I saw what's handkerchief inside. Was he playing? He knew that isn't my handkerchief. Nananadya ba siya!?

It's was a plane black handkerchief! Duh, my handkerchief is white not black! Pang-lalaki pa itoo!

"Are you really sure, ate Sam... na ito ang iniwan?" nagtitimping tanong ko.

"Yup. Iyan daw iyon." nakangiti niyang saad habang kaharap ako. "Ohh, nandito pa pala siya." dutong niya, nasa likod ko na ang tingin.

Naistatwa ako sa aking kinatatayuan sa sinabi niya. I swallowed hard, couldn't turn my back to face this person. The fudge! I didn't seen him yet but I could clearly feel my heart fluttered already.

Just his simple presence and he could quickly make my heart fluttered already! Shocks, his so much affects on me!

"Kairra, pupunta ako sa taas dahil may mga costumers na maraming tanong. Maiwan na kita, dito." paalam ni ate Sam na hindi ko na nakuha.

Minutes already pass when ate Sam leave me and I still didn't turn my back to face Darrow on my back.

To see him is your wants, Kairra! Then why don't you turn your back now!?

"You avoiding me, huh." his deep serious voice said on my back.

I closed my eyes tight as I calm what I feel inside before I turned my back to face him, I have no choice. I couldn't run this time because I will be weird, right.

One thing I get now — I can never calm myself, what I've feel inside when it's him or even just about him!