Respawn

Chapter 74: If We are Chase by Misfortune

The rain has stopped, and I'm sure Bara will be here soon. Takahashi spreads his palm open, trying to feel for any remaining raindrops. "The rain has stopped now," he stated. I wish the rain would never stop and we could stay like this forever. "Do you hear me, Katsumi?" he asked. I believe I'm thinking about what happened to us earlier, and those memories keep coming back to me. "Yes, I understand! I'm sorry, but I'm thinking about a lot of things right now "I stated. "Bara is already there, and she is shouting at you," Takahashi added, "but it appears like you didn't hear her." With a troubled expression on his face, Bara runs towards us. "Are you all right, Katsumi? Your face is quite flushed. Do you have a high temperature? ", she enquired.

All of a sudden, my face turned bright red! Takahashi could not have gone unnoticed! "How come my face is red?" I inquired. "It is, in fact, bright crimson. Takahashi, her face is red, isn't it?" Bara inquired. When Takahashi is about to glance at my face, I hastily cover it. He admitted, "Yes, it was already red earlier, and I thought I was the only one who noticed it." I'm screaming within, and I'm afraid I'm going to die. This is very humiliating. "I'm just not feeling well! I'm not feeling well and need to get home right away, so let's leave! "I stated. We get into Bara's vehicle and she drives us to my place. "Thank you, Bara," I expressed my gratitude. "Let's meet up again tomorrow! Katsumi, don't forget to take your medicine "she stated

Takahashi is now in his room, and I walked to my room. To him, I'm being far too blatant. Should I make an apology to him? I'm not required to. It will appear that I like him if I apologize to him. I suppose I should check on him because he doesn't seem to be doing well after what occurred today. I take a walk to his room. I knock on his door, and he responds by opening it. "It's already beyond midnight. Do you intend to say something to me? "He inquired. I inquired, "Can I go inside?" "Sure," he replied. He gave me permission to enter his room. I sat on the floor after locking his door. "Is it true that you are sick? You could have just told me you weren't feeling well earlier, and did you take your medicine yet? "He inquired. I take his arm and force him to sit with me on the floor. "Do you require assistance?" he inquired. I hug him and place his head on my chest. "I don't need anything. I just wanted to check in with you and let you know that you don't have to carry the sadness and pain you're experiencing inside. You are free to cry aloud, and I will be there to comfort you "I stated.

For a brief period, the two of us are silent. He returned my hug. "Thank you so much, Katsumi. I desperately need to hear such words. Thank you for expressing yourself in that way, "he stated. I'm glad it was of assistance to him. While I let him hug me, I fiddle with his hair. I need to be careful around him because he appears to be a truly innocent man. Takahashi, I'll be there for you. I'll always be there for you. "I understand how difficult life has been for you. I can't leave you to deal with this matter on your own. I'd like you to know that I'm here to help you "I stated. I'm a little nervous since he's warm and I'm playing with his hair so near to him. I hope you will recover from the agony you are experiencing right now and be ready to love once more.

"I wish I could terminate my life so I could be with them. There is nothing more horrible than wishing for death and being with someone who has already died, yet you have no choice but to confront life and bear the suffering. I begin to believe that God despises me. He gives me so much happiness that I become accustomed to living with those people, and then he simply removes those individuals from my life and leaves me alone. Isn't that a bit cruel?" he stated He's probably both fortunate and unlucky at the same time. He was fortunate in that he had so much enjoyment in his life before those people's lives came to an end. He is unfortunate because the time he spent with those individuals was insufficient. 

I just keep listening to him because I know how much he needs to express the emotion he's suppressing. "You know what bothers me the most? Saki's death deeply affected me. I read her letter to me first, and then I read her confession. She admits that she loves my company. Even though I already have Tori, she didn't stop liking me. When she said she didn't like me, she was lying. When she said she liked my brother, she was lying. I used to like her, but I was terrified of her. If I could just be brave at that time, I'm sure my tale would be different, right? I'm sad she died before I could express my feelings for her. I want to be with her not as a lover, but as someone she can count on at all times," "he stated.

Saki likes her, which comes as no surprise. Well, it's self-evident, but I don't believe it's the real deal between them. It's unusual for a buddy of the other gender to be willing to risk their safety for a man who is simply a friend. "Even if she is still alive, I believe it is too late for us. Tori is my girl, and we already have one daughter. Saki develops a genuine affection for my brother. Looking at her and enjoying her beauty convinces me that you may admire someone without telling them and simply be content with their presence in quiet, "he stated. Then he's a hit with the ladies. What a nave boy he is. He has no idea that he is popular with girls.

"In the past, I've made a lot of bad decisions. Is it true that I made a wrong decision, or does fate just keep handing me bad luck? I recall Watanabe saying something to me before. He stated that I will constantly be pursued by misfortune, and that anyone who is involved with me will be pursued by disaster as well. Perhaps he is correct. My wife, brother, daughter, and friend are all leaving in the same month, which is far too coincidental. You should take a step back and avoid approaching me. If you continue to be friendly to me, disaster will pursue you "he stated He's attempting to warn me about the potential implications of continuing to communicate with him. "I'm not going to stop talking to you," I declared.

"Are you not afraid?" he inquired. I've never had a fear in my heart in my entire life. I'm not afraid of losing. Fighting does not frighten me at all. All I've learned in a hundred years is how to be bold and avoid fear. When I met this man, I felt terror for the first time. When he was on the verge of death, he helped me feel what it's like to be afraid. I was afraid he would die. "I'm not afraid," I declared. "What are you going to do if misfortune follows you?" he wondered. "Then let's get a taste of misfortune, but at least we're together," I added with a smile.