Respawn

Chapter 4: Feelings in Disguise

When I first saw her, nothing made sense. I had powerful thoughts that I couldn't put into words. In my chest, I felt a very quick heartbeat. What do you refer to this as? Is this what they meant when they said "first love"? If meeting this lovely lady is indescribable and leaves me with all the sentiments I can't put into words, I'd say it's love at first sight.

To check this lady in front of me, I'm going to touch her. She's still on the ground and appears to be in disbelief at what's going on. I try to get a better look at her because she shields her eyes from me. "Are you alright? Why are you hiding your eyes? Are you in pain? "I inquired. I reach out to examine her arms, but before I can pull her away, she slaps me across the face. I believe I terrified her. She's crying, and when I glance at her, I'm astounded by what I see. "Your eyes... they're different colors," I exclaimed in awe. She yelled, "Don't come near me!" "Don't be afraid," I continued, "listen, I'm just like you." I take out the ring Saki gave me, and my true self emerges. My horns start to sprout, and the color of my eyes begins to alter. "Look, we're both the same," I explained. In a world where individuals, despite their innocent appearances, are more terrifying, we appear to be a beast with a good heart.

"Wear this," I said, handing her the cloak I had previously worn. "My acquaintance can assist you with concealing your appearance," I explained. I put on the ring once more to conceal my true identity and stand. "Come on, let's go. We need to find her so you can wander around free in this realm," I said. "I don't want to change my appearance, and I don't believe I have anything to hide. There is nothing to be ashamed of if this is my genuine appearance and if this is what God gave me. This is my identity, "she stated. What a brave woman; I wish I had that type of courage. "Do you have a place to stay?" I inquired. "You may remain in my home for now," I added. I took her hand and said, "Let's go."

Saki’s POV

Takahashi is leaning against the wall, and I stare him down. "Can you tell me if you think of me as a possible lover?" I came up with the question. As I get closer to him, his face becomes increasingly near to mine. Is it appropriate to kiss him? I close my eyes and he close his as well, bringing our faces closer together. I was ready to kiss him when it occurred to me that I had to win. I told him, "Don't be delusional." I take the knife from my pocket and prepare to sever his throat. He smiled as he continued, "Thank you for your advice, but it appears the tables have turned." I saw he was aiming a g*n at my head when I looked at him. "I am the sheriff, baby darling," he stated.

He is the sheriff, which comes as no surprise to me because I already knew he was the sheriff. I just didn't want to harm him, so I didn't want to kill him. While playing the murder game, I saw him several times but did not kill him. He's clumsy and can't even hide well. He's also adorable and cute. I'm sure he wants to win, and I'm sure he's on the lookout for me because he knows he'll be safe with me. How can I be so devoted to a guy who is 6 years younger than me? I'm so foolish. Now we're in this situation, with me holding a knife to his neck and him holding a g*n to my head.

But, Takahashi, do you realize the difference between you and me? We are in possession of weapons that have the potential to end the lives of others. We are holding the life of the other, and we have the option to choose whether or not we want to witness the other's blood starting to fall to the ground right now. However, the difference between you and me is that I will not s***h your throat, nor will I harm you. You, on the other hand, chose to pull the trigger and let my body fall to the ground.

While I wait for him to shoot my head, he pulls the trigger as rapidly as he can. I died as blood gushed from my head after he shot me in the head with his g*n. I'm starting to lose consciousness and I'm about to pass out again. My lifeless body lay in front of him, splattering blood all over the floor. "The sheriff assassinates the murderer! Takahashi Fujin has won this round of the murder game! " I returned to the respawn lobby, where I ran into Takahashi once more. "How can you be so harsh on a girl like me? Try to be gentleman, "I stated.

I gently caressed the spot on my head where he blasted his g*n at me. I admitted, "That hurts a lot." "I'm sorry," he apologized as he approached me and tried to see if I was alright. "Are you okay?" he asked. Stop appearing concerned about me when you didn't hesitate to pull the trigger on the g*n you're holding. He doesn't give a damn about me. He's such a huge hypocrite. I can't tolerate how numb he is. "Of course, I am," I responded as I hit his shoulders. "I am fine. Look, I'm fine from the bottom to the top." He yelled, "I can't believe you're the murderer in the murder game; I thought you were innocent," he exclaimed. I laughed as I said, "I didn't expect you to be the sheriff." Why am I acting as though I am completely unaware that he is the sheriff? Because of this guy, I am being stupid. I'm doing everything I can to make him feel better.

"Saki," he whispered. As he muttered my name and inquired, I turned to face him. "Yes? What is it? " "You had previously posed a question to me. You asked me a question earlier. Do you want me to answer that question right now?" he explained. I replied, "Which question?" I'm aware of the question he's posing, but I'm not sure why I'm avoiding him now that he's brought it up as a topic. I have no idea why I randomly asked such a question while playing. I'm just reacting to a powerful emotion and saying things without thinking. I believe now is not the appropriate moment to confess. He seems numb and insensitive, and admitting to him right now would only result in rejection. I'm sure he doesn't like me since I'm elderly and he doesn't give a damn about me.

