Never Will I Ever

Ep.6| Mother's Warmth

Her embrace was warm as always. And here I thought she was going to kiss me! I mean that’s what they portrayed in these T.V shows. I didn't think I am into women but I kind of anticipated a kiss.

" You know, if there's anything bothering you, you can tell me" she spoke softly I was tempted to spill the beans

It was not that simple going around telling everyone I was being abused. I mean I wouldn't see peace ever again. She was mom's friend which was a big minus, all I had to do was shut my mouth and keep the brain functioning period!

Dinner was ready and I didn't know what to do, in my home we didn't usually sit together like a family and enjoy our food, more over it was not my home and there would be walker, The handsome jerk!

Showing up with dragging feet I got there eventually.

Why was it that when you want early you didn't get but when you don't want early you get it! No matter how slowly I walked it seemed I got there anyways.

Thankfully Julia was the only one at the table so joining her was no problem. I didn't feel uncomfortable as I thought I would.

"Emmanuel" Julia called out, if only we could eat alone.

My eyes unconsciously landed on a male figure, just this time he looked a little different. His fair skin was glowing, and his lips looked somewhat purple with his honey brown colored eyes sprinkled with light brown specks framed by beautiful thick lashes. For a moment they looked golden with warmth and as careless as hell. He was just gorgeous and I was mad for thinking that way.

"Lena, is something wrong?" Quickly snapping out of it, I realized both pair of eyes on me.

"Sorry, I’m good"

"Sure you should be, you can't be mesmerized every time you see such beauty,"

As strange as it sounds, I felt at ease hearing from him. It seemed he got back to his playful sense.

" Hi Emmanuel didn't see you with that huge ego blocking my view" I said giving him an innocent smile until I met his eyes, for a split second he seemed disappointed.

"Let's eat, share we?" And Julia saved the day!

The weekend passed very quickly making me think the universe was up against me. Just when I finally started to appreciate life. So now the problem was not getting a dress for school, it was getting to school

I had to ride with walker.

I didn't mind walking. Really, considering how I had been busy sleeping these past days, walking would have help shaped my body but no, Julia is just too nice not to make me do that.

I walked down the halls standing in front of the familiar door contemplating to knock or simply wait.

On the second thought, I think waiting for him would be best. besides knocking never end well with him. No later than a minute he came around ready to leave.

“Walker?” I called out almost in a whisper I’d doubt he heard.  

“We’ll be late if you keep waiting for me to tell you to get in” I immediately hopped in with him driving in silence.

As soon as we got to the gates walker asked me to get down, apparently he didn’t want us seen together.

“Oh and Lena?” I halted in my tracks.

“Walk back home after school”

"Lena!" I heard mom shout my name. Wait! was she back already?

"Lena where the hell are you?!" Quickly I got off the bed trying to put some decent clothes on, didn't want Walker seeing me in my pajama.

"Ma, coming!"

"There you are"

Facing an angry woman was not a pleasant thing to deal with and in as much as I felt frightened and cornered I missed her and like every normal person I wanted so badly to hug her. Feel her arms wrapped around me, her motherly warmth and love. I just needed it. once

"Uh- welcome " unconsciously I hugged her. Maybe for once she would hug me back and grace her slender fingers in my hair like she used to but the only thing I felt seconds after, was the throbbing pain in my rips.

"Don't you dare touch me! Cursed one” She screeched pushing me to the floor.

 I felt the hot tears, but I refused to let ii fall besides this was not the first time she pushed me this hard, certainly not the last time to call me cursed and hurt my feelings.

 "Why- did something happen?" I tried asking maybe she had a bad day it's understandable. Picking myself up I sat on my bed

"Ma, I’m sorry if anything went wrong-but I hope you are well, did you eat?"

The stink on my cheek felt the harsh slap of an angry woman, she slapped me and this time it was hard to keep the tears at bay. it hurt

M-mom I’m s-sorry, I- I didn't mean to say anything to offend you-" I pleaded.

She took a step closer making me squirm in my seat, she didn't look calm, her eyes were sad but she looked like she would go crazy any time, she grasped the full length of my hair colliding my head to the walls

Nothing looked steady anymore and my world was in circles, I got off her grip with the little strength I had unfortunately being pulled back into her tight grip.

"How could you be so ungrateful You little thing! I fed you! Gave you roof to live under and all for what?  to f*cking betray me!"

My butt hit the floor as I lay in daze not being able to comprehend what was going on, I tried to lift myself up but it seems I was glued to it.  I could not move and it ached all over, darkness began to cloud over me but I saw her, she looked satisfied with what was happening to me and the glint in her eyes wanted more of that.

"I, I didn't do anything mom " I forced the words out even though I couldn’t comprehend the words.

"Shut up, you told Julia I hurt you huh? Well then wait!"

It tasted like silver a bit salty in my mouth but it looked red, rolling to my side I felt her pick me up pinning me to the wall,

The tears kept streaming even when my body was weak to allow, all hope was lost. I lived with a monster and that monster was my mom!

The cold metal slide from my cheek to my lips until I felt the sharp object struck my stomach.