"You ask me if I see you as a potential lover. Do you want me to answer that question? ", he remarked, his gaze falling on my eyes. We look at each other in the eyes. He takes my hand in his and reassures me that it's fine to answer my inquiry and that I have nothing to be embarrassed about. It's time for me to relax! Remember, he doesn't care about me and will make fun of my feelings! Don't get caught up in his beautiful eyes and stare! Don't fall for his deceptions! Be brave and act as if you don't like him! I started hitting his chest and laughing, and I shouted, "Why are you asking questions like that young boy? I can't believe you fell for that. You're such a funny guy. I'm only joking! Please accept my apologies if I have raised your expectations. Takahashi, I'm not interested in you. "

He began to laugh and put his hand on my nape, saying, "I thought you were serious because you're being creepy, but that's just a strange question to ask. I'm not interested in you either; I have my own preferences, and I don't like girls like you.". I couldn't help but be disappointed. He was being so harsh by mocking my emotions. It's a good thing I didn't confess. I'm well aware that telling him about my sentiments will be futile. Maybe I should keep quiet about how I actually feel till it passes. "You don't have to tell me you don't like me," I rolled my eyes. "I already like someone," I explained. 

"I still don't have someone I like because my standards are high," he said, mockingly. "My expectations are also high! This guy I'm talking about is very handsome, and... " I paused for a moment before continuing, "He is clumsy, but he is awesome just the way he is!" While thinking of him, I describe the guy I like. He is so oblivious to the fact that I am referring to him. "He is courageous! He is one-of-a-kind, and I believe he possesses something special! Unlike other people, I can see that he is a good guy," I continued. I'm giving him all the indications that I like him, but he doesn't seem to notice. Perhaps he simply dislikes me. I don't want to see or speak with him any longer.

When the morning came, Takahashi had not contacted me or chatted with me. He didn't even bother to call me. I began to feel concerned about him, so I rushed to his apartment. Now that the sun is rising, he should be awake. It was locked when I arrived at his door. When I got out, I noticed that his windows were open. I jumped and landed in his window, since I can jump pretty high. I discovered that he was still lying on his bed, wrapped in his blanket. I am getting increasingly concerned and fear that he will become ill.

As I approached him and placed my hand on his forehead, I became deeply worried. "Are you sick?" I asked. He remained silent and continued to ignore me. He doesn't appear pleased that I've come to see him. He doesn't appear to be sick at all. "What's up? You didn't even contact me! " I exclaimed. He wrapped a blanket around himself like he didn't want to hear anything I say.

"You are so naive! Are you ignoring me?! " I screamed. "Go away, I don't have the strength to talk," he said. This boy irritates me greatly. Maybe I wouldn't be like this if I had the option to ignore him and dislike him. "You're pretending to be sick, aren't you?", I said. "I just don't want to talk, I'm exhausted," he said. I'm completely enraged. He doesn't seem to appreciate the fact that I came to see him, and he's behaving like a child. He can survive without me, ignore me, and go a day without speaking to me. I started walking away, stomping my feet. Before I left, she gave him a look and said, "Now I get why girls won't like you.".  "If you want, just communicate with me or contact me," I stated.

Takahashi and I had not spoken in a week. I didn't pay him a visit, and he didn't even contact me or pay me a visit when I was in my apartment. I have a tremendous sense that is driving me insane, and it is telling me that I must visit Takahashi. There's an indescribable sensation in my body that makes me miss him. I rushed towards his apartment after taking a bath and changing my clothes. An elderly lady approached me while I was walking. She said, "Lady, come here, I have something to tell you." I assumed she needed assistance, so I approached her swiftly to assist her. "You are a very lovely and kind girl in person," she said.

"I don't want to sabotage destiny's plan, but lady, if you don't confess to the man you like, fate will bring him face to face with his first love, who will love him with all her heart," she added. "So, go! Keep an eye out for him! I'm cheering for you and him, and I know you'll take care of him better than anybody else, "she said. I didn't have time to thank the lady, so I began running and searching for Takahashi. All I can think about right now is how much I don't want to lose him.

Fortunately, I caught a glimpse of him! "Takahashi," I said as I walked closer to him. Now that I'm here, there's no need to be concerned. I'll confess right now and tell you how I actually feel about you, Takahashi. I was ready to touch his arms when he started running away. "Wait!" I screamed and cried. No, I'm not going to let you go. I begin to chase him, but the place becomes increasingly congested, and Takahashi begins to fade from my view. 

Destiny must be joking. I have the feeling that no matter how hard I try, fate is attempting to connect Takahashi with her first love. When I looked into the woods, I noticed Takahashi embracing a woman. What should I think about? Should I be happy that he finally found his first love or should I be sad because it wasn't me